While all the time He tells us, "It is nought."

And now we say we never can be free,

For Nature binds us, for the fire must burn,

The water drown and death must seize his prey

And grief and torture do their will with us

And sin be like a lion with the world,

Because 'tis Nature. Man's not infinite,

The proof is with us every day, they cry,

And God Himself's a huge machine at last.

Yet over us all the while Thought's lightnings play

And all the while within us works His love.

Now more than when the play began, He laughs.

2

Now I believe that it is possible

To manage the arising clouds, to silence

The thunder when it roars and put our rein

Upon the lightnings. Only first within

The god we must coerce who wallows here

In love with his subjection and confined

By his own servants, wantonly enslaved

To every lure and every tempting bond.

And therefore man loves power, but power o'ercome,

Force that accepts its limits. Wherefore then

A limit? Why not dare the whole embrace,

The vast attraction? Let us risk extinction then

If by that venture immortality

And high omnipotence come near our grasp.

'Tis not the little rippling wayward seas,

Nor all huge ocean tumbled by its storms

That can be our exemplar. The vault of heaven

Is not a true similitude for man

Whose space outgyres thought's last horizon. Something

There is in us fears not the night beyond,

But breathless sails, unanchored, without helm,

Where mind and senses fail. Our naked soul

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Can journey to the farther unshaped void

Where nothing is except ourselves, arrive, hold on,

Not shake, not ask return. Who accepts at last

His limit save the beast and plant and clod?

O to be perfect here, to exceed all bounds,

To feel the world a toy between our hands!

Yet now enough that I have seized one current

Of the tremendous Force that moves the world.

I know, O God, the day shall dawn at last

When man shall rise from playing with the mud

And taking in his hands the sun and stars

Remould appearance, law and process old.

Then, pain and discord vanished from the world,

Shall the dead wilderness accept the rose

And the hushed desert babble of its rills;

Man once more seem the image true of God.

3

I will not faint, O God. There is this thirst,

And thirst supposes water somewhere. Yes,

But in this life we may not ever find;

Old nature sits a phantom by the way,

Old passions may forbid, old doubts return.

Then are there other lives here or beyond

To satisfy us. I will persist, O Lord.

III

What is this Love that I have never found?

I have imagined in the skies a God,

And seen Him in the stirring of the leaves,

And heard Him in the purling of the brooks,

And feared Him in the lightning's flashing tusk,

And missed Him in the mute eternal night,

And woke to Him in the returning Dawns.

And now I say there is no God at all,

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But only a dumb Void that belches forth

Numberless larvae and phantasmal shapes

Into a void less happy than itself

Because this feels. O if this dream were true,

This iron, brute, gigantic helpless toy

They call a world, this thing that turns and turns

And shrieks and bleeds and cannot stop, this victim

Broken and living yet on its own wheel,

And if a Will created this, what name

Shall best blaspheme against that tyrant God?

Let all men seek it out and hurl it up

Against Him with one cry, if yet perchance

Complete denial may destroy His life

With happy end to His unhappy world.

For where in all these stars is any sign of Love?

It is not here, but that which seems like Love

Is a sleek cruel cheat that soon unmasks,

Sent here to make the final suffering worse,  —

Not Love, but Death disguised that strokes its food!

And all good in the world is only that.

A death that eats and eating is devoured,

This is the brutal image of the world.

 —

Lo, I have cursed Thee, lo, I have denied

Thy love, Thy being. Strike me with Thy rod,

Convince me that Thou art. O leave it not

To Thy dumb messengers that have no heart,

No wrath in the attack, no angered love,

No exultation in the blow that falls,

The cry that answers. Let me feel a Heart,

Even though an evil one, that throbs and is

Against our tears, our pressure and our search.

Beware, for I will send my soul across the earth

And all men turn against Thee at my word.

There is no sign, there comes not any voice.

And yet, alas! I know He will return

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And He will soothe my wounds and charm my heart;

I shall again forgive, again shall love,

Again shall suffer, be again deceived.

And where is any end, O Heaven, O Earth?

But there is never any end when one has loved.

 —

A sudden silence and a sudden sound,

The sound above and in another world,

The silence here; and from the two a thought.

Perhaps the heart of God for ever sings

And worlds come throbbing out from every note;

Perhaps His soul sits ever calm and still

And listens to the music rapturously,

Himself adoring, by Himself adored.

So were the singer and the hearer one

Eternally. The anthem buoyant rides

For ever on the seas of Space and Time

And worships the white Bliss from which 'twas born;

The ineffable Delight leans silent down

And clasps the creatures of its mystic cry

For ever and for ever without end.

 —

Who art thou that pursuest my desire

Like a wild beast behind the jungle's screen

And throw'st a dread upon its fiercest fire,

A shadow on its flowering joy and green?

Thou madest and deniest me my need,

Thou jealous Lover and devouring Greed!

 —

Who spoke of God? There is a hungry Beast

In ambush for the world who all devours,

Yet is his hunger sated not the least.

He tears our beauty, strength and happiest hours,

And eats our flesh and drinks our blood and tears,

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Ranging as in a thicket through the years.

 —

Dost thou desire my last vain hope? Take it, rejoice!

Wilt thou exact my dying bliss? Tear it and end!

But give me this at least, dying, to hear thy voice

By thee as foeman slain if never clasped as friend.

 —

Foeman or friend, lover or slayer, only thee

I need and feel, O personal Eternity.

 —

If what thou gavest, thou must needs again exact,

Cancel thy forms, deny thy own accomplished fact,

With what wilt thou replace them? Is thy nameless void

Embraceable by arms? Or can the soul upbuoyed

Rest on a shoreless emptiness without a name?

Can Love find rapture by renouncing all his flame?

Thou hast forgotten or our nature is misled.

Lur'st thou to utter life beyond the silence dead?

 —

Not sound, nor silence, neither world nor void,

But the unthinkable, absolute, unalloyed

One, multitudinous, nameless, yet a Name,

Innumerably other, yet the same.

Immeasurable ecstasy where Time

And Space have fainted in a swoon sublime!

 —

Of silence I have tired, from the profounder Night

I come rejected. All the immensities overhead

Are given to my fierce upwinging soul at last

Rapt into high impossible ranges huge outspread.

Unnumbered voices thrill the silent waiting Vast,

A million flames converge into the rayless Light.

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