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\n\tMeeting the Mother
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\n\tRight Attitude during Interviews with the Mother
\n\t<\/a> <\/b>
\n\t<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tThe right attitude in approaching the Mother when she sees one,
\nis to keep the being perfectly quiet and open to receive, without any activity of the mind or desire in the vital, with only the
\nsurrender and the psychic readiness to accept whatever is given. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tTomorrow, 24th, the Mother sees you 
\n\t\u2014for meditation, so
\nthat she may see and do whatever is needed.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

\n\t23 February 1932
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\n\tIt is a strange thing, but it seems to be absolutely clear that the
\nMother wants me to go to her. Everything in me says, “Yes, yes, it is true 
\n\u2014there is no doubt about it.” And I would surely
\ngo to her in spite of this fear that holds me so tight, if only I knew how and where to meet her.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThis fear is an absurd and irrational feeling in the subconscient physical 
\n\u2014there is no reason for its existence  \u2014unless it is the
\nfear of the egoistic physical clinging to its own individuality and unwilling to be “swallowed up” in the Mother. Otherwise it
\ncan only be a sort of tamasic counterpart to the rajasic revolt and pride 
\n\u2014for these two things often go together or alternate.
\nMother was and is quite ready to see you. But you must get rid of the fear, distrust and unwillingness, for there should be a trust
\nand openness in you, when you come. If you wish she can fix a time  \u2014next Thursday at 9.30. In the meantime we can try to
\nget this obstacle out of you.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tIs it true that having seen Mother, there may be a struggle for
\na few days? Should I be on guard against attack? <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIt is better to be on guard for the struggle is possible, though not
\n\tinevitable. Something is put in you to develop  \u2014usually the<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nhostile forces try to interfere to prevent the inner evolution. A little more vigilance is therefore advisable.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n9 May 1933 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nFour months ago I begged the Mother for an interview, but up to this time she has not accepted my prayer. I have decided to
\ncut off all my vital connections with Bengal, but if two of my friends there meet with spiritual death, I will never recover.
\nAt this critical juncture of my life, will Mother give me an interview?
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nWhen one comes to the Mother, one must not come with these things in the mind 
\n\u2014but in quietude and light solely to receive
\nfrom her what one can assimilate.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tMother, give me an immutable and constant peace.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThe Mother is always ready to give you peace. It was for that Mother called you last time, but you were very restless. Sometimes you can receive very well. Try to be like that always, 
\n\u2014always with the door of your being open to receive the Mother
\nin you and her peace but shut against any other influence or pressure. Then you will have the immutable peace and feel the
\nMother always in you and yourself in her.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tI feel very dissatisfied with myself. I wish to see the Mother
\nand arrive at something real. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tYou would arrive at nothing real by seeing the Mother when
\nshe herself does not think it the right thing. It is not by seeing the Mother that one gets realisation but by doing her will and
\nallowing her true inner working within you. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tThough I do not want the Mother to act under compulsion, I feel sure that if
\n\tI give an ultimatum that I am going away, she will do all I ask.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nYou are mistaken. Mother will do what she considers to be the right thing for each. If it is right for you to go away or for anyone
\nto go away she would not ask to stay. She does not think it right for you to go 
\n\u2014so she would say No. But on the same ground
\nshe would say No to your vital desire.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

\n\t28 September 1935
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\n\tThe Mother does not usually speak with those who come for an
\ninterview before starting. If she had to speak, she would not give an interview at all to most, for she would have no time. Moreover it is not by speech or instruction or answering questions that Mother works on the consciousness of the sadhaks, it is by
\na silent influence to which they have to learn to open themselves. As for his readiness for the Asram life, it should be evident to
\nhimself from his reactions, especially about his family, that he is not ready 
\n\t\u2014he would have been pulled away by these feelings
\nand it would have been a serious fall for him. To be told the truth about themselves and get the guidance unasked 
\n\t\u2014that is
\na grace which sadhaks should accept with gladness  \u2014to weep and feel hurt is a reaction of the vital which he must get over.
\nPsychic weeping, a weeping from the soul deep within, tears of the soul’s yearning, of sorrow for the resistance of Nature, of
\njoy or love or bhakti does not cause a fall, it can help and open up the inner soul from its veils; but this weeping has no strain or
\nsuffering in it, it is something very deep and quiet and brings a sense of purification and release. That is not so with the weeping
\nwhich comes from the vital and is born of hurt or abhiman or disappointment or shakes or disturbs the nature.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n16 March 1937 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nWhat attitude should I take during my meditation with the Mother? Last time I could not properly receive the Mother’s
\nForce or become conscious of her working. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tTo be conscious of the Force or working in a meditation with the Mother, the
\n\tconsciousness must be still and passive to her. If one is accustomed to be
\n\tactive and make one’s own formations,<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nthat stands in the way and must be suspended during the meditation.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nI could not quite follow what the Mother said [in the last<\/i> interview<\/i>] about things in the exterior consciousness coming
\nin disguise. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tMother only remembers to have said that there were many things
\nin the exterior consciousness that obscured and veiled the inner being  \u2014this was in connection with what you said about the
\nheart not opening. Perhaps she may have said that these things do not always show themselves in their own forms, so that one
\nis not conscious of the obstacle.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tI intend to sweep out the lower forces before meeting the
\nMother tomorrow. Failing that, I do not wish to show my face to her.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThat is the suggestion of the lower forces. They want to create an excuse for your remaining aloof like that.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\n\tThe whole being feels a disturbance, a disgust, as if the sleeping lower nature has been woken up. My mind is full of bad thoughts and I feel burdened. I have become like a thing on
\nthe waves. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tBut why does this always happen after the Mother calls you?
\nYou must get rid of this reaction, otherwise the Mother will not feel free to call you. You must learn to use your will and not be
\npassive to these reactions. <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nIf
\nMother’s seeing you for a minute cured your vital, she would see you, but will
\nit? does it really help you? Generally such desires in the vital are not stopped
\nby satisfying them. All the same at the end of the morning when the others have
\ngone, if you are there, Mother will see you for a minute.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nImpossibility of Giving Interviews to Everyone
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\n\tIt is not possible for the Mother to give you the five minutes a
\nday you ask for; her time is already too much taken. There are many others who have asked the same thing; the Mother has had
\nto refuse them all. You are mistaken if you think that any such arrangement is necessary for your sadhana. A daily meditation
\nof the kind would help you perhaps if you kept always the right attitude; but if you keep the right attitude, you will not need any
\nsuch routine of outward means, the help the Mother is always giving you would be more than sufficient.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nI think it needful at this stage of your sadhana to repeat my previous warning about not allowing any vital mixture. It is the
\ncrudity of the unregenerated vital that prevents the psychic from remaining always at the front. You have now seen clearly the two
\ndifferent consciousnesses,  \u2014according to what you have written in one of your letters, 
\n\u2014the psychic and the vital. To get rid of
\nthe old vital nature is now one of the most pressing needs of your sadhana. You are trying to get rid of the vital attachments and to
\nturn entirely to the Mother. At this juncture you must be careful not to allow the movements of the old vital nature to enter into
\nyour relations with the Mother. Take this matter of your wish for more physical nearness to her or contact with her. Take care
\nnot to allow this to gain on you or become a desire; for if you do, the vital will begin to play, to create demands and desires, to
\nawake in you jealousy and envy of others and other undesirable movements, and that would push your psychic being into the
\nbackground and spoil the whole truth of your sadhana. There are some who have suffered much trouble and difficulty in their
\nYoga by making this mistake, and I think it therefore better to put you on your guard.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nI am so miserable and can’t find my way, and what is most discouraging is that I see others receiving so much help from
\nthe Mother and being cared for by her, while I am left to myself with my wretched life to pull on somehow. For me the
\nMother’s doors are closed. For others the freedom, enjoyment,  
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\npleasure of her company, her constant love and help. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIf you cherish this attitude and these feelings, how can you
\nprogress? they are the very opposite of the needed faith and surrender.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nWho are these who have constant outward help from the Mother 
\n\u2014you speak as if all but you had it? The Mother sees
\na small number of people every day because they come here for work in the rooms (X, Y, Z<\/i>) or to report work to her (A, B, C,<\/i>
\nD, E<\/i>). The Mother does not talk with these about Yoga, nor do they have meditations with her; they come for their work, speak
\nabout it and some general matters and go. There are some like F<\/i> and G
\n<\/i>who get a meditation perhaps once a week, others come
\nfor a few minutes perhaps once a fortnight  \u2014there is no fixed period for any 
\n\u2014or at long intervals, some see the Mother (apart
\nfrom Pranam) once a year. For the constant outward help, the only way all these get it is by writing to the Mother or myself,
\njust as you do. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIf the Mother is not calling you, she has told you why; it
\nis because each time you get upset; why should she call you only for you to be upset? She called you at your request a few
\ndays ago and now you are in this condition  \u2014worse than you have been for a long time 
\n\t\u2014it has simply revived the old desire,
\nrepining, revolt. How is it that this happens if there is not desire, demand, wrong feeling mixed up with your physical approach
\nto the Mother? or why else should there be this feeling about others?
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nI have been trying to make you develop the psychic attitude, bring out the psychic being, look towards the Mother not
\nwith the old vital demand, but with the soul’s need, the psychic openness, confidence, so that when you approach her physically
\nit may be with the true openness that receives the light, the strength, the joy she tries to give to everybody. That is what is
\ndemanded now of those who approach her; the old vital way is now discouraged not only for you, but for all. Develop the psychic attitude and there will be no difficulty for your approaching her or for her calling you when it is needful. You were beginning
\n  <\/span><\/p>\n

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\nto develop a capacity for feeling the influence. Instead of falling back to the old mood and the old way, continue to develop that.
\nIt is the only way and there is no other. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tP. S. Do not allow any influences from people you mix with
\nto upset you  \u2014I am speaking of any recent influence  \u2014e.g. from people who are dissatisfied and complaining that the Mother
\ndoes not help them. It may be something of this kind has upset you without your noticing it.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n31 August 1932 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nMay I come to see the Mother on days when there is no pranam? I feel such peace when I pray at her feet and I long
\nto see her on non \u2014pranam days. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tDo you think the other 120 people here have not the same wish 
\n\t\u2014and what is the use of a non \u2014pranam day if Mother has to see everyone who would like to come to her that day?
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n30 May 1933 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nMother has a very limited time for seeing people 
\n\u2014she has so much to do. So it is only when there is a strong necessity that she
\nsees except for those who have work to do with her.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tWhat you propose about seeing the Mother at will is not physically practicable and wherever in a few cases it has been allowed in the past, the results have not been helpful. What you should
\ndo is to write every two days or so a few lines until the difficulty is over. You must especially let me know about the sleep and
\nthe nervous condition. In fact you ought to have let me know at once. Although correspondence was stopped and still is till
\nfarther notice, I had said that important or necessary communications could be sent.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n3 March 1935 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nI feel a constant longing to ask the Mother to grant an interview to me. At
\ntimes I feel utterly dissatisfied and uncertain of
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\nwhat I am doing and a little meeting with Mother could put right the whole thing.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is not because Mother does not care for you that she is not calling you 
\n\u2014when she is sure that things are ready she will do
\nit. But it is not possible immediately or soon. First, she does not want to bring up old difficulties 
\n\u2014secondly, nowadays there are
\nmany difficulties and she is tired and does not feel like talking with people. You must wait till things are clear on all sides 
\n\u2014they are not now.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tX <\/span> <\/i>gets 144 interviews with the Mother a year, Y <\/i>and Co. get
\n48 or more, Z <\/i>gets about 24, A <\/i>and others get 365 or more! Most of the rest get 1 or 2 a year. Why not add one more
\ninterview for them? At present the Mother gives about 1200 interviews a year. If she gave 3 to each sadhak in a year, it
\nwould mean 450 a year, still leaving a grand surplus for the X<\/i>s, Y<\/i>s and
\nZ<\/i>s. One more interview would keep the sadhaks
\nin good spirits and they would feel happy for months. Now it is like the high pay of the higher officials in India. The Viceroy
\ngets a huge amount, the clerks get hardly anything. How long will these inequalities in government remain?
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is not a government and an interview is not pay. If it comes to a question of demand and supply or of interviews as a right
\nand privilege, no sadhak would be satisfied with 3 or with 300. There would be complaints, laments and revolts just as there are
\nnow. People would soon find some other ground for accusing the Mother of partiality and injustice (the people who get the most
\ninterviews are generally those who revolt the most, though there are exceptions). It is precisely this treating of the spiritual life as
\nif it were a “government” or a court or a school (with places and marks and rewards and punishments) or a hostel or a mixture
\nof all these and some other human institutions that has been the bane of this Asram. If it is to be a Government with Mother
\nas President dealing out privileges, handshakes, pay, and what not on a principle of democratic equality or any other principle,
\nthen her only course would be to abdicate.   <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nThe number of interviews has nothing to do, by the way, with smallness or bigness of people, however the size may be
\nreckoned. There are spiritually big people who get no interviews and spiritually small ones who get them. The same would
\nturn out to be the fact on any principle of smallness or bigness.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThe only place where a satisfactory equality of treatment is possible 
\n\u2014satisfactory to the human mind and vital  \u2014would
\nbe I think Nirvana or the Nihil of Sunyavadins.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tI feel a vacancy in my life. If the Mother starts seeing me again
\nfor a short time, I will try to carry out some big scheme for her, such as calling a lot of people and doing something with
\nthem. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tAll that is quite premature. Big scale work can come only when
\nthere has been a great inner change in people and things also change.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nOr if these big things are for the future, I can do some sadhana, and if the Mother begins seeing me, I can do it more
\nconsciously. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tThe sadhana must not depend on physically seeing the Mother.
\nIt is bound to go wrong if there is any such dependence. It is not without a reason that Mother has drawn back from seeing
\npeople.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tYesterday I got into a condition of excitement and again I
\nwished to ask the Mother to begin seeing me. There is a separation which makes me feel a sort of humiliation and
\na disappointment. It is not worth continuing this sort of life. Perhaps I should go away from here if it is not possible to see
\nthe Mother. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIt is obviously a wrong movement. When you get excited like that and under
\n\tthe sway of a persistent desire, it is already
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\nevident that it is a wrong movement 
\n\u2014when it leads to a suggestion to go away if the desire is not conceded, then there can
\nbe no further doubt about it. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tYou ought to realise that the Mother knows better than
\nyou what is best for you and your sadhana. You must leave it to her to call you or not to call you. To let a desire like
\nthis seize you and insist on its satisfaction is not at all a right attitude. Especially this strong insistence of a desire to insist on
\nthe Mother physically seeing them is a dangerous thing for any sadhak and has done harm to many. It means that some vital
\ndemand has got hold of them which wants to satisy itself and, if indulged, would remain dissatisfied and ask for more and more
\nand revolt and make things impossible. The very fact that you talk of going home if Mother does not yield to your demand
\nshows that it is such a demand that has awoke in you and is returning again and again 
\n\t\u2014it is not a psychic aspiration, for
\nthe psychic aspiration always respects the judgment and will of the Mother. It is after long years of experience of the disastrous
\nresult of yielding to these vital demands that Mother has drawn back from them and now no longer sees many people whom
\nshe saw before. You must not expect her to go back upon her resolution so long as the vital of the sadhaks is not changed and
\nclear of these demands and insistences. You should throw this demand away and go on quietly with your sadhana.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThe first thing a Yogi should have is a constant inner peace and quiet and no excitement, no clamour of desires which he
\ncannot control. You must arrive at that first. Moreover as I have told you, it is the inner reality of the Mother’s presence and
\nnot only of her presence but of her control that must be now the aim of the sadhana. Any insistence on the outer thing is a
\ndeparture from the true line and can only lead astray. In all these matters it is the Divine Will that must rule and the will of the
\nGuru. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tRespect always the will and decision of the Mother.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nIf there is a possibility of the Mother calling me “when the time comes”, my going away would be wrong and I can wait
\nand see. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tWhat I said was that you should leave it entirely to the Mother
\nto call you or not to call you. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tThe Mother’s will and decision I have always respected, but I
\nsaw no reasoning in the things concerning me. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tI simply meant that her decision should be accepted whatever it
\nis. Since it is her decision not to have a private interview, that will should be accepted and you should not go on insisting on
\nher calling you.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tBut why does the Mother not see me? Do I lack the effort
\nand persistence necessary? Am I not sufficiently sincere and constant? I will be glad if Sri Aurobindo answers me.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nI have already answered often enough that you must not persist in these ideas 
\n\u2014you must leave everything to the Mother.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThese days I have an aspiration to be on the right path and do what is right and advance.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThe right path is the path on which the Mother’s will wants you to go, no other.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n9 July 1935 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n

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\nToday too I am feeling that life is not worth living if the Mother will not see me. I used to be able to go to the rooms upstairs
\nwhenever I liked. Now I think that going away is the only thing to do.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nNo one is allowed freely inside the upstairs rooms except the few who work there; they can naturally come in within their
\nworking hours; but they do not take Mother’s time  \u2014they do their work and go away. No one else can enter the upstairs rooms
\nexcept the meditation room and the small one where she receives  <\/span><\/p>\n

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\npeople. There too those only can come who are called there and only for the time assigned to them, nor can they go about freely
\nupstairs or do what they like. Everything is according to a strict obedience and discipline.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nMother did not stop seeing you merely because she had no time 
\n\u2014though it is true that she has no time and is outworn and
\noverstrained by excessive work, no rest and the sadhaks’ undue pressure and claims upon her. She stopped seeing you because
\nyour vital became entirely uncontrolled. She saw besides that the push to see her was associated with vital desires, impulses,
\nsuggestions, confusions and wrong movements and she decided that so long as it was so, so long as you had not freedom and
\ncomplete control over your vital she could not call you. Not only with you but with others she saw that her freedom in giving
\ninterviews was having disastrous effects  \u2014for they were feeding their wrong vital movements on it and throwing these occultly
\nupon her in such a way as to give themselves and her infinite trouble and wear her out altogether. So she had to retire more
\nand more and limit the interviews to a minimum, ceasing to see those who had this result from the interviews and admitting only
\nthose whom she could not stop altogether, but even they were reduced to a much smaller number of visits. This is the present
\nstate of things and it will continue till there is a true freedom and vital calm and purity in the Asram atmosphere.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nYou must be aware yourself that the vital confusions and disturbances continue in you though in a reduced form and that
\nyou have not yet freedom and a settled control over your vital. I had hoped that you would go on increasing the inner contact
\nuntil you could get the constant inner nearness or presence, for when one has that then the vital becomes quiet and there is no
\nlonger the vital pressure and clamour for seeing the Mother; the psychic being
\nrules and is content to leave all to the Mother, claiming nothing but what she
\npermits, asking nothing that is not freely given by her will. Unfortunately the
\nvital claim has risen again in you and this insistent demand. That it is wrong
\nis shown by the very fact that you put before her this alternative, either that
\nshe shall see you or you will not stay here any longer.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nThere are others who have said that and Mother has always refused them. For she knows by experience that to yield to their
\ndemand solves nothing,  \u2014for their demands increase and grow more exacting and vehement, as it did with
\nX<\/i>, until finally they
\nlose their balance and the end is the same,  \u2014departure. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIf you did not yield to these vital suggestions and if you
\nwere content with increasing the inner contact and increasing self \u2014control and peace, then in time you would have the fullness
\nof the sadhana and would find life here well worth living. The push to go comes from an adverse Force that is trying to make
\npeople depart from the Asram  \u2014but none who have gone as yet have found peace or satisfaction outside.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n24 July 1935 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\n\tX <\/span> <\/i>gets to talk with the Mother for two hours a day  \u2014more time than we get in months! Yet when I ask for an interview
\nwith her for a few minutes, you write that Mother has taken down my name. And now she seems to have forgotten about it.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nAs usual when this Force seizes you, your statements against the Mother are unfounded. As regards your interview it was
\nunderstood that you wanted to see her once before the 15th. Mother had fixed one day, but as you had a cold I suggested
\nto her that you would not enjoy very much coming under such circumstances. After that her days were full, but she had not
\nforgotten, for your name is there in her book put down for the 6th August. As regards
\nX <\/i> \u2014X <\/i>like Y <\/i>is called by the Mother
\nalone and for sadhana only once a year for a short time. They both come daily to her, not for sadhana, not for personal talk,
\nbut for work (sometimes also the explanation of a French sentence) and along with two or three others 
\n\u2014not for 2 hours,
\nbut for one at the maximum, and that hour, even when it is an hour, is not taken up by him alone but by all those present in
\nturn, each in turn giving his report and receiving his instructions. X <\/i>
\nmight much more justly complain that he gets a word or a letter for his sadhana
\nhardly once a year and a single word or a letter would be of much more value to
\nhim than a hundred talks about business  \u2014and that we were giving one
\nthousand times<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nmore help to Z <\/i>[the correspondent<\/i>] and others than is given to him. Luckily for us he does not complain nor the others either.
\nBut each is inclined to despise what he gets and demand what he thinks is denied to him and given to another.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n2 August 1935 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nI wish at times to ask the Mother for some instructions for my sadhana.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nMental instructions are not of much use. The condition has to grow in peace and light and clarity till the higher consciousness
\ncan act continuously and perfectly.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tCould I have an interview with the Mother? Two or three
\ndifficulties have been troubling me since the beginning of my sadhana. I want to get a solution from the Mother’s lips.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThis method of asking questions and getting solutions in an interview is one of which the Mother does not approve. She finds
\nit useless and it forces her to come down to meet a superficial mental consciousness which she has long left.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n2 October 1935 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nThe Mother did not say Yes [to giving a personal interview<\/i>]. Nothing could be worse for you than your making your condition depend on your physically seeing the Mother whenever you wanted it. It would create altogether a wrong relation. It
\nmust depend on an inner nearness to the Mother, on your always being able to receive her force so as to throw away both desire
\nand illness. That is the true basis of the union with the Mother. Otherwise, all the help you can receive you get at Pranam
\nand the evening meditation. For the rest, for the Mother calling you for a
\npersonal interview, you must leave that to her. Her time is already filled up
\nand she is overburdened with work day and night,  \u2014if she has to make
\nfarther time for everybody who wants to see her whenever they want it, things
\nwould become quite impossible. <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nInterviews with Outsiders
\n<\/a>
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\n\tThe Mother cannot see him; she is not seeing anyone from outside now. He can be told that he must first try to know something about Yoga before anything can be given him; he must know and
\nbe in a position to decide with knowledge whether Yoga is really the thing he wants. He can read the books and come back for
\ndarshan in February.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tAbout these people outside, you must make it a rule not to give
\nthem hopes of Yoga or seeing the Mother  \u2014it will only raise expectations that have to be disappointed. Even if the Mother
\nwere seeing people from outside, what would be the earthly use of her seeing these old ladies on the way to heaven or these
\nyoung girls on the way to marriage? All that is not serious. But even apart from that, Mother does not see people and she has no
\nintention of changing her rule. So you must never say anything without previously asking 
\n\t\u2014and in most cases it is useless even
\nto ask. As for Pranam, Mother has stopped giving permissions  \u2014there are too many people already. As owing to these cases
\nyou will be meeting many people, you must resist all temptation and remain deaf to requests for interviews, Pranam or Yoga.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n2 January 1936 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\t
\n\tSignificance of Birthday Interviews
\n\t<\/a>
\n<\/b>
\n\t<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tWhat is the meaning of the Mother seeing us on our birthdays?
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tAbout the birthdays. There is a rhythm (one among many) in
\nthe play of the world \u2014forces which is connected with the sun and planets. That makes the birthday a day of possible renewal
\nwhen the physical being is likely more plastic. It is for this reason that Mother sees people on their birthdays.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nI don’t see why people in general exalt their birthdays. Of
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\ncourse, you wrote once that on birthdays the physical is more open and receptive to the Mother than on other days.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is not a question of a physical birthday or of the body 
\n\u2014it is taken as an occasion for opening a new year of life with a
\ngrowing new birth within. That is the meaning in which the Mother takes the birthday.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n7 October 1936 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\t
\n\tRight Use of Birthday Interviews
\n\t<\/a>
\n<\/b>
\n\t<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tWhy should you decide beforehand that your birthday is spoiled? You have only to throw off all these undesirable ideas
\nand feelings which proceed from a still imperfectly purified part of the external being and take the right attitude which you
\nshould always have when you come to the Mother. There should be no idea of what others have or have not 
\n\u2014your relation is
\nbetween the Mother and yourself and has nothing to do with others. Nothing should exist for you but yourself and the Divine 
\n\u2014yourself receiving, her forces flowing into you. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tTo secure that better, do not spend the time at your disposal
\nin speech  \u2014especially if anything of the depression remains with you, it will waste the time in discussing things which cannot help
\nthe true consciousness to predominate. Concentrate, open yourself and let the Mother bring you back to the psychic condition
\nby what she will pour into you in meditation and silence.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tMother, you asked me to write what I would like to ask for
\nmy birthday. Really I do not know. You know best. I would only pray that I may become utterly devoted to you and Sri
\nAurobindo in every part of my being, completely open to you, and that my faith may become perfect.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nThat is all right then. Mother will give what you want.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tSince I saw Mother on my birthday I feel I am living a new<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nlife in which there is a new intimacy with her. Is it true?
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIf you feel so 
\n\t\u2014but it can be no more than the seed of a new
\nbirth, for it has to be realised by a greater inner opening.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tIt seems I have learnt a lot about myself yesterday, my birthday,
\nwhen Mother gave me an interview. It was not a theoretical knowledge, but a kind of realisation or experienced knowledge
\nand maybe a Force that she gave. I no more feel so weak or helpless or a slave to my defects and imperfections. Rather
\nthere is a growing surety that I shall be able to get rid of my whole lower nature.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is what we call growing conscious 
\n\u2014a perception of which the base is the psychic though it may take place in the mind or
\nvital or physical. No doubt the Force that woke it up came from the Mother.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n9 September 1937 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\t
\n\tGroup Meditation with the Mother<\/a>
\n<\/b>
\n\t<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tMay I ask the significance of what I very often feel in my meditation with the Mother in the morning? So long as Mother
\nis meditating I have quite a good meditation, but as soon as Mother comes out of her meditation my own meditation becomes lighter and I can feel that she is no longer in meditation. I would like to know if it is a good sign for sadhana.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt shows at least that your contact with the Mother’s consciousness is perfectly spontaneous and genuine. The Mother puts out
\nher Force on all in the meditation and the intensity of your meditation shows that you receive it 
\n\u2014as soon as she ceases,
\nthe dynamic pressure lightens and your meditation lightens with it. It is certainly a good sign, a good seed of the responsiveness
\nthat is necessary.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tWhen useless thoughts interfere with my concentration, how am I to remember
\n\tthe Mother and lay them before her?<\/span><\/p>\n

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\nAspire at the time 
\n\u2014they will of themselves be open to the Mother.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nWhen I become late to see the Mother in the evening, how am I to receive her Light which I would have received in her
\npresence? <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tYou can receive the Light at all times 
\n\t\u2014even if less concretely
\nthan in the physical presence.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tSince the evening the working of the Force has begun. Seeing
\nthe Mother in the evening, my consciousness opened itself before her more widely than ever.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nVery good. The Force usually works in that way with interruptions and returns growing each time stronger and fuller.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nDuring the twilight meditation with the Mother, my consciousness rose upwards in an utter passivity. From the neck
\nupwards, the head was not in a normal state. What was this? It means the whole mind was liberated for a while from imprisonment in the body sense and became free in the passivity of the wider Self.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n16 August 1934 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nWhen I spoke of the inner mind of the Asram, I was only using a succinct expression for the “minds of the members of the
\nAsram” and I was not thinking of the collective mind of the group. But the action of the Mother in the meditation is at once
\ncollective and individual. She is trying to bring down the right consciousness in the atmosphere of the Asram 
\n\u2014for the action
\nof the minds and vital of the sadhaks does create a general atmosphere. She has
\ntaken this meditation in the evening as a brief period in which all is
\nconcentrated in the sole force of the<\/span><\/p>\n

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\ndescending Power. The sadhaks must feel that they are there only to concentrate, only to receive, only to be open to the Mother
\nand nothing else matters.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tAbout the meditation and the seat, the Mother gives this meditation only <\/i>for bringing down the true light and consciousness into the sadhaks. She does not want it to be turned into a formality and she does not want any personal questions to arise there. It should be solely a meditation and concentration without personal or other desires or claims or ideas rising there and interfering with her object. That is why there can be no fixing
\nof seats or other considerations having nothing to do with the sadhana.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n2 November 1934 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nI did not come to the Meditation Hall for the evening meditation, but remained near
\nX<\/i>‘s room. At meditation time I fell
\ninto the same inwardness or sleepiness as in the Hall. Is it not possible to do so usually?
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is the pressure of the Force on the physical consciousness which produces that result of inwardness, though the translation of it into sleepiness can only be a transitory failing of the physical consciousness which is accustomed to associate inwardgoing with sleep. There is no reason why you should not do it usually if you find that suitable.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt seems as if at the time of meditation, the atmosphere of the Meditation Hall extends to all the Asram houses.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is natural that it should be so as the Mother when she concentrates on the inner work is accustomed spontaneously to
\nspread her consciousness over the whole Asram. So to anyone who is sensitive, it must be felt anywhere in the Asram, though
\nperhaps more strongly in the nearer houses on an occasion like the evening meditation.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nWhen I try to meditate in the Mother’s presence, my concentration breaks. There is a rush of thoughts, such as “what is
\nthe Mother bringing down?” and “what is the Mother’s will?” Why does this happen?
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nIt is simply a bad habit of the mind, a wrong activity. It is not in the least useful for the mind to ask or try to determine what the
\nMother wills or is bringing  \u2014that only interferes. It has simply to remain quiet and concentrated and leave the Power to act.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nWhat Mother would like you to do is to come to the Meditation and Pranam putting aside all feelings of ego, anger, quarrel with
\nothers, demand for this or that, thinking only of your sadhana and making yourself quiet to receive from her the only things
\nthat are really precious and needful.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tToday during the meditation with the Mother, I felt that I
\ncould receive her help easily and naturally, without the least effort or strain. Does this mean that something in the being
\nnaturally becomes quiet by her physical presence? <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tIt is not by the physical presence but by the Mother’s concentration at the time of Meditation which brings the quiet to those who can receive it.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n6 March 1937 <\/span> <\/p>\n

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\nIt is now clear that all along during meditation and pranam I have approached the Mother with a wrong consciousness. My
\napproach was not passive, but always fully active  \u2014I pulled from above and below as intensely as I could. The result was
\nthat the centres were active, especially the eye \u2014brow centre and the muladhara.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\nAll that is in place in ordinary meditation, so long as there is not the
\ncomplete silence of the mind and the automatic action in the silence. But the
\nquiet mind is entirely necessary if you meditate with the Mother. Otherwise the
\nmind goes on with its activities<\/span><\/p>\n

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\non its own lines and cannot be conscious of or receptive to the Mother’s movement.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n18 July 1937 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\t
\n\tThe Morning Pranam <\/a> <\/b>
\n\t<\/span><\/p>\n

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\n\tNo one should look upon the Pranam either as a formal routine or an obligatory ceremony or think himself under any compulsion to come there. The object of the Pranam is not that sadhaks should offer a formal or ritual daily homage to the Mother, but
\nthat the sadhaks may receive along with the Mother’s blessings whatever spiritual help or influence they are in a condition to
\nreceive or assimilate. It is important to maintain a quiet and collected atmosphere for that purpose.
\n\t<\/span> <\/p>\n

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\n <\/span><\/p>\n

\n\tThe Mother wants you to say to X <\/i>that if he feels any reluctance
\nor any other contrary feeling in making Pranam, he must remember that there is no
\nobligation <\/i>to come  \u2014for him or anyone else.
\nHe must feel himself perfectly free not to come, if he does not want.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n27 November 1931 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n

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\nThe Mother gives in both ways. Through the eyes it is to the psychic, through the hand to the material.
\n<\/span> <\/p>\n

\n29 September 1932 <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n

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\nThis morning I was late for Pranam. On my way there, I met X<\/i>, who told me, “Why hurry? One can have pranam everywhere.” I said, “Yes, but Mother is there.” He said, “Mother is everywhere.” I could not answer him, but what I feel is that
\nthere is a special Power in the hall where Mother is. When I am conscious, I feel something special and different near Mother.
\nAlso by her blessing I often feel an action of Power working on my head. So I don’t think there is no difference if Mother
\nis there or not. <\/span> <\/p>\n

\n\tYou are quite right in that. Otherwise the Mother would not be
\nhere in a body.
\n <\/span><\/p>\n

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X <\/i>has a developed and advanced soul and he knows things
\nwhich are impossible for me to understand. I often think I have no soul, or perhaps I have a soul but it is quite immature. <\/p>\n

You have a soul and a beautiful one. Only it was covered up and
\nnot looking out through the instruments  \u2014now it is coming to the surface and all that will change. <\/p>\n

18 September 1933 <\/p>\n

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Does the Mother work from the overmind at the Pranam? <\/p>\n

Not from the ordinary overmind, but from the Power above it.
\nNaturally the overmind has to be used as a channel.<\/p>\n

\n

22 November 1933 <\/p>\n

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Shall we ever be able to understand the Mother’s working at
\nthe Pranam? We feel only that something has been received. We do not know what she gave or how we received it or what
\nis the inner meaning of her putting her hand on our head. We are not conscious of what she is giving us while gazing
\ninto our eyes. Are these mysteries to remain uninterpreted forever? <\/p>\n

You have to develop the inner intuitive response first 
\n\u2014i.e. to think and perceive less with the mind and more with the inner
\nconsciousness. Most people do everything with the mind and how can the mind know? The mind depends on the senses for
\nits knowledge.<\/p>\n

\n

10 July 1936 <\/p>\n


\nExperiences during Pranam<\/a><\/b><\/p>\n

\n\t <\/b><\/p>\n

Today I was meditating in the Pranam Hall. As soon as the
\nMother took her seat, I saw in vision a range of mountains from which white light was coming out. What is the meaning?
\nFrom what plane does it come? <\/p>\n

\n\tMental. The mountain is the symbol of the ascent from the lower to the
\n\thigher. The white light is the Mother’s light, the light of <\/p>\n

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the Divine Consciousness descending from the heights.<\/p>\n

\n

7 August 1933 <\/p>\n

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Today, looking at the Mother at the Pranam, there was a good
\nreceptivity. She stood before me a while longer than usual, and I experienced her working. The whole of my head was filled
\nwith nothing but her light. Is this true? Did she really do that? She does so every time, only today you not only received but
\nwere consciously receptive.<\/p>\n

\n

8 May 1934 <\/p>\n

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After today’s Pranam I experienced an unimaginable depth in
\nthe heart and a great fire bursting out of it. <\/p>\n

That is of course the psychic depth and the psychic fire. <\/p>\n

5 May 1936 <\/p>\n

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Today when I was making pranam, I felt that this body must be crushed to pieces and laid at the Mother’s feet. I also felt
\nan emotion in my heart. What is the meaning of this emotion? <\/p>\n

It was some feeling of aspiration in the vital. But the form is exaggerated. The body has not to be crushed to pieces but purified and made into a body in which the Divine can dwell. <\/p>\n

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\n\tRight Way to Make Pranam <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

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If you wept this time and not on the other occasions, it was
\nbecause you were more open  \u2014more ready for the psychic being to rise to the surface. The Mother has noticed in this respect a
\ngreat progress in you and what you felt today was the sign of this opening. <\/p>\n

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Whatever connection I have with the Mother lasts only half a minute during the Pranam;
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happens during that time. The whole day’s sadhana depends upon those thirty seconds. <\/p>\n

Quite a wrong idea. The Mother’s contact is there all the day and the night also. If one keeps the right contact with her inwardly
\nall day, the Pranam will bear its right fruit, for you will be in the right condition to receive. To make the whole day depend upon
\nthe Pranam, the whole inner attitude depend on the most outer aspect of the outer contact is to turn the whole thing topsy
\n\u2014turvy.
\nIt is the fundamental mistake made by the physical mind and vital which is the cause of the whole trouble. <\/p>\n

16 March 1935 <\/p>\n

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My psychic knows that whatever our condition  \u2014full of inertia, attacks and difficulties 
\n\t\u2014all must disappear when one
\ngets the Mother’s touch at Pranam. Why then do so many say that they return from Pranam in the same bad state in which
\nthey came? <\/p>\n

Naturally, when there is not the opening they will feel nothing,
\nfor the consciousness will not respond  \u2014the Force then works behind the veil to prepare things, but gives no immediate visible
\nresult.<\/p>\n

\n

6 April 1935 <\/p>\n

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The Mother deals with each one in a different way, according to
\ntheir need and their nature, not according to any fixed mental rule. It would be absurd for her to do the same thing with
\neverybody as if all were machines which had to be touched and handled in the same way. It does not at all mean that she has
\nmore affection for one than for another or those she touches in a particular way are better sadhaks or less so. The sadhaks think
\nin that way because they are full of ignorance and ego. Instead of thinking whether the Mother favours one more or the other
\nless, comparing and watching what she does, they ought to be concerned at Pranam with only their own spiritual reception of
\nher influence. Pranam is for that and not for these other things which have nothing to do with sadhana. <\/p>\n

\nJealousy and envy are things common to human nature, but <\/p>\n

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these are the very things that a sadhak ought to throw out of himself. Otherwise why is he a sadhak at all? He is supposed
\nto be here for seeking the Divine  \u2014but in the seeking for the Divine, jealousy, envy, anger, etc. have no place. They are movements of the ego and can only create obstacles to the union with the Divine. <\/p>\n

It is much better to remember that one is seeking for the Divine and make that the whole governing idea and aim of the
\nlife. It is that which pleases the Mother more than anything else; these jealousies and envies and competitions for her favour can
\nonly displease and distress her. 31 October 1935 <\/p>\n

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The reason of the difference in approaching the Mother is that
\nformerly you came to her with your external being, external mind and vital and in your vital there were things it did not
\nwant the Mother to see or change or else it felt uncomfortable under the pressure of the Mother’s force at pranam, because that
\nwas a pressure on it to change. But now you are approaching the Mother with your soul and that brings with it the true feeling
\nand true relation it has always had with the Mother. Besides, your mind and vital 
\n\t\u2014even the outer mind and vital  \u2014are now
\nopen and willing and glad to share in the true psychic feeling and relation. <\/p>\n

The heaviness in the head due to the pressure is pleasant and not harmful because it is due to the higher force pressing
\ndown and bringing into the head something of the substance of the higher consciousness. <\/p>\n

1 November 1935 <\/p>\n

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If there is an obstacle at pranam, it must be something wrong in the attitude 
\n\u2014perhaps the old error of expecting some outward
\nsign of love, approval or favour from the Mother. The pranam is not for that, but for receiving from her inwardly through
\nthe meditation and through the pranam itself. Nothing must be demanded  \u2014the consciousness must be surrendered and quiet
\nto receive what she thinks best to give.<\/p>\n

\n

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I think it is better for you not to come to the Mother just now, until you have found the true inner poise. At the present time
\nit is far better for all not to come to her as a routine, but only when the being is open and ready to receive. <\/p>\n

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\n\tThe Mother’s Expression at Pranam
\n\t<\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

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When one does something wrong, the Mother shows us at
\nPranam that she does not like it. Does she do this so that we will not make the same mistake again? When one does a right
\naction and she gives herself fully at Pranam, does it not mean that she is happy with our right action? If she is not showing
\nher liking or disliking at Pranam, then what is she showing us by her special expression? <\/p>\n

She wants to show you nothing; it has nothing to do with the doings or misdoings of the sadhaks. Pranam is not intended for
\nwatching the Mother’s expression or what she does with this one or that one or in what way she smiles or with how much
\nof her hand she blesses  \u2014the sadhaks’ preoccupation with these things is childish and for the most part full of mistaken inferences, imaginations, often curiosity, desire for gossip, criticism etc. Such a state of mind is a hindrance, not a help to sadhana.
\nThe proper attitude is one of self \u2014dedication and simple and straightforward receptivity to what the Mother wishes to give,
\nan undisturbed and undisturbing openness to her working in the being. <\/p>\n

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Many of the sadhaks are in the habit of thinking Mother is displeased, not smiling at them, angry when it is quite otherwise. This usually happens when their own consciousness is not at
\npeace or when they are thinking or conscious of faults or wrong movements or wrong acts that they may have done. The idea
\nthat the Mother is angry is an imagination; if there is anything not as usual, it is in the sadhak himself and not in the Mother. <\/p>\n

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What came between the Mother and myself when our eyes met at Pranam? Up till the moment our eyes met, everything was
\nall right. Then looking into them, there was this momentary repulsion and shrinking. <\/p>\n

I suppose the shrinking and repulsion were in yourself? for there was none and could be none in the Mother. It must be some part
\nin yourself (physical consciousness perhaps?) that is not in the Light and may not want to be. <\/p>\n

31 January 1932 <\/p>\n

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All fear ought to be cast out. This movement of fear belongs to a still unchanged part of the vital which answers to the old ideas,
\nfeelings and reactions. Its only effect is to make you misinterpret the Mother’s attitude or the intention in her words or looks or
\nexpression. If the Mother becomes serious or has an ironic smile, that does not in the least mean that she is angry or has withdrawn
\nher affection; on the contrary, it is with those with whom she is most inwardly intimate that she feels most free to become
\nlike that  \u2014even to give them severe chidings. They in their turn understand her and do not get upset or afraid, 
\n\u2014they only turn
\nto look inside themselves and see what it is on which she is putting her pressure. That pressure they regard as a privilege
\nand a sign of her grace. Fear stands in the way of this complete intimacy and confidence and creates only misunderstanding; you
\nmust cast it out altogether.<\/p>\n

\n

22 May 1932 <\/p>\n

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There is no chance of the Mother giving you the “look” you
\nfear. On your side do not imagine one when it is not there  \u2014any number of people are still doing that. <\/p>\n

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\n\tThe Mother’s Smile at Pranam <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

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After coming from Pranam
\n\tI felt that Mother did not smile at me, and then there was a very slight
\n\tfeeling of resistance to her somewhere. Is this what you meant when you
\n\twrote about the hostiles throwing inertia into the physical mind?<\/p>\n

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At the time it so happened that the Mother gave you a smile of welcome and approval, but she felt someone saying, “He will
\nnot notice that you have smiled”  \u2014it was the hostile formation. This is how they work 
\n\u2014by this kind of obscuration to blind the
\nmind and senses first and on the basis of a wrong observation or failure of observation build up suggestions of a depressing
\nor disturbing character. It happens to many sadhaks at pranam time to make this kind of mistake about the Mother’s smile or
\nexpression and to worry themselves thinking she is displeased with them. This is a kind of deception against which one must
\nbe on one’s guard and such suggestions must always be rejected.<\/p>\n

\n

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You should certainly throw away the vital demand and the disturbance which it creates in your sadhana. Mother gives her smile to all and she does not withhold it from some and give
\nit to others. When people think otherwise, it is because some vital disturbance, depression or demand or some movement of
\njealousy, envy or competition distorts their vision.<\/p>\n

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Some days after Pranam I feel intensely happy and a wave of
\nserene calm and joy passes over me. On other days, though there is calmness, there is no intensity of joy. I think it has
\nsomething to do with the Mother’s smile. <\/p>\n

Don’t start having that idea. It is quite untrue and those who
\nindulge it raise vital reactions and imaginations in themselves and provoke much unnecessary trouble. <\/p>\n

If her smile is hearty and beaming, there is a proportionate reaction in me. But is that the true cause of my joy or does
\nit depend on the inner state of my psychic being, of which I know nothing? <\/p>\n

It
\nis in yourself that there is the variation  \u2014not of the psychic<\/p>\n

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being which is always all right, but of the rest, mind, vital or body. <\/p>\n

4 March 1933 <\/p>\n

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Your idea about Mother’s mysterious smile is your own imagination 
\n\u2014Mother says that she smiled with the utmost kindness
\nand took the most helpful attitude possible towards you. I had written to you already that you must not put these erroneous
\nimaginations between yourself and the Mother; for they push the help given away from you. These imaginations and their effect
\non you are suggested by the same vital forces that are disturbing you so that you may not get free from the disturbance. <\/p>\n

My help and the Mother’s help are there 
\n\u2014you have only to keep yourself open to it to recover. <\/p>\n

27 March 1933 <\/p>\n

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Today my lower vital rose up and disturbed me because the Mother did not smile at me. For years and years I have suffered so much from unquietness at the thought that Mother is displeased with me. <\/p>\n

These things ought to be entirely rejected. When they rise they often twist the consciousness so much as to falsify sometimes the
\nvision itself and always the feeling. The Mother has observed constantly that the people on whom she has smiled tell her she
\nhas been glowering and severe or that she has been displeased, when there was no displeasure in her and then on the strength
\nof that they go wrong altogether.<\/p>\n

\n

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Your mistake is to find a “censorious touch” in the smile where
\nthere is none. When the Mother extended her forgiveness  \u2014which meant there was something to forgive, her judgment was
\nfounded on your own letters. You seem to think that the Mother in some way condemned you and was partial to the others.
\nHer view was that all were in the wrong and each had need of forgiveness  \u2014and each asked for and had it. <\/p>\n

\nHow is it that your mind still returns on these things instead <\/p>\n

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of going forward to the difficult spiritual change? The Mother had put them behind her, for a thing repented is a thing abolished. Be assured that there was no remembrance of them in her smile or her attitude towards you. <\/p>\n

27 May 1933 <\/p>\n

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The Mother did not smile at me today at Pranam. Did she see something very untoward in me? <\/p>\n

It is a mistake to think that the Mother’s not smiling means either displeasure or disapproval of something wrong in the sadhak. It
\nis very often merely a sign of absorption or inner concentration. On this occasion Mother was putting a question to your soul. <\/p>\n

31 July 1933 <\/p>\n

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The physical being feels the need of the Mother’s smile when it meets her look. Is it a kind of desire? <\/p>\n

Yes. There has to be no disturbance when it does not come (knowing that its absence is not a sign of displeasure or anything
\nof the kind)  \u2014then the Ananda of receiving it will be purer.<\/p>\n

\n

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Yesterday when I did pranam, the Mother did not smile at me.
\nNot seeing her smile, I spent the whole day miserably. <\/p>\n

On that day Mother did not smile at anybody. It was not personal to you. A particular Power was acting in her which did not act in the ordinary way. <\/p>\n

10 April 1934 <\/p>\n

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I felt at Pranam as if Mother withdrew her smile, but later I realised that she did smile 
\n\t\u2014and even if she did not smile I
\nreceived peace and became more inward at that time. Besides, after so many disturbances and wrongs on my part, I do not
\nalways deserve a smile. So either way I do not worry. <\/p>\n

\n\tIt is usually imagination or impression, at least that has been <\/p>\n

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seen in most cases. When the Mother does not smile, it is not from displeasure but in almost every case from some reason
\nnot connected with any action of the sadhak, but either from absorption or concentration on something that is being done.
\nAs you say, it does not matter  \u2014what is important is to receive what has to be received. <\/p>\n

4 November 1934 <\/p>\n

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Why do I rejoice only when Mother smiles at me or gives me a special opportunity? I ought to rejoice in all situations. If after
\nliving so many years near you and her I still feel like this, I am not worthy of being here. <\/p>\n

It is a very strange logic. Even among those who have made the most progress or been always the closest to the Mother,
\nthis or similar feelings still recur. It is not that they have not to be overcome, but to argue from their persistence that one
\nis unfit to stay here is to make a large conclusion on a very small basis. This is again the kind of suggestion that comes in
\nfrom the surrounding physical Ignorance. Things like these last so obstinately because they have become habits or recurrent
\nfeelings in the external physical being; they will disappear when the external being becomes filled with the Mother’s light. <\/p>\n

30 May 1935 <\/p>\n

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The Mother has been always specially careful in your case not to show displeasure or censure of any kind to you. To the others
\nalso she smiles always in the same way, for she knows the consequences to herself if she does not. But in spite of that, even when
\nshe smiles most kindly, they write to her that she has shown displeasure, withheld her smile, smiled in an ironical or blasting
\nway, that they will commit suicide, go away etc. etc. The whole thing has become most intolerable and if the Pranam is to be
\nnothing but an occasion for this kind of thing, it is better the Pranam should cease. <\/p>\n

December 1936 <\/p>\n

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What sort of things can come under the category of “demand and desire”? What is the exact form of “demand and desire”? <\/p>\n

There are no special sort of things 
\n\u2014demand and desire can cover all things whatsoever  \u2014they are subjective, not objective
\nand have no special form. Demand is when you claim something to get or possess, desire is a general term. If one expects that the
\nMother shall smile at him at the Pranam and feels wronged if one does not get it, that is a demand. If one wants it and
\ngrieves at not getting it, but without revolt or sense of an unjust deprivation that shows desire. If one feels joy at her smile, but
\nremains calm in its absence knowing that all the Mother does is good, then there is no demand or desire. <\/p>\n

13 September 1938 <\/p>\n

\n\t <\/p>\n

\n\tSmiles and Seriousness
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

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Sometimes the Mother looks at us smilingly, as if she were pleased; at other times she looks in quite a different way, as if
\nseriously. <\/p>\n

Why not? The Mother cannot be serious, absorbed, drawn into
\nherself? Or do you think it is only displeasure against the sadhaks that can make her so? <\/p>\n

18 June 1934 <\/p>\n

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During some dark periods such as now, I am awfully afraid to go to Pranam, lest I should have the misfortune to see the
\nMother’s grave face, with no smile at all. <\/p>\n

All this about the Mother’s smile and her gravity is simply a trick
\nof the vital. Very often I notice people talk of the Mother’s being grave, stern, displeased, angry at Pranam when there has been
\nnothing of the kind  \u2014they have attributed to her something created by their own vital imagination. Apart from that, the
\nMother’s smiling or not smiling has nothing to do with the sadhak’s merits or
\n\tdemerits, fitness or unfitness  \u2014it is not deliberately done as a
\n\treward or a punishment. The Mother smiles on all without regard to these
\n\tthings. When she does not smile, it is because she is either in trance, or
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on something within the sadhak that needs her attention 
\n\u2014something that has to be done for him or brought down or
\nlooked at. It does not mean that there is anything bad or wrong in him. I have told this a hundred times to any number of sadhaks 
\n\u2014but in many the vital does not want to accept that because it would lose its main source of grievance, revolt, abhiman, desire
\nto go away or give up the Yoga, things which are very precious to it. The very fact that it has these results and leads to nothing
\nbut these darknesses ought to be enough to show you that this imagination about Mother’s not smiling as a sign of absence of
\nher grace or love is a device and suggestion of the Adversary. You have to drive away these things and give some chance for
\nthe psychic with its deeper and truer love and surrender to come forward and take up the Adhar as its kingdom. <\/p>\n

28 July 1934 <\/p>\n

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So many sadhaks are not able to understand the Mother’s seriousness at Pranam. They find it difficult not to feel that
\nthey have displeased her in some way or other. Could you not clarify the cause of the seriousness? <\/p>\n

The whole foundation of the difficulty is erroneous. It is the wrong idea that if Mother is serious it must be because of
\nsome personal displeasure against “me”  \u2014each sadhak who complains of being the “me”. I have repeated a hundred times
\nto complaints that it is not so, but nobody will give up this idea  \u2014it is too precious to the ego. The Mother’s seriousness is due
\nto some absorption in some work she is doing or, very often, to some strong attack of hostile forces in the atmosphere. <\/p>\n

19 April 1935 <\/p>\n

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About Mother’s seriousness at Pranam, you wrote: “The Mother’s seriousness is due to some absorption in some work
\nshe is doing or, very often, to some strong attack of hostile forces in the atmosphere.” But I never felt any hostile attack
\nbefore going to Pranam; rather the attack comes afterwards when my vital fails
\nto endure her seriousness.<\/p>\n

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It does not matter whether you feel any attack or not 
\n\u2014the attack is there. In fact for the last several months the atmosphere
\nis full of the most violent attacks threatening the very existence of the Yoga and the Asram and the sadhaks personally or the
\nbody of the Mother. If you are not touched that is a matter for which you ought to be grateful to the Mother instead of your
\nvital getting upset because she is doing her work.<\/p>\n

\n

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\n\tWrong Ideas about the Mother’s Showing Displeasure
\n\t<\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

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Why did the Mother have such a look of seriousness when
\nI went to her? I have given up everything to take shelter in her, but sometimes I feel that she is displeased with me; then I
\nwonder for whom I am living. <\/p>\n

So long as you do not get rid of this silly illusion about the
\nMother’s “seriousness”, this kind of thing can always recur. I have told everyone the truth about it, that it is their own minds
\nwhich wrongly think the Mother is serious and displeased with them. It is under the pressure of a Force of Falsehood that wants
\nthem to get upset and to destroy their peace and set them against the Mother that these things come. Yet you all go on still listening to the Force of Falsehood. It is only when you reject the falsehood that you will be free from these troubles. <\/p>\n

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I have the idea that the Mother is completely displeased with
\nme. Have I done something wrong or written something that has displeased her? <\/p>\n

The idea is absolutely without foundation. It is the constant illusion that the sadhaks
\nare getting that the Mother is displeased with them, that they have done
\nsomething wrong or said or written something wrong and therefore she is severe
\nor distant, that her expression or her action shows it etc. Very often they
\nthink this even when she smiles on them most kindly. It is a purely subjective
\nfeeling generated by some difficulty in themselves. The<\/p>\n

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Mother is not displeased with people because they have difficulties; it is only a reason for giving more of her help and support.
\nAll these ideas you speak of are suggestions generated by the adverse pressure on you. You can rely always on the Mother’s
\nGrace and you may be perfectly sure that we shall not throw you off  \u2014our support will be always with you. <\/p>\n

4 July 1933 <\/p>\n

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Today at Pranam the Mother was not as usual with me. I got the idea of her displeasure and it disturbed me for a time. <\/p>\n

There was certainly no such idea in Mother’s mind. People have that idea because it is an old and rooted one in their minds and
\nit is true that at one time it had some meaning when Mother was dealing with the vital difficulties of the sadhaks. But now
\nit is different. At the present stage of descent into the physical the Mother is meeting all with a large equanimity, tolerating all
\nthe mistakes of the sadhaks and only bringing an inner pressure, supporting all with her force as much as they will allow her. This
\nhas been so for a considerable time past  \u2014but the physical mind of the sadhaks does not find it easy to accept the change and they
\nseek for expressions and interpretations that are not there. This is farther complicated by the fact that now the Mother has little
\ntime to rest or sleep  \u2014and when it is like that she goes easily into trance at Pranam and when in trance she may in her body
\nforget to smile or give the blessing etc. It is why I have had to warn people that they must not misinterpret these things. <\/p>\n

19 November 1933 <\/p>\n

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Yesterday and this morning after Pranam the idea came that the Mother was displeased with me, she was treating me coldly
\nand that she was throwing me off. I tried to reject it, but it came back again and again. Of course, there cannot be any
\ntruth in it, but it kept repeating itself in feelings, not so much in the thoughts. <\/p>\n

\nCertainly, there is not and cannot be any truth in such suggestions. Neither
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throwing off is too absurd even to be considered. It is the attempt of the forces to set in vibration certain feelings habitual to the
\nhuman vital  \u2014and it is a phenomenon that is constantly seen in the sadhana that when all substantial or even plausible reason
\nis taken away from these vibrations, they are thrown upon the vital without any apparent cause or justifying reason by
\nmere force of habitual response to some covert or subconscious stimulus. The one thing to do is to detach oneself at once or as
\nsoon as possible and see it for what it is and throw it off with decision. <\/p>\n

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This morning, as I watched the Mother come down the stairs before meditation, I thought that her face looked very displeased. Why? What have I done wrong? Can this be my imagination? Can one’s eyes tell such lies? <\/p>\n

Certainly they can and the mind can distort still farther. There are any number of people who have written to the Mother that
\nshe did not smile and was fierce and severe when she had been most kind and smiling to them, knowing that they were in
\ntrouble. There have been hundreds of cases in which people have heard the opposite of what she said and refused to believe
\notherwise until or unless others who had been present told them they were mistaken. Note that they did not believe the Mother’s
\ndenial, but at once believed other sadhaks when they confirmed the Mother. We have singular disciples! As for the mind twisting
\nand misinterpreting the Mother’s looks, speech, action, that is so ordinary and everyday that it hardly needs mention, so if you
\nare going to trust your mind and senses so absolutely, you will go on mistaking the Mother to the end of the chapter. It is only
\nthe psychic being that can know and understand her.<\/p>\n

\n

11 September 1935 <\/p>\n

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It is a great pity you allowed the thought that the Mother was
\nsevere with you to come in and throw you down. These thoughts are never true and whenever a sadhak
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invaded by the old movements. The Mother’s love and kindness have always been the same and will always remain the same to
\nyou, so you should never accept this idea that she is displeased or severe. But whatever the mistakes or the difficulties, our help
\nwill be with you and the Mother’s force will work to bring you out and get you back the psychic openness and peace which you
\nhad for many days this time and which is bound to return and become permanent after a while. <\/p>\n

19 November 1935 <\/p>\n

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I do not at all understand why you should think that the Mother was displeased with you for any reason whatever. She was just
\nas she is always with you. Even if you had made any mistake, the Mother now is disposed to overlook mistakes and leave it
\nto the pressure of the Light and the psychic being of the sadhak to set things right. But why on earth should she be displeased
\nbecause you wanted to stop the French lessons with X <\/i>or for any such trivial reason! Whether you continue or suspend your
\nlessons is a detail which has to be settled in accordance with the condition of your mind and the needs of your sadhana and
\nit can be settled either way. It is surprising that you should think Mother could show displeasure over so slight a matter.
\nYou must get over a nervousness of this kind and not disturb your good condition by imaginations 
\n\u2014for it is an imagination,
\nsince it had no reality behind it. Have a more perfect confidence and do not let your mind create difficulties where there are
\nnone. <\/p>\n

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Understand once for all that Mother is not using the Pranam to show her pleasure and displeasure; it is not meant for that
\npurpose. The only circumstance under which Mother’s attitude at Pranam is likely to be influenced by the actions of the sadhak
\nis when there is some great betrayal or a violent breach of the main rules of spiritual life such as an act of sexual intercourse
\nor when the sadhak has become pointedly hostile to the Mother and the Yoga. But
\nthen it is not a special show of displeasure at <\/p>\n

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Pranam, but a withdrawal of the gift of grace which is quite a different matter. <\/p>\n

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\n\tWrong Ideas about the Mother’s Smile and Touch
\n\t<\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

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Sometimes when Mother smiles, people take it as an approval
\nof their wrong activities. A sort of vanity comes in and says, “Oh, Mother is smiling. Don’t worry; go on as you like.” Or
\nelse there is a competition: “Oh, see how long Mother has put her hand on me.” But if these constructions are wrong, why
\nhave they gained such currency? For on them people judge and criticise others. <\/p>\n

It is a great mistake. We are persistently correcting it, but a legend has been formed and people cling to it. <\/p>\n

5 July 1933 <\/p>\n

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I do not think your reasoning that you were in the physical consciousness and therefore the observation of the physical fact
\n[of the Mother’s touch<\/i>] is likely to be correct is very sound. The physical consciousness is full of impressions and that they are
\nnot entirely reliable has begun to be more and more recognised  \u2014it is the reason why the statements of different people about
\nthe same physical fact differ widely. Especially when there is a depression or a pressure of adverse forces the impression given
\nto the senses is often distorted or modified in the sense of the depression or of the suggestion made 
\n\u2014of that we have had
\ninnumerable instances. <\/p>\n

But apart from that it is a mistake to measure the power of
\nthe blessing by these details. I have known instances in which the Mother omitted to put her hand at all on the head of a sadhak
\nand yet the force was felt double of what he or she usually received. That was because the Mother was very concentrated
\nand putting a full force out. Even so a finger on the head with a strong power put out may mean much more than the full hand
\non the head with less in the touch.<\/p>\n

\n

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If the Mother’s putting her hand or giving her smile at Pranam is all a mental construction, why do I get so terribly upset? I
\nhave to find some way to get out of it when it comes. <\/p>\n

The obsession about the smile and touch has to be overcome
\nand rejected because it has become an instrument of the contrary Forces to upset the sadhaks and hamper their progress. I have
\nseen any number of cases in which the sadhak is going on well or even having high experiences and change of consciousness and
\nsuddenly this imagination comes across and all is confusion, revolt, sorrow, despair and the inner work is interrupted and
\nendangered. In most cases this attack brings with it a sensory delusion so that even if the Mother smiles more than usual or
\ngives the blessing with all her force, she is told, “You did not smile, you did not touch” or “you hardly touched”. There have
\nbeen any number of instances of that also  \u2014the Mother telling me, “I saw X disturbed or else a suggestion coming towards
\nhim and I gave him my kindest smile and blessing”, and yet afterwards we get a letter affirming just the contrary, “You did
\nnot smile etc.” And you are all ready to give the Mother the lie, because you felt, you saw and your senses cannot be deceived! As
\nif a mind disturbed does not twist the sense observation also! as if it were not a common fact of psychology that one constantly
\ngets an impression according to his mood or thought! Even if the smile or touch were less, it should not be the cause of
\nsuch upheavals, if there is not an intention in it and there is no intention at all as we have constantly warned all of you. Of
\ncourse the cause is that the sadhaks apply the movements of a vital human love to the Mother and the ordinary vital human
\nlove is full of contrary movements of distrust, misunderstanding, jealousy, anger, despair. But in Yoga this is most undesirable 
\n\t\u2014for here trust in the Mother, faith in her divine Love is of great importance; anything that denies or disturbs it opens the door to
\nobstacles and wrong reactions. It is not that there should be no love in the vital, but it must purify itself of these reactions and
\nfix itself on the psychic being’s trust and confident self \u2014giving. Then there can be the full progress. <\/p>\n

30 June 1935 <\/p>\n

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Our ideas about the Mother’s hand or smile at Pranam are not constant. If Mother puts the hand all right, then one finds her
\nsmile less. If both the hand and smile are all right, one finds he has been given a smaller lotus than others. If nothing else is
\nfound, then one remembers that in 1932 Mother did not treat me well. It must be the wolf in the lower vital at work. <\/p>\n

Yes, it is the insatiable demand of the vital and when the vital is up reason gets no chance. It was the experience of this insatiable
\ndemand that made the Mother draw back and retire from the free outward self \u2014giving she had begun. The more she gave, the
\nmore was demanded and the more dissatisfied people became and each was jealous of the others 
\n\u2014life was becoming impossible and sadhana was certainly not profiting!<\/p>\n

\n

30 June 1935 <\/p>\n

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Today after the Pranam, even though the Mother did not smile
\nor put her hand as usual, my consciousness remained high. The ego determines its revolt according to her smile and touch, but
\ntoday it remained quiescent. I don’t know how it happened. The ego acts according to these things when it dominates; when
\nit does not dominate or is not present, then these motives can have no effect. The whole question is whether ego leads or something else leads. If the higher consciousness leads, then even if the Mother does not smile or put her hand at all, there will be
\nno egoistic reaction. Once the Mother did that with a sadhika, being herself in trance 
\n\u2014the result was that the sadhika got a
\ngreater force and Ananda than she had ever got when the Mother put her hand fully. <\/p>\n

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All this idea about the Mother’s looks and her hand in the blessing which is current in the Asram
\nis perfectly irrational, false, even imbecile. I have a hundred times written to
\npeople that the whole thing is wrong and rests on a false suggestion of the
\nadverse forces made in order to create a disturbance. The Mother does not
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manner of blessing in order to show displeasure or because of anything the sadhak has done. She does not, as certain people
\nannoyingly believe, dose out her smiles or blessings in such a way as to assign a number of marks for each sadhak according
\nto his good behaviour or bad behaviour. These variations are not <\/i>intended to assign a competitive place to each sadhak, as
\nto schoolboys in a class. All these ideas are absolutely absurd, trivial and unspiritual. The Asram is not a schoolboys’ class nor
\nis the Yoga a competitive examination. All this is the creation of the narrow physical mind and vital ego and desire. If the
\nsadhaks want to get a true basis and make true progress, they must get these ideas out of their minds altogether. Yet they cling
\nobstinately to it in spite of all I can write, so dear is this falsehood to their mind. You must get rid of it altogether. At the Pranam
\nthe Mother puts her force to help the sadhak  \u2014what he ought to do is to receive quietly and simply, not to spoil the occasion by
\nthese foolish ideas and by watching who gets more of her hand or smile and who gets less. All that must go. <\/p>\n

8 December 1936 <\/p>\n

\n\tThe Mother’s Hand at Pranam <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

If the Mother does not put her hand on my head or keep it there for long, does it mean that I was not in a fit condition to
\nreceive well? <\/p>\n

No, it means only that these days there are nearly 140 people
\nand Mother has to do it quickly  \u2014otherwise Pranam would not end. <\/p>\n

22 November 1932 <\/p>\n

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I was not going to send this letter, thinking it will make Mother angry and that she will irritate me still more at Pranam by
\nputting her hand only just a little, as yesterday. Anyway, it is now becoming impossible to live. <\/p>\n

\nWhy should you think that Mother will be angry? We have ourselves told you to
\nwrite everything frankly and conceal nothing  \u2014so there is not the least
\nlikelihood that she will resent what you write. Moreover she knows perfectly
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the sadhana and of human nature and, if there is goodwill and a sincere aspiration such as you have, any stumblings or falterings
\nof the moment will not make any difference in her attitude to the sadhak. The Mother thinks you must have had a wrong
\nimpression about her putting her hand just a little only  \u2014for she was just the same with you inwardly as always and there had
\nbeen no reason why there should be any change.<\/p>\n

\n

17 April 1933 <\/p>\n

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If the Mother does not put her hand on the head in Pranam, it
\ndoes not mean that she is displeased  \u2014it may have quite other causes. People have this idea but they are quite mistaken. Some
\ntime ago the Mother failed to put her hand on the head of a sadhika at Pranam for two days. People mocked at her and
\nlooked down at her. As a matter of fact she was having remarkable realisations and getting more power from the Mother at
\nPranam than on ordinary days. The whole idea is an error.<\/p>\n

\n

2 August 1933 <\/p>\n

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I could not understand the Mother’s intention in not blessing
\nme with her hand when I made pranam. <\/p>\n

There was no intention. It has happened with others but always
\nwhen Mother was in trance or absorbed within. It does not in the least depend on the condition of the sadhak and has no
\nmeaning against him.<\/p>\n

\n

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It seems someone has said that I take too long in doing pranam
\nand Mother is a little annoyed. Is this true? In my ignorance I am unable to grasp her hints. <\/p>\n

It is true that you take too long in the Pranam 
\n\u2014Mother gave you several hints but you did not seem to understand. If it were
\nnot for the overlong time taken by the Pranam with so many people, Mother would not mind 
\n\u2014but it is becoming impossible
\nbecause people take so long in coming to make their pranam. It is better if you
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does not depend on the length of the pranam made.<\/p>\n

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It is entirely untrue that Mother was pushing you away today.
\nThere may be days when she is absorbed and therefore physically inattentive to what her hand is doing. But today she was specially
\nattentive to you and at the Pranam she was putting force on you for peace, tranquillity and the removal of the difficulty. If she at
\nall acted by the palm or anything else, it was for that she was acting. About this there can be no mistake, for she was specially
\nconscious of her action and purpose today. What must have happened was that something must have felt the pressure and
\nintervened and persuaded your physical mind by suggestion that it was you
\n<\/i>she was pushing away, not the difficulty. This is a very
\nclear instance of how easy it is for the sadhaks to make a wrong inference and think that the Mother is doing the very opposite
\nof what she is doing. Very often when she has concentrated most to help them by pressing out their difficulties, they have
\nwritten to her, “You were very severe and displeased with me this morning.” The only way to avoid these wrong reactions is
\nto have full psychic confidence in the Mother, believing that all she does is for their good and out of the Divine Mother’s care
\nfor them and not against them. Then nothing of this kind will happen. Those who do that, can get the full help of her concentration even if in her absorption she does not touch the head or smile. That is why I have constantly told the sadhaks not to put
\ntheir own interpretations on the Mother’s appearance or actions at the Pranam 
\n\t\u2014because these interpretations may always be
\nwrong and make an opening for an unfounded depression and an attack. <\/p>\n

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X <\/i>complained to me that the Mother did not put her hand on her head at Pranam today. <\/p>\n

Too much demand in people’s minds so that the Mother seldom feels free to do what is best. Pranam
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importance, but they ought not to feel upset or frustrated by the smallest change. Each ought to learn to have a sufficient inner
\nlife and inner connection to fall back on that whenever the outer is changed or interrupted. <\/p>\n

14 June 1934 <\/p>\n

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What to write of my miserable condition? Today, when I expected the Mother to hold me up a little more, I got the reverse.
\nBut perhaps it is necessary to make a man suffer sometimes. <\/p>\n

Mother put her hand just as usual. Not only so, but as she
\nsaw your condition needed special help, she tried to give it. But when you are in this condition, it is unfortunate that you are
\nso much occupied with the feeling of misery as to feel nothing else, nothing that does not minister to or increase the misery.
\nSupport you always have; there is absolutely no reason why we should withhold it. If anyone is in serious trouble in this Asram,
\nthat falls on us and most on the Mother  \u2014so it is absurd to suppose that we should take pleasure in anyone suffering. Suffering, illness, vital storms (lusts, revolts, angers) are so many contradictions of what we are striving for and therefore obstacles
\nto our work. To end them as soon as possible is the only will we can have, not to keep them in existence. <\/p>\n

If you could only acquire the power to detach yourself somewhere in you when these storms come, not to be swept
\naway by the push or the thoughts that rise! Then there would be something that could feel the support and be able to react
\nagainst these forces.<\/p>\n

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\n\tIt was not because of any fault of yours that the Mother gave only a short
\n\tblessing; she has to do that for all who come at the beginning because they
\n\tneed to go quickly to their work. If you want a longer blessing, you must
\n\tcome afterwards. But, when you have to come early, you can get as much out
\n\tof the Mother’s short blessing, if you are quiet and open.<\/p>\n

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\nFeeling the Mother’s Touch at Pranam
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

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Is it possible to receive the Mother’s influence at a distance,
\nfor instance at the time of Pranam? Sometimes when I did not come for the morning meditation I felt the atmosphere of the
\nmeditation hall wherever I was. <\/p>\n

It is possible to receive, but not in the same way. There is an
\nelement, a touch on the physical consciousness that is wanting.<\/p>\n

\n

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Today I saw with open eyes diamond white light descending
\non the sides of the Mother’s ears; while doing pranam I felt a strange kind of touch and with it something entered inside
\nme. When I returned home, I was still absorbed in pure bliss. What was it that descended into me? <\/p>\n

There is always a touch coming from the Mother at pranam, one has to be conscious and open only to receive it. <\/p>\n

14 November 1933 <\/p>\n

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During the morning Pranam, when X <\/i>went for darshan and the Mother pressed her hand on his head, at the same time I felt her
\nhand on my head as a concrete touch. How does this happen? <\/p>\n

It shows that the subtle physical is growing conscious and felt
\nthe touch and blessings of the Mother which is always there.<\/p>\n

\n

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Someone ignorant might ask how one can realise the value of
\npranam in the half \u2014a \u2014minute Mother has permitted to many. But one ought to know that inner things never depend on the
\ntime. <\/p>\n

Obviously, the time has nothing to do with it. One hour’s touch
\nor a moment’s touch  \u2014as much can be done by the one as by the other. <\/p>\n

18 April 1935 <\/p>\n

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The Mother’s inner or subtle touch, which I have sometimes felt, simply had not the same effect as her physical touch
\nduring the Pranam. The inner touch came and disappeared within a few seconds, leaving practically no effect, whilst the
\nPranam touch left its impress for a long time even when there was depression and resistance. <\/p>\n

It is because you have lived in your outer and not in your inner being that it is like that. But unless you open to the inner touch,
\nthe inner being cannot develop. I mean by the inner being the inner mind, the inner vital, the inner physical, the inner psychic. <\/p>\n

3 February 1937 <\/p>\n

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Could you explain what you mean by the inner touch? <\/p>\n

The inner touch is the Mother’s influence felt in the inner being. <\/p>\n

When I was having experiences and realisations, why did I not feel the inner touch? It is said that without the inner touch,
\none cannot have such experiences, which are the fruit of the inner being’s development. <\/p>\n

You did not feel it because the inner being was not awake to it 
\n\u2014it felt only the results  \u2014and these results were not experiences
\nin the inner being itself but of the Self above.<\/p>\n

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\nFlowers at Pranam
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

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What does the Mother mean by giving us flowers at the
\nPranam? <\/p>\n

Simply to put the power indicated upon you if you are willing
\nto receive it. It is a progress suggested and offered. <\/p>\n

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I felt hurt when the Mother stopped giving me flowers, but now I feel that I have not yet learned the first lesson of Yoga 
\n\t\u2014to surrender to the Mother and accept that whatever she does for me is done for the best. Also, have I not myself told
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her several times not to give me flowers. Once I got very disturbed when people asked me why Mother gave me such
\npoor flowers. But now I have got on the right track again. You will change me completely so that all of me belongs to you
\nand the Mother. <\/p>\n

As regards what you say retrospectively about the giving of
\nflowers, there were there two mistakes, <\/p>\n

(1) The one you have yourself seen; you should accept what
\nthe Mother sees to be best and most helpful, not judging by your own standard, as it is she alone who has the right knowledge
\nabout those things. <\/p>\n

(2) Never base yourself or your idea of the Mother and her
\nactions on what others say  \u2014as when they told you you had wrong flowers. How can they judge or know? Their utterances
\nmay be the result of very wrong judgments and their statements may be misstatements. <\/p>\n

Now that you have seen the right thing, go by the way I have indicated to you, the way of confidence and true self
\n\u2014giving. <\/p>\n

May 1932 <\/p>\n

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The Mother was so kind as to give me a message in the form of six flowers. Their significances are: Devotion, Faith, Mental
\nSincerity, Resolution, Divine Help and Peace in the Vital. But I did not understand the exact meaning of the message. Will
\nyou kindly explain it? <\/p>\n

The Divine Help was put inside the flower of faith 
\n\t\u2014when that
\nis done, the two flowers form a single idea = faith in Divine Help. <\/p>\n

The meaning was simply that these are the conditions for the realisation in the Yoga 
\n\u2014devotion, faith in Divine help, resolution, mental sincerity, peace in the vital 
\n\u2014if these are there, the realisation will come. <\/p>\n

10 February 1933 <\/p>\n

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What is the significance of the Mother’s giving us flowers at Pranam? <\/p>\n

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It is meant to help the realisation of the thing the flower stands for. <\/p>\n

28 April 1933 <\/p>\n

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When giving the Bhakti flower, it is the power of Bhakti, the possibility of it that Mother offers to you 
\n\u2014if you can open
\nyourself and receive it.<\/p>\n

\n

13 June 1933 <\/p>\n

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When the Mother gives us flowers, are we to aspire for the
\nthings they stand for or does she give these things with the flowers? <\/p>\n

There is no fixed rule 
\n\u2014sometimes it is the one, sometimes the other. But even when the thing is given, it is given in power 
\n\u2014it has to be realised by the sadhak in consciousness and for that aspiration is necessary. <\/p>\n

17 November 1933 <\/p>\n

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Today the Mother gave me a “Vital purity” flower, but my vital does not like this flower because it lowers the vital in
\nthe opinion of people. “Other people get flowers with good significances, I get only this kind of flower” 
\n\t\u2014unable to repel
\nthis suggestion, my vital got roused and I suffered. <\/p>\n

“Vital purity” is also a flower of good significance expressing a
\nvery high thing. When the Mother gives a flower like that, she gives the Force along with it. But you must receive the force, not
\nthink about people’s opinion of you or your prestige with them which is a thing not worth a thought. <\/p>\n

22 November 1933 <\/p>\n

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Today the Mother gave me the flower Progress. I felt she was telling me that I am just sitting and I ought to move forward.
\nWhat should I understand by it? <\/p>\n

When the Mother gives a flower, she gives the power of the thing
\nit means  \u2014if the sadhak is ready or willing to receive it, he can do so. <\/p>\n

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X <\/i>prophesies that I will get a “Divine Love” flower today; she wants half my share! I said I never get the nice white flowers
\nshe does. In any case we do not get what our mind thinks we should get. <\/p>\n

Obviously not 
\n\u2014the mind chooses according to likings or fancies or else to some mental idea of what should be; the
\nMother chooses by intuitive observation or else an inspiration of what is needed. <\/p>\n

9 July 1934 <\/p>\n

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At Pranam I observed that Mother was giving smaller lotuses to outside sadhaks and big, full lotuses to those she loves more.
\nTo my fate came a medium lotus and from that time all was finished. I could neither work nor sit steadily. <\/p>\n

Why on earth do you get these fits of comparison and measurement? They are quite foreign to Mother’s thoughts or intention.
\nShe did not choose at all in giving to the sadhaks,  \u2014all were mixed together, whatever came to her hand she gave. <\/p>\n

5 April 1935 <\/p>\n

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You say there was nothing intended in the giving of particular lotuses, but I find it hard to believe. First, Mother cannot be
\nunconscious of what she is doing. Second, it would not create so much disturbance as to make me give up work and lose all
\nstrength, if there were not something behind it. <\/p>\n

All these ideas are formations in your own mind and suggestions
\nfrom a wrong force. It is the usual trick of certain forces to represent the Mother as a sort of malignant and insincere tyrant
\ntaking a pleasure in disturbing and torturing people and lying to them at every step. I wonder that a clear mind like yours should
\nget so clouded as not to see the trick or fail to perceive that if she is like that she cannot be the Mother. But the singularity is
\nthat such ideas seem to spring up in almost everybody as soon as they get a little disturbed and they never seem to see the sheer
\nillogicality of the thing. This has been a disease, it is true, that has sprung up and stuck in the Asram
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beginning and if it is somewhat diminished in generality and force, is still there. When it disappears altogether, it will be a
\ngreat day for the collective sadhana.<\/p>\n

\n

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Are flowers mere symbols and nothing more? Can the flower
\nsymbolising silence, for example, help in the realisation of silence? <\/p>\n

It is when Mother puts her force into the flower that it becomes more than a symbol. It then can become very effective, if there
\nis receptivity in the one who receives.<\/p>\n

\n

19 July 1937 <\/p>\n


\nAvoiding Pranam
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

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Is the idea of not coming to Pranam usually a hostile suggestion? <\/p>\n

It is a hostile suggestion almost always. <\/p>\n

How can the idea of not coming to Pranam be accepted, as some have done? <\/p>\n

Various motives are played upon 
\n\u2014pride, the desire not to be like others, not to be dependent on the Mother, the wish to protect some wrong movement from the Mother’s control, the idea of doing the sadhana in one’s own way free from the pressure
\nof the Truth etc.<\/p>\n

\n

30 May 1933 <\/p>\n

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I felt a disinclination to come to Pranam, a dryness and lack
\nof interest in anything, an absence of love for Mother. What is the use of going to Pranam in such a dry manner or simply
\nfor protection or peace or any such selfish object? <\/p>\n

That is a suggestion which should be entirely rejected. It is the
\nusual attack trying to act on the physical consciousness through dryness and depression. <\/p>\n

24 February 1934 <\/p>\n

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I have often seen that X <\/i>would be quite cheerful just before coming for Pranam, but when he came in front of Mother he
\nlooked sorrowful and displeased. What was the reason? <\/p>\n

X <\/i>is doing like many others 
\n\t\u2014they are cheerful outside, but sorrowful or displeased or suffering when they come to the Mother or write to her. There is a sort of idea (which was long current
\nin the Asram) and there is still a feeling in the vital that the more you do that with the Mother the more you will get out of her. Of
\ncourse it is absurdly untrue  \u2014the truth is the opposite; the more one is cheerfully open to her and lives in the light and gladness,
\nthe more one is likely to receive. <\/p>\n

\n\tPranam and Non
\n\t\u2014Pranam Days <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

What are these stupid waves moving about the atmosphere? People say: “Non \u2014pranam day means a day of rest for the
\nsadhana.” <\/p>\n

It is the ordinary attitude of the physical consciousness 
\n\t\u2014but
\nonce the fundamental consciousness is fixed, there is no reason why the sadhana should stop for a single day or need rest. <\/p>\n

1 April 1935 <\/p>\n

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False suggestions have been telling me that I have no love for the Mother. But on every non
\n\t\u2014pranam day the sadhana refuses
\nto move forward. How can this happen unless not only the inner being, but even the mind and the physical have a good
\ndeal of love for her? Only my love for the Mother is not outwardly expressed because it wants to take a psychic form,
\nnot a vital one. But as long as the outer mind and vital are not psychicised, it is not possible to have a psychic expression
\nin the outer being all the time, but only for a few limited moments. Is this correct? <\/p>\n

Yes, but the vital’s
\ntest is very foolish. If the sadhana goes on whether you see the Mother or not,
\nthat would rather show that the psychic connection is permanently there and
\nactive always and does not depend on the physical contact. The vital seems to<\/p>\n

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think the sadhana ought to cease if you do not see the Mother, but that would only mean that the love and devotion need the
\nstimulus of physical contact; the greatest test of love and devotion is on the contrary when it burns as strongly in long absence
\nas in the presence. If your sadhana went on as well on nonpranam as on pranam days it would not prove that love and
\ndevotion are not there, but that they are so strong as to be selfexistent in all circumstances. <\/p>\n

8 June 1936 <\/p>\n

\n\tFixed Places at Pranam <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Are the places in the pranam hall fixed for each individual person? Today I was meditating there when suddenly
\nX <\/i>came
\nand told me to move, saying it was his place. There was an empty place at my side, so I told him to sit there, but he refused
\nand told me I was sitting in his fixed place. Then I moved over, but Y <\/i>came and told me to move, for it was his fixed place.
\nTo avoid any disturbance I quickly left the place, but I must confess that I was annoyed and it disturbed my meditation.
\nIn fact X <\/i>comes only once in a blue moon to the morning meditation, yet he wants his place to be reserved for ever. <\/p>\n

Mother has not fixed places for anyone but the rule of the “fixed place” does obtain in the morning Pranam. It is Nolini who sees
\nafter these things. So you had better find a place in the sun not claimed or pegged out yet by any imperial Power and inform
\nNolini that you now claim that country.<\/p>\n

\n

23 July 1936 <\/p>\n


\nThe Change from Pranam to Meditation
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The present arrangement about the morning Meditation is for
\nso long as the Mother has need of rest. It is not intended as a permanent arrangement. Only, if the sadhaks really want the
\nPranam to continue as before, they should make a better use of it. Many spend
\n\tthe time looking at what the Mother is doing, whom she smiles on, whom she
\n\tpats or how she blesses people and gossip about it afterwards  \u2014most
\n\ttake it as a routine. All that is a wrong spirit and it puts a great strain
\n\ton the Mother<\/p>\n

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who has to fight all the time against the wrong forces this wrong attitude brings into the atmosphere. <\/p>\n

30 January 1937 <\/p>\n

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There is a conspiracy among the gods to take away Mother into retirement: no Pranam henceforth. Sir, they have taken
\nyou away already and now if Mother withdraws, well, we can do the same one by one. <\/p>\n

Well, if people withdraw into themselves, they might find the Mother there! <\/p>\n

1 February 1937 <\/p>\n

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Did your remark “people withdraw into themselves” carry a suggestion that Mother’s personal touch is not necessary or
\nessential? <\/p>\n

It is not essential 
\n\t\u2014the inner touch is the essential thing. But it
\ncan be of immense help if properly received. For certain things it is essential but these certain things nobody yet is ready for. <\/p>\n

Some people believe that the inner touch is not essential; whatever is necessary can be had through meditation or otherwise. <\/p>\n

Whatever is necessary for the inner being, yes. <\/p>\n

As a matter of fact, plenty of people are glad because now
\nthey can do whatever they please. <\/p>\n

But there was never any necessity for such people coming to the
\nPranam! It is not obligatory. <\/p>\n

I know from my own experience that we have abused the
\nPranam. To tell you frankly, when the morning meditation started I was glad, and I was not quite certain it was not
\nbetter than Pranam, for I thought, “Now I am free from those worries about Mother’s looks.” Even then I believe that there
\nis something great in the physical touch of the Mother, and one can’t afford to lose it under any circumstance; of course
\none must have the right attitude.   <\/p>\n

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That is it. The Pranam (like the soup in the evening before) has been very badly misused. What is the Pranam for? That
\npeople might receive in the most direct and integral way  \u2014a way that includes the physical consciousness and makes it a channel 
\n\u2014what the Mother could give them and they were ready for. Instead people sit as if at a court reception noting what the
\nMother does (and generally misobserving), making inferences, gossiping afterwards as to her attitude to this or that person, who
\nis the more favoured, who is less favoured  \u2014as if the Mother were doling out her favour or disfavour or appreciations or
\ndisapprovals there, just as courtiers in a court might do. What an utterly unspiritual attitude. How can the Mother’s work be
\ntruly done in such an atmosphere? How can there be the right reception? Naturally it reacts on the sadhak, creates any amount
\nof misconception, wrong feelings etc.  \u2014creates an open door for the suggestions of the Adversary who delights in falsehood and
\nadministers plenty of it to the minds of the sadhaks. This apart from the fact that many throw all sorts of undesirable things
\non the Mother through the Pranam. The whole thing tends to become a routine, even where there are not these reactions.
\nSome of course profit, those who can keep something of the right attitude. If there were the right attitude in all, well by this
\ntime things would have gone very far towards the spiritual goal. <\/p>\n

What is the right attitude for real love and devotion? Is it to
\nbe psychically depressed because Mother is not coming for pranam any more or is it to try to get her within? <\/p>\n

Psychic depression (a queer phrase 
\n\u2014you mean vital, I suppose) can help no one. To try to receive within is always the true thing,
\nwhether through meditation or pranam.<\/p>\n

\n

2 February 1937 <\/p>\n

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Even though I feel Mother during the morning meditation, it
\nis not the same thing as the Pranam was. I feel as though a fundamental support has been taken away 
\n\u2014something one
\ncould hold on to is not there. I was thinking how nice it would be if the Mother gave Pranam
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struggle of the day we could turn a little more inward and have her soothing touch. <\/p>\n

The difficulty is that apart from the slight incident to the eye that has happened, Mother badly needs a rest from the storm
\nshe has undergone physically so long and I don’t think it would be wise to disregard the need any longer 
\n\u2014for the storm has
\nbeen there a long time. I hope that after a period of rest, things can be renewed but at present meditation is the only way, for
\nthere is no strain on her.<\/p>\n

\n

3 February 1937 <\/p>\n

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In regard to the proposed change which would vary Pranam
\nwith Meditation  \u2014not stop pranam altogether. It had nothing to do with the temporary rest taken by the Mother 
\n\t\u2014that was
\nabsolutely indispensable. I had often asked her to take some rest before but she had refused because it might disturb the
\nsadhaks too much  \u2014what happened made the break physically indispensable. The sadhaks ought to concede that much to her
\nafter she has laboured night and day for so many years without giving herself any real rest even at night. You yourself wrote
\nasking her to take the rest she needed. Even so she did not fail to begin going down morning and evening and renewing interviews
\nas soon as it was physically possible.<\/p>\n

\n

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\n <\/p>\n

X <\/i>feels the stopping of pranam so profoundly that he is depressed. But to make one’s sadhana or life depend on the Mother’s touch is to have a vital sadhana and a vital life,
\ntransient and superficial. <\/p>\n

It is only if one can feel the inward touch of the Mother without
\nthe necessity of the physical contact that the true value of the latter can be really active. Otherwise there is a danger of its
\nbecoming like a mere artificial stimulant or a pulling of vital force from her for one’s own benefit. <\/p>\n

2 March 1937 <\/p>\n

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Some people seem to think that to prepare themselves for the inner touch of the Mother, they have to go through the
\npreliminary stage of having her physical touch at Pranam. So the question is: Is it possible for all, at the very beginning, to
\ndevelop the inner touch without the physical touch? <\/p>\n

If they are so dependent on the physical touch that they cannot
\nfeel anything when it is not there, this means that they have not used it at all for developing the inner connection; if they
\nhad, the inner connection after so many years would already be there. The inner connection can only be developed by an inner
\nconcentration and aspiration, not by a mere outward pranam every day. What most people do is simply to pull vital force
\nfrom the Mother and live on it  \u2014but that is not the object of the Pranam. <\/p>\n

4 March 1937 <\/p>\n

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Pulling is a psychological act 
\n\u2014people are always pulling vital force from each other though they do not do it consciously, i.e.
\nwith a purpose in the mind  \u2014it is instinctive in the vital to draw force from wherever it can. All contact is in fact a receiving
\nand giving of vital forces in a small or great degree. You have yourself said that after meeting such and such person you felt
\nempty and exhausted  \u2014that means the person drew your vital force out of you. That is what people do at pranam, instead of
\nbeing quiet and receptive, they pull vitally. It can be stopped by cutting off connection, but if the Mother did that at pranam,
\nthen the pranam would be useless.<\/p>\n

\n

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For many people the present morning meditation with the
\nMother has had a good result. They are able to receive better than when there was only pranam. But in my case the withdrawal of pranam has meant a reduction of psychological pressure by 84 percent. <\/p>\n

Different people react differently to the change. Pranam
\nhad become to many a routine, to many a mere occasion of pulling the Mother’s
\nvital forces away from her so as to supply themselves <\/p>\n

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with vital provender for the day, to many a mere occasion for gossip as to how the Mother had behaved with this one or that
\none (all founded on their own “observation”, imagination and inference); the attitude to it had become twisted. If there had
\nbeen the right attitude in all and the right use of the contact, it would have been a different matter. <\/p>\n

25 March 1937 <\/p>\n

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Mother has told you what to reply to X <\/i>about other points. You may add this from me, that all this about Mother’s smile
\nand displeasure is simply the wrong play of the vital in her. It is because so many of the sadhaks were indulging in this wrong
\nplay of the vital about Mother’s smile and her pleasure and displeasure and all kinds of revolts and jealousies and anger against
\nthe Mother and canvassing despondency and talk of going away etc. that the Pranam had to be stopped. Nothing can be worse
\nfor the sadhana than to give play to ignorant vital movements like these. She must throw these things away from her if she
\nwants to make any progress in sadhana.<\/p>\n

\n

22 April 1937 <\/p>\n


\nOutsiders at Pranam
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The permission for Pranam and meditation cannot be given. In
\nbetween the Darshans it will now be no longer allowed to people from outside or only in exceptional cases. <\/p>\n

14 December 1935 <\/p>\n

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Why on earth can’t people wait for outsiders to ask for Pranam instead of goading them to come to it? It makes the Pranam
\ncheap and makes people think we are yearning for them to come and make Pranam, which is a damned mistake and not
\nconducive to the dignity of the spiritual life.<\/p>\n

\n

25 September 1938 <\/p>\n

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\n\tMaking Pranam at a Distance <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I am trying to sit in concentration [in Bombay<\/i>], but I am
\nunable to do anything except offering pranams to the Mother.<\/p>\n

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Am I proceeding correctly? <\/p>\n

Write to him that what he is doing is quite right. While making
\nthe Pranam he should aspire to be open to the Mother’s influence and her workings in him and to become conscious of her
\nworkings.<\/p>\n

\n

29 August 1930 <\/p>\n

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\n\tMaking Pranam to Others <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Why is there this imagination? X <\/i>is as human as she can be and
\nnot in the least superhuman. Nobody is to be bowed down to except myself and the Mother. Be on your guard against allowing these or other imaginations to take hold of you 
\n\t\u2014they come easily when the mind is exalted and should be looked at carefully,
\nnot accepted without discernment.<\/p>\n

\n

22 November 1932 <\/p>\n

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It [the wish to make pranam to others<\/i>] is a wrong suggestion
\nfrom somewhere. It is very necessary not to take the attitude of Pranam to others or to give even in thought a place at all
\napproaching or similar to the Mother’s.<\/p>\n

\n

27 July 1934 <\/p>\n

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In a dream it was Pranam time. There was a boyish looking
\nperson to whom all had to do pranam by the Mother’s order. Someone made pranam to him and I noted that the boyish person spoke some words in anger. I hesitated, but since Mother had told us to do it, I had to do pranam and so did all the
\nothers. Why these wrong pranams and Mother’s order? <\/p>\n

It was evidently a vital formation, as Mother’s order could not
\npossibly be for the pranam to be to another, since such a thing is forbidden and would be disastrous. <\/p>\n

It is the kind of formation X <\/i>was persistently making that all must approach and realise the Truth through him and he
\neven hoped that one day we would realise the fact that the supramental Truth had
\ndescended into him and into him alone and would order all to approach it and us
\nonly through him! You<\/p>\n

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probably saw in your dream something like that moving about and the dream gave it form. Several people had this delusion
\nbefore, but I think with X <\/i>it went out of the Asram. Still some remnants may be floating still. <\/p>\n

9 September 1934 <\/p>\n

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\n\tPranam in the Reception Hall <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

It seems X <\/i>has often criticised Y <\/i>for sitting and doing pranam and meditation in the Reception Hall near the photographs. I
\ndo not understand this propaganda of X <\/i> \u2014does the Mother want him to do that? <\/p>\n

It is X<\/i>‘s own idea. The only thing Mother insisted on is that the Reception Hall is primarily meant for visitors and at the time
\nwhen visitors come sadhaks should not occupy the place or do meditation or pranam there. There has never been any restriction on meditation or pranam before our photographs as such 
\n\u2014external worship was never forbidden. It is only a question
\nof the place being kept mainly for its original purpose. Z <\/i>had at one time almost occupied the place keeping some kind of
\nmattress or something there and meditating for long periods  \u2014that was objected to certainly. Idolatry comes in only when the
\nimage pushes out the Person  \u2014there were one or two who said that for them that (the photograph there) was the Mother (more
\neven than the living Person). There was a growing atmosphere of excess about all this and the Mother had to recall people to
\na sense of measure. That is all. But there is no prohibition of it on principle. <\/p>\n

15 March 1935 <\/p>\n

\n\tThe Soup Ceremony
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I saw in dream: The Mother is giving me soup. I am taking the soup from the Mother’s hand and bowing down at her
\nfeet. What is the reason for this dream? What is the spiritual meaning of the soup which the Mother used to give us? <\/p>\n

The soup was instituted in order to establish a means by which the sadhak
\nmight receive something from the Mother by an interchange in the material
\nconsciousness. Owing to the past <\/p>\n

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association probably you see like that when your material consciousness in dream receives something from the Mother. <\/p>\n

27 July 1933 <\/p>\n

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\n\tThe Value of Darshan <\/a> <\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The Mother is within but the darshan of her helps to realise the Divine on the physical plane also. <\/p>\n

11 May 1933 <\/p>\n

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I would like to know if it is harmful to talk while waiting for the Mother to come out? I sometimes cannot help talking,
\nlaughing and joking. <\/p>\n

If you attach any value to the darshan, it is better to be
\nrecueilli<\/i>.
\nIf her coming is only one incident of the day’s routine like taking dinner, then of course it does not matter. <\/p>\n

24 July 1933 <\/p>\n

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*<\/p>\n

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Is there any difference between recueilli <\/i>and concentrated? <\/p>\n

Recueilli
\n<\/i>means drawn back, quiet and collected in oneself. <\/p>\n

25 July 1933 <\/p>\n

\n

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*<\/p>\n

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The best way for Darshan is to keep oneself very collected and quiet and open to receive whatever the Mother gives. <\/p>\n

12 February 1937 <\/p>\n

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\n\tPublic Darshan Days
\n<\/a><\/b><\/p>\n

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Mother, Lord, on the 24th I shall take my food only after having your darshan. Mother, Lord, destroy all my wrong
\nthoughts and feelings. <\/p>\n

That is quite wrong. Fasting will not in the least remove any bad
\nthings  \u2014it is by receiving the Mother’s Light and Force in you that they will go. You must eat tomorrow. <\/p>\n

23 November 1933 <\/p>\n

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I wonder if it is pleasant on Darshan days for the Mother to be touched by 300 people with various things in their vitals
\nand physicals. Perhaps above the Overmind one feels all as the Divine, so the touch and all else is taken delight in as a play
\nof the Divine behind all. Yet her body must be feeling a little uneasy at these touches. <\/p>\n

Not uneasy; but it is not easy to absorb and deal with all that when the number is so many and so much is foreign matter. <\/p>\n

1 September 1934 <\/p>\n

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X <\/i>is hopeful that the Mother will see Y <\/i>before they leave Pondicherry. If bringing her for Darshan is not possible, could
\nMother see her at some other time? <\/p>\n

Mother cannot see her. The most we can concede is that she
\nmay be brought for Darshan in the way proposed, but she must simply take the blessing and pass, there must be no lingering. It
\nis a mistake to bring sick people or the insane to the Darshan for cure  \u2014the Darshan is not meant for that. If anything is to be
\ndone or can be done for them, it can be done at a distance. The Force that acts at the time of Darshan is of another kind and one
\nderanged or feeble in mind cannot receive or cannot assimilate it  \u2014it may produce a contrary effect owing to this incapacity if
\nreceived at all. If the Force is withheld, then Darshan is useless, if received by such people it is unsafe. It is similar reasons which
\ndictate the rule forbidding children of tender years to be brought to the Darshan. <\/p>\n

13 August 1937 <\/p>\n

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\n\tThe First Blessing
\n<\/a>
\n<\/b><\/p>\n

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\n\tNo  \u2014we don’t put our picture inside anybody when we give the first
\n\tblessing. But if you go on looking inside, you will one day find the Mother
\n\tthere. <\/p>\n

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