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   Section Six <\/i>
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TRANSFORMATION OF THE VITAL
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\nThe two movements whose apparent contradiction confuses your mind, are the two ends of a single consciousness whose motions, now separated from each other, must join if the life-power is to have its more and more perfect action and fulfilment
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\nThe vital being with the life-force in it is one of these ends; the other is a latent dynamic power of the higher consciousness through which the Divine Truth can act, take hold of the vital and
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\nThe Life-Force in the vital is the indispensable instrument for all action of
\nthe Divine Power on the material world and the physical nature. It is therefore
\nonly when this vital is transformed and made a pure and strong instrument of the
\nDivine Shakti, that there can be a divine life. Then only can there be a
\nsuccessful transformation of the physical nature or a free perfected divine
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\none can need, that all things are possible by this energy and that you can get
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\nspiritual life,\u2014and that also is why, when this energy comes, you feel power
\npervading the body-consciousness and its matter. As for the contact with the
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and right; for the vital, no less than the psychic and every other part of the being, has to feel the Divine Mother and give itself entirely to her.\n<\/p>\n

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\nBut this must always be remembered that the vital being and the life-force in man are separated from the Divine Light and, so separated, they are an instrument for any power that can take hold of them, illumined or obscure, divine or undivine. Ordinarily, the vital energy serves the common obscure or half-conscious movements of the human mind and human life, its normal ideas, interests, passions and desires. But it is possible for the vital energy to increase beyond the ordinary limits and, if so increased, it can attain an impetus, an intensity, an excitation or sublimation of its forces by which it can become, is almost bound to become an instrument either of divine powers, the powers of the gods, or of Asuric forces. Or, if there is no settled central control in the nature, its action can be a confused mixture of these opposites, or in an inconsequent oscillation serve now one and now the other. It is not enough then to have a great vital energy acting in you; it must be put in contact with the higher consciousness, it must be surrendered to the true control, it must be placed under the government of the Divine. That is why there is sometimes felt a contempt for the action of the vital force or a condemnation of it, because it has an insufficient light and control and is wedded to an ignorant undivine movement. That also is why there is the necessity of opening to inspiration and power from a higher source. The vital energy by itself leads nowhere, runs in chequered, often painful and ruinous circles, takes even to the precipice, because it has no right guidance; it must be connected with the dynamic power of the higher consciousness and with the Divine Force acting through it for a great and luminous purpose.\n<\/p>\n

     
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\nThere are two movements necessary for this connection to be established. One is upward; the vital rises to join with the higher consciousness and steeps itself in the light and in the impulsion of a higher force: the other is downward; the vital remains silent, tranquillised, pure, empty of the ordinary movements, waiting, till the dynamic power from above descends into it, changes it to its true self and informs its movements with knowledge as well as power. That is why the sadhak feels sometimes that he is rising up into a happier and nobler consciousness, entering into a brighter domain and purer experience, but sometimes, on the contrary, feels the necessity of going back into the vital, doing sadhana there and bringing down into it the true consciousness. There is no real contradiction between these two movements; they are complementary and necessary to each other, the ascension enabling the divine descent, the descent fulfilling that for which the ascension aspires and which it makes inevitable.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhen you rise with the vital from its lower reaches and join it to the psychic, then your vital being fills with the pure aspiration and devotion natural to the psychic; at the same time it gives to the feelings its own abundant energy, it makes them dynamic for the change of the whole nature down to the most physical and for the bringing down of the divine consciousness into earth matter. When it not only touches the psychic but fuses with the higher mind, it is able to come into contact with and obey a greater light and knowledge. Ordinarily, the vital is either moved by the human mind and governed by its more or less ignorant dictates, or takes violent hold of this mind and uses it for the satisfaction of its own passions, impulses or desires. Or it makes a mixture of these two movements; for the ordinary human mind is too ignorant for a better action or a perfect guidance. But when the vital is in contact with the higher mind,\n<\/p>\n

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it is possible for it to be guided by a greater light and knowledge, by a higher intuition and inspiration, a truer discrimination and some revelations of the divine truth and the divine will. This obedience of the vital to the psychic and the higher mind is the beginning of the outgoing of the yogic consciousness in its dynamic action upon life.\n<\/p>\n

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\nBut this too is not sufficient for the divine life. To come into contact with the higher mind consciousness is not enough, it is only an indispensable stage. There must be a descent of the Divine Force from yet loftier and more powerful reaches. A
\ntransformation of the higher consciousness into a
\nsupramental light and power, a transformation of the vital and its life-force
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\ntransformation of the physical itself into a form of divine light, divine
\naction, strength, beauty and joy are impossible without this descending Force
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\nDivine which it has in common with other paths of yoga is not enough; there must
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\nYes, that is the nature of the vital. It can make the absolute and enthusiastic surrender as well as cause all trouble possible. Without the vital there is no life-force of creation or manifestation; it is a necessary instrument of the spirit for life.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is through a change in the vital that the deliverance from the blind vital energy must come\u2014by the emergence of the true vital which is strong, wide, at peace, a willing instrument of the Divine and of the Divine alone.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt means the life-energy which comes from within and is in consonance with the psychic being\u2014it is the energy of the true vital being, but in the ordinary ignorant vital it is deformed into desire. You have to quiet and purify the vital and let the true vital emerge. Or you have to bring the psychic in front and the psychic will purify and psychicise the vital and then you will have the true vital energy.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhat has been put into the vital receptacle by life can be got out by reversing it, turning it towards the Divine and not towards yourself. You will then find that the vital is as excellent an instrument as it is a bad master.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe human vital is almost always of that nature, but that is no reason why one should accept it as an unchangeable fact and allow a restless vital to drive one as it likes. .Even apart from yoga, in ordinary life, only those are considered to have full manhood or are likely to succeed in their life, their ideals or their undertakings who take in hand this restless vital, concentrate\n<\/p>\n

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and control it and subject it to discipline. It is by the use of the mental will that they discipline it, compelling it to do not what it wants but what the reason or the will sees to be right or desirable. In yoga one uses the inner will and compels the vital to submit itself to tapasya so that it may become calm, strong, obedient\u2014or else one calls down the calm from above obliging the vital to renounce desire and become quiet and receptive. The vital is a good instrument but a bad master. If you allow it to follow its likes and dislikes, its fancies, its desires, its bad habits, it becomes your master and peace and happiness are no longer possible. It becomes not your instrument or the instrument of the Divine Shakti, but of any force of the Ignorance or even any hostile force that is able to seize and use it.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is a great progress if you can now do that. The chief difficulty in the way of living in the light as well as the peace and force is the confused and turbid restlessness of man’s vital nature. If that is quieted, the major difficulty is gone. There still remains the obstacle of the physical nature’s non-understanding or inertia\u2014but that is less troublesome\u2014it is more of the nature of a quiet though sometimes obstinate obstruction than a disturbance. If the vital inquietude has been cured then certainly the physical obscurity or non-understanding will go.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThat [seeking enjoyment] is the attitude not of the whole vital but of the physical vital, the animal part of the human being. Of course it cannot be convinced by mental reasoning of any kind. In most men it is the natural and accepted attitude towards life varnished over with some conventional moralism and idealism\n<\/p>\n

   
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as a concession to the mind and higher vital. In a few this part of the being is gripped and subordinated to the mental or the higher vital aim, forced to take a subordinate place so that the mind may absorb itself persistently in mental pursuits or idealisms or great political or personal ambitions (Lenin, Hitler, Stalin, Mussolini). The ascetic and the Puritan try to suppress it mostly or altogether. In our yoga the principle is that all must become an instrument of the Spirit and the parts of enjoyment taste the Ananda in things, not the animal enjoyment of the surface. But the Ananda will not come or will not stay so long as this part is not converted and insists on its own way of satisfaction.\n<\/p>\n

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\ndeath as its answer is all that human existence is as it is ordinarily
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in the last three thousand years, except in information and material equipment. A little less cruelty and brutality perhaps, more plasticity of the intellect in the elite, a quicker habit of change in forms, that is all.\n<\/p>\n

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\nMan is a mental being and cannot come from the vital, although part of him may live in the vital plane or rather in connection with it. Most men in fact live much in the vital and therefore when they practise sadhana it is first in the vital plane that they find themselves, in dreams, experiences etc. When the supramental opens then something will descend from the supramental in each as he becomes ready and forms a supramental Purusha in him. What he is now, cannot limit what he will become.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThat [engagement in physical work or study] is not living in the vital\u2014these are physical and mental occupations merely. Living in the vital is a psychological condition.\n<\/p>\n

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\nMost people live in the vital. That means that they live in their desires, sensations, emotional feelings, vital imaginations and see and experience and judge everything from that point of view. It is the vital that moves them, the mind being at its service, not its master. In yoga also many people do sadhana from that plane and their experience is full of vital visions, formations, experiences of all kinds, but there is no mental clarity or order, neither do they rise above the mind. It is only the minority of men who live in the mind or in the psychic or try to live in the spiritual plane.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIn the ordinary life people accept the vital movements, anger, desire, greed, sex, etc. as natural, allowable and legitimate things, part of the human nature. Only so far as society discourages them or insists to keep them within fixed limits or subject to a decent restraint or measure, people try to control them so as to conform to the social standard of morality or rule of conduct. Here, on the contrary, as in all spiritual life, the conquest and complete mastery of these things is demanded. That is why the struggle is more felt, not because these things rise more strongly in sadhaks than in ordinary men, but because of the intensity of the struggle between the spiritual mind which demands control and the vital movements which rebel and want to continue in the new as they did in the old life. As for the idea that the sadhana raises up things of the kind, the only truth in that is this that, first, there are many things in the ordinary man of which he is not conscious, because the vital hides them from the mind and gratifies them without the mind realising what is the force that is moving the action\u2014thus things that are done under the plea of altruism, philanthropy, service, etc. are largely moved by ego which hides itself behind these justifications; in yoga the secret motive has to be pulled out from behind the veil, exposed and got rid of. Secondly, some things are suppressed in the ordinary life and remain lying in the nature, suppressed but not eliminated; they may rise up any day or they may express themselves in various nervous forms or other disorders of the mind or vital or body without it being evident what is their real cause. This has been recently discovered by European psychologists and much emphasised, even exaggerated in a new science called psycho-analysis. Here again, in sadhana one has to become conscious of these suppressed impulses and eliminate them\u2014 this may be called rising up, but that does not mean that they\n<\/p>\n

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\nAs for some men being able to control themselves and others being swept away, that is due to difference of temperament. Some men are sattwic and control comes easy to them, up to a certain point at least; others are more rajasic and find control difficult and often impossible. Some have a strong mind and mental will and others are vital men in whom the vital passions are stronger and more on the surface. Some do not think control necessary and let themselves go. In sadhana the mental or moral control has to be replaced by the spiritual mastery\u2014for that mental control is only partial and it controls but does not liberate; it is only the psychic and spiritual that can do that. That is the main difference in this respect between the ordinary and the spiritual life.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAt present your experiences are on the mental plane, but that is the right movement. Many sadhaks are unable to advance because they open the vital plane before the mental and psychic are ready. After some beginning of true spiritual experiences on the mental plane there is a premature descent into the vital and great confusion and disturbance. This has to be guarded against. It is still worse if the vital desire-soul opens to
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\nAspire always for the mind and psychic being to be filled with the true consciousness and experience and made ready. You must aspire especially for quietness, peace, a calm faith, an increasing steady wideness, for more and more knowledge, for a deep and intense but quiet devotion.\n<\/p>\n

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\nDo not be troubled by your surroundings and their opposition. These conditions are often imposed at first as a kind of ordeal. If you can remain tranquil and undisturbed and continue your sadhana without allowing yourself to be inwardly troubled under these circumstances, it will help to give you a much needed strength; for the path of yoga is always beset with inner and outer difficulties and the sadhak must develop a quiet, firm and solid strength to meet them.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYour former sadhana was mostly on the vital plane. The experiences of the vital plane are very interesting to the sadhak but they are mixed, i.e., not all linked with the higher Truth. A greater, purer and firmer basis for the sadhana has to be established\u2014the psychic basis. For that reason all the old experiences are stopped. The heart has to be made the centre and through bhakti and aspiration you have to bring forward the psychic being and enter into close touch with the Divine Shakti. If you can do this, your sadhana will begin again with a better result.\n<\/p>\n

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mental range. The mind quieted and experiencing the effects of the sadhana quieted the vital disturbance, but did not clear and change the vital nature.\n<\/p>\n

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\nNow the sadhana seems to be descending into the vital to clear and change it. The first result is that the difficulty of the vital has shown itself\u2014the ugly images and alarming dreams come from a hostile vital plane which is opposed to the sadhana. From there also comes the renewal of the agitation, the disinclination and resistance to the sadhana. This is not a going back to the old condition, but the result of a pressure of the yoga-Force on the vital for change to which there is a resistance.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is this descent of the sadhana to free the vital being that made you feel the necessity of concentrating in the region of the heart; for in the region of the heart is the psychic centre and below, behind the navel, is the vital centre. If these two can be awakened and occupied by the yoga-Force, then the psychic (Soul-Power) will command the vital range and purify the vital nature and tranquillise it and turn it to the Divine. It will be best if you are able to concentrate at will in the heart region and at the crown of the head, for that gives a more complete power of sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

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of the mind and heart with the Divine and can have the joy and satisfaction of itself, trusting for fulfilment by the Divine in his own time. Meditation? Yes, but your meditation has got into a wrong
\nāsana, <\/i>that of an eager and vehement wrestling followed by a bitter despair. It is no use getting on with it like that: it is better to drop it till you get a new
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\nāsana <\/i>got successfully disturbed by wrong forces like Asuras, Apsaras etc., they left it and sought for a new one.) Moreover, your meditation is lacking in quietude: you meditate with a striving mind, but it is in the quiet mind that the experience comes, as all yogis agree\u2014the still water that reflects rightly the sun, the cup made empty before the soma-rasa <\/i>of the spirit may be poured in it. Prepare the mind and heart till things begin to flow into them in a spontaneous current when all is ready.\n<\/p>\n

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the mental, physical or spiritual activities. If the vital resents, there is revolt and struggles. If the vital no longer insists on its own impulses and instincts but does not co-operate there is either dryness or a neutral state. Dryness comes in when the vital is quiescent but passively unwilling, not interested, the neutral state when it neither assents nor is unwilling,\u2014simply quiescent, passive. This, however, the neutral state can deepen into positive calm and peace by a greater influx from above which keeps the vital not only quiescent but at least passively acquiescent. With the active interest and consent of the vital the peace becomes a glad or joyful peace or a strong peace supporting and entering into action or active experience.
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\nNo doubt it was the silence\u2014the slight dryness must have been the reaction caused in the physical vital by the "uninterest" in external things\u2014because the physical vital depends very much on this external interest. When it gets more accustomed to the. silence, then the dryness disappears.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe nervous being is under the influence of the vital forces; when they are denied or pushed out, it becomes depressed and wants to call them back\u2014for it is accustomed to get the pleasure and strength of life from the vital movements and not from the spiritual or divine Force above.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe cardinal defect, that which has been always standing in the way and is now isolated in an extreme prominence, is seated or at least is at present concentrated in the lower vital being. I mean that part of the vital-physical nature with its petty and obstinate egoism which actuates the external human personality,\u2014that which supports its surface thoughts and dominates its habitual ways of feeling, character and action. I am not concerned here with the other parts of the being and I do not speak of anything in the higher mind, the psychic self or the higher and larger vital nature; for, when the lower vital rises, these are pushed into the background, if not covered over for the time, by this lower vital being and this external personality. Whatever there may be in these higher parts, aspiration to the Truth, devotion or will to conquer the obstacles and the hostile forces, it cannot become integral, it cannot remain unmixed or unspoilt or continue to be effective so long as the lower vital and the external personality have not accepted the Light and consented to change.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt was inevitable that in the course of the sadhana these inferior parts of the nature should be brought forward in order that like the rest of the being they may make the crucial choice and either accept or refuse transformation. My whole work depends upon this movement; it is the decisive ordeal of this yoga. For the physical consciousness and the material life cannot change if this does not change. Nothing that may have been done before, no inner illumination, experience, power of Ananda is of any eventual\n<\/p>\n

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value, if this is not done. If the little external personality is to persist in retaining its obscure and limited, its petty and ignoble, its selfish and false and stupid human consciousness, this amounts to a flat negation of the work and the sadhana. I have (no intention of giving my sanction to a new edition of the old fiasco, a partial and transient spiritual opening within with no true and radical change in the law of the external nature. If, then, any sadhak refuses in practice to admit this change or if he refuses even to admit the necessity for any change of his lower vital being and his habitual external personality, I am entitled to conclude that, whatever his professions, he has not accepted either myself or my yoga.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI am well aware that this change is not easy, the dynamic will towards it does not come at once and is difficult to fix, and, even afterwards, the sadhak often feels helpless against the force of habit. Knowing this, the Mother and myself have shown and are still showing sufficient patience in giving time for the true spirit to come up and form and act effectively in the external being of those around us. But if in anyone this part not only becomes obstinate, self-assertive or aggressive, but is supported and justified by the mind and will and tries to spread itself in the atmosphere, then it is a different and very serious matter.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe difficulty in the lower vital being is that it is still wedded to its old self and in revolt against the Light; it has not only not surrendered either to a greater Truth or to myself and the Mother, but it has up to now no such will and hardly any idea even of what true surrender is. When the lower vital assumes this attitude it takes its stand upon a constant affirmation of the old personality and the past forms of the lower nature. Every time they are discouraged, it supports and brings them back and asserts its right to freedom,\u2014the freedom to affirm and follow its own\n<\/p>\n

  
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crude and egoistic ideas, desires, fancies, impulses or convenience whenever it chooses. It claims secretly or in so many words the right to follow its nature\u2014its human unregenerate nature, the right to be itself\u2014its natural original unchanged self with all the falsehood, ignorance and incoherence proper to this part of the being. And it claims or, if it does not claim in theory, it asserts in practice the right to express all this impure and inferior stuff in speech and act and behaviour. It defends, glosses over, paints in specious colours and tries to prolong
\nindefinitely the past habitual ways of thinking, speaking and feeling and to eternise what is distorted and misformed in the character. This it does sometimes by open self-assertion and revolt, branding all that is done or said against it as error or oppression or injustice, sometimes behind a cover of self-deception or a mask of dissimulation, professing one thing and practising another. Often it tries to persuade itself and to convince others that these things are the only right reason and right way of acting for itself or for all or even that they are part of the true movement of the yoga.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhen this lower vital being is allowed to influence the action, as happens when the sadhak in any way endorses its suggestions, its attitude, whether masked to himself or coming to the surface, dictates a considerable part of his speech and action and against it he makes no serious resistance. If he is frank with himself and straightforward to the Mother, he will begin to recognise the source and nature of the obstacle and will soon be on the direct road to correct and change it. But this, when under the adverse influence, he persistently refuses to be; he prefers to hide up these movements under any kind of concealment, denial, justification or excuse or other shelter.\n<\/p>\n

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\n(i) A certain vanity and arrogance and self-assertive rajasic vehemence which in this smaller vital being are, for those who have a pronounced strength in these parts, the deformation of
\nthe vital force and habit of leading and
\ndomination that certain qualities in the higher vital gave them. This is
\naccompanied by an excessive amour-propre <\/i>which creates the necessity of
\nmaking a figure, maintaining by any means position and prestige, even of
\nposturing before others, influencing, controlling or "helping" them, claiming
\nthe part of a superior sadhak, one with greater knowledge and with occult
\npowers. The larger vital being itself has to give up its powers and capacities
\nto the divine Sbakti from <\/span>whom they come and must use
\nthem only as the Mother’s instrument and according to her directions; <\/font>
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\nthe work or between her and other sadhaks, then whatever its natural power, it
\ndeviates from the true way, spoils the work, brings in adverse forces and wrong
\nmovements and does harm to those whom it imagines it is helping. When these
\nthings are transferred to the smallness of the lower vital nature and the
\nexternal personality and take lower and pettier forms, they become still more
\nfalse to the Truth, incongruous, grotesque, and at the same time can be
\nviciously harmful, though in a smaller groove. There is no better way of calling
\nin hostile forces into the general work or of vitiating and exposing to their
\ninfluence one’s own sadhana. On a smaller scale these defects of vanity,
\narrogance and rajasic violence are present in most human natures. They take
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\n(2) Disobedience and indiscipline. This lower part of the being is always random, wayward, self-assertive and unwilling to accept the imposition on it of any order and discipline other than its own idea or impulse. Its defects even from the beginning stand in the way of the efforts of the higher vital to impose on the nature a truly regenerating tapasya. This habit of disobedience and disregard of discipline is so strong that it does not always need to be deliberate; the response to it seems to be immediate, irresistible and instinctive. Thus obedience to the Mother is repeatedly promised or professed, but the action done or the course followed is frequently the very opposite of the profession or promise. This constant indiscipline is a radical obstacle to the sadhana and the worst possible example to others.\n<\/p>\n

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\n(3) Dissimulation and falsity of speech. This is an exceedingly injurious habit of the lower nature. Those who are not straightforward cannot profit by the Mother’s help, for they themselves turn it away. Unless they change, they cannot hope for the descent of the supramental Light and Truth into the lower vital and physical nature; they remain stuck in their own self-created mud and cannot progress. Often it is not mere exaggeration or a false use of the imagination embroidering on the actual truth that is marked in the sadhak, but also a positive denial and distortion as well as a falsifying concealment of facts. This he does sometimes to cover up his disobedience or wrong or doubtful course of action, sometimes to keep up his position, at others to get his own way or indulge his preferred habits and desires. Very often, when one has this kind of vital habit, he clouds his own consciousness and does not altogether realise the falsity of what he is saying or doing; but in much that he says and does, it is quite impossible to extend to him even this inadequate excuse.\n<\/p>\n

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     (4) A dangerous habit of constant self-justification. When this becomes strong in the sadhak, it is impossible to turn him in this part of his being to the right consciousness and action because at each step his whole preoccupation is to justify himself. His mind rushes at once to maintain his own idea, his own position or his own course of action. This he is ready to do by any kind of argument, sometimes the most clumsy and foolish or inconsistent with what he has been protesting the moment before,, by any kind of mis-statement or any kind of device. This is a common misuse, but none the less a misuse of the thinking mind; but it takes in him exaggerated proportions and so long as he; keeps to it, it will be impossible for him to see or live the Truth.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhatever the difficulties of the nature, however long and painful the process of dealing with them, they cannot stand to the end against the Truth, if there is or if there comes in these parts the true spirit, attitude and endeavour. But if a sadhak continues out of self-esteem and self-will or out of tamasic inertia to shut his eyes or harden his heart against the Light, so long as he does that, no one can help him. The consent of all the being is necessary for the divine change, and it is the completeness and fulness of the consent that constitutes the integral surrender. But the consent of the lower vital must not be only a mental profession or a passing emotional adhesion; it must translate itself into an abiding attitude and a persistent and consistent action.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThis yoga can only be done to the end by those who are in total earnest about it and ready to abolish their little human ego and its demands in order to find themselves in the Divine. It cannot be done in a spirit of levity or laxity; the work is too high and difficult, the adverse powers in the lower Nature too ready to take advantage of the least sanction or the smallest\n<\/p>\n

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opening, the aspiration and tapasya needed too constant and intense. It cannot be done if there is a petulant self-assertion of the ideas of the human mind or wilful indulgence of the demands and instincts and pretensions of the lowest part of the being, commonly justified under the name of human nature. It cannot be done if you insist on identifying these lowest things of the Ignorance with the divine Truth or even the lesser truth permissible on the way. It cannot be done if you cling to your past self and its old mental, vital and physical formations and habits; one has continually to leave behind his past selves and to see, act and five from an always higher and higher conscious level. It cannot be done if you insist on "freedom" for your human mind and vital ego. All the parts of the human being are entitled to express and satisfy themselves in their own way at their own risk and peril, if he so chooses, as long as he leads the ordinary life. But to enter into a path of yoga whose whole object is to substitute for these human things the law and power of a greater Truth and the whole heart of whose method is surrender to the divine Shakti, and yet to go on claiming this so-called freedom, which is no more than a subjection to certain ignorant cosmic forces, is to indulge in a blind contradiction and to claim the right to lead a double life.\n<\/p>\n

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\nLeast of all can this yoga be done if those who profess to be its sadhaks continue always to make themselves centres, instruments or spokesmen of the forces of the Ignorance which oppose, deny and ridicule its very principle and object. On one side there is the supramental realisation, the overshadowing and descending power of the supramental Divine, the light and force of a far greater Truth than any yet realised on the earth, something therefore beyond what the little human mind and its logic regard as
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way and process of development here it cannot conceive or perceive by its own inadequate instruments or judge by its puerile standards; in spite of all opposition this is pressing down for manifestation in the physical consciousness and the material life. On the other side is this lower vital nature with all its pretentious arrogance, ignorance, obscurity, dullness or incompetent turbulence, standing for its own prolongation, standing against the descent, refusing to believe in any real reality or real possibility of a supramental or superhuman consciousness and creation, or, still more absurd, demanding, if it exists at all, that it should conform to its own little standards, seizing greedily upon everything that seems to disprove it, denying the presence of the Divine\u2014for it knows that without that presence the work is impossible\u2014affirming loudly its own thoughts, judgments, desires, instincts, and, if these are contradicted, avenging itself by casting abroad doubt, denial, disparaging criticism, revolt and disorder. These are the two things now in presence between which every one will have to choose.\n<\/p>\n

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\nFor this opposition, this sterile obstruction and blockade against the descent of the divine Truth cannot last for ever. Every one must come down finally on one side or the other, on the side of the Truth or against it. The supramental realisation cannot coexist with the persistence of the lower Ignorance; it is incompatible with continued satisfaction in a double nature.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is now one month since you wrote your letter announcing the new favourable turn in your sadhana. You will have had time to see whether the turn was decisive and how far it has moved towards completeness. The test will be whether it gets rid fundamentally of the Asuric turn in your external being. All\n<\/p>\n

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ambition, pride and vanity must disappear from the thoughts and the feelings. There must be no seeking now or in the future for place, position or prestige, no stipulation for a high seat among the elect, no demand for a special closeness to the Mother, no claim or assertion of right, no attempt to thrust yourself between her and others, no endeavour to intercept what she is giving to them or to share in it, no imposing of yourself on her or on other sadhaks. All falsehood must be rejected from the speech, thought and action and all ostentation, arrogance and insolence. A simple, quiet and unpretending aspiration to the Truth and reception of it for its own sake and not for any profit it may bring you, a straightforward acceptance of the Mother’s will whatever it may be, a complete casting away of all pretensions and pretences, a readiness to obey completely and without reserve and to accept any position and any discipline given are the only conditions on which a divine change can be effected in you. It is for this that you must strive.\n<\/p>\n

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\nOn our side we await a certain conquest on the material plane, which is not yet accomplished, before we can tell you to return. As you yourself saw once, till this is done your stay here would not be helpful to you. When you are ready in your inner condition and things are ready here, then the Mother will call you.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf you want to change, you must first resolutely get rid of the defects of your vital being, persevering steadily, however difficult it may be or however long it may take, calling in always the divine help and compelling yourself always to be entirely sincere.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAs for fitness and unfitness, nobody is entirely fit for this yoga; one has to become fit by aspiration, by abhyāsa, <\/i>by sincerity and surrender. If you have always desired the spiritual
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is the psychic part of you that desired it, but your vital has always come in the way. Establish a sincere will in the vital; do not allow personal desires and demands and selfishness and falsehood to mix in your sadhana; then alone the vital in you will become fit for the sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

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\nEvidently, the condition into which you have fallen is due to an upsurging of suppressed elements in the lower vital nature. It has been compelled by the mind and the higher vital part in you to give up the little "joys and pleasures" to which it was habituated, but it\u2014or at any rate the subconscient part of it which is often the most powerful\u2014did that without entire conviction and probably with "reservations" and "safeguards" and in exchange for a promise of compensations, other and greater joys and pleasures to replace all it was losing. This is evident from what you write; your description of the nature of the depression, the return of what you call impure thoughts which are merely indices of the subconscient lower vital desire-complex, the doubt thrown upon the generosity of the Divine, the demand for compensation for losses, something like striking a bargain with the Divine, a quid pro quo <\/i>pact, are all unmistakable. Latterly, there has been a combination of circumstances which have rather suddenly increased the deprivation of its former outlets; this attack is its way of non-co-operation or protest. There is only one way to deal with it,\u2014to cast the whole thing away, depression, demands, doubts, sex-thoughts, the whole undesirable baggage, and have in its place the one true movement,\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt may be that behind this persistence of the lower vital demand for satisfaction there was something not quite clear in the obscure part of the physical mind in your mental attitude towards the yoga. You seem to regard this demand for the replacement of the old lower vital satisfactions by other joys and pleasures as something quite legitimate; but joys and pleasures are not the object of yoga and a bargain or demand for a replacement of this kind can be no legitimate or healthy element in the sadhana. If it is there, it will surely impede the flow of spiritual experience. Ananda, yes; but Ananda and the spiritual happiness which precedes it
\n(ādhyātma sukham) <\/b><\/i>are something quite different from joys and pleasures. And even Ananda one cannot demand cr make it a condition for pursuing the sadhana\u2014it comes as a crown, a natural outcome and its true condition is the growth of the true consciousness, peace, calm, light, strength, the equanimity which resists all shocks and persists through success and failure. It is these things which must be the first objects of the sadhana, not any hedonistic experience even of the highest kind; for that must come of itself as a result of the Divine Presence.\n<\/p>\n

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\nMeanwhile, the first thing you must do is to throw out this perilous stuff of despondency and its accompaniments and recover a quiet and clear balance. A quiet mind and a quiet vital are the first conditions for success in sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is evident that you still cherish some misunderstanding about peace and joy and Ananda. (Peace, by the way, is not joy\u2014for peace can be there even when joy is quiescent.) It is not a fact that one ought not to pray or aspire for peace or spiritual joy. Peace is the very basis of all the siddhi in the yoga, and why should\n<\/p>\n

 
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not one pray or aspire for foundation in the yoga? Spiritual joy or a deep inner happiness (not disturbed even when there come superficial storms or perturbations) is a constant concomitant of contact or union with the Divine, and why should it be forbidden to pray or aspire for contact with the Divine and the joy that attends it? As for Ananda, I have already explained that I mean by Ananda something greater than peace or joy, something that, like Truth and Light, is the very nature of the supramental Divine. It can come by frequent inrushes or descents, partially or for a time even now, but it cannot remain in the system so long as the system has not been prepared for it. Meanwhile, peace and joy can be there permanently, but the condition of this permanence is that one should have the constant contact or indwelling of the Divine, and this comes naturally not to the outer mind or vital but to the inner soul or psychic being. Therefore one who wants his yoga to be a path of peace or joy must be prepared to dwell in bis soul rather than in his outer mental and emotional nature.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI objected in a former letter not to aspiration but to a demand, to making peace, joy or Ananda a condition for following the yoga. And it is undesirable because if you do so, then the vital, not the psychic, takes the lead. When the vital takes the lead, then unrest, despondency, unhappiness can always come, since these things are the very nature of the vital\u2014the vital can never remain constantly in joy and peace, for it needs their opposites in order to have the sense of the drama of life. And yet when unrest and unhappiness come, the vital at once cries, "I am not given my due, what is the use of my doing the yoga?" Or else, it makes a gospel of its unhappiness and says that the path to fulfilment must be a tragic road through the desert. And yet it is precisely this predominance of the vital in us that makes a necessity of the passage\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe Ananda you describe is evidently that of the inner vital when it is full of the psychic influence and floods with it the external vital also. It is the true Ananda and there is nothing in it of the old vital nature. When the psychic thus uses the vital to-express itself, this kind of intense ecstasy is the natural form it takes. This intensity and the old vital excitement are two quite different things and must not be confused together. Where there is the intensity with pure and full satisfaction, contentment and gratitude leaving no room for claim, demand or depressing; reaction, that is the true vital movement.\n<\/p>\n

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\nOnce the vital being has come forward and shown its difficulty \u2014there is nobody who has not one crucial difficulty or another there\u2014it must be dealt with and conquered.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe deficiency is not in the higher mind or mind proper; there is therefore no use in going back to establish mental peace. The difficulty is in that part of the vital being which is not sufficiently open and confident and not sufficiently strong and courageous and in the physical mind which lends its support to these things. To get the supramental light and calm and strength and intensity down there is what you need.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYou may have all the mental knowledge in the world and yet be impotent to face vital difficulties. Courage, faith, sincerity towards the Light, rejection of opposite suggestions and adverse voices are there the true help. Then only can knowledge itself be at all effective.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf you see more clearly any deficiencies of your
\nvital nature and the necessity of a transformation, that itself is a sign of
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\nIt depends on what is meant by a wrong or unnecessary movement. Certain things have to fall off before the establishment [of the higher consciousness] can be complete. <\/i>Others that are unnecessary have to be put aside if they are incompatible with the full sadhana or the growth of the inner consciousness, but can be continued if the consciousness established is such that doing or not doing makes no difference to it.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe phrase ["wrong movements in sadhana"] covers pretty nearly everything that is hurtful to spiritual progress\u2014movements of doubt, revolt, egoistic desire or ambition, sexual indulgence are the most common, but there are plenty of others.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe outward revolt is the refusal of discipline and obedience \u2014the inward revolt is of many kinds, it may take many forms, e.g. a revolt of the vital against the Mother, a revolt of the mind against the Truth, a rejection of the spiritual life, a demand to enthrone the ego as the Divine or to serve something that flatters the vital ego and supports its demands and call that the Divine, a response to vital suggestions of distrust, despair, self-destruction or departure\u2014and many others.\n<\/p>\n

     
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\nIt [vital consecration] is to offer all the vital nature and its movements to the Divine so that it may be purified and only the true movements in consonance with the Divine Will may be there and all egoistic desires and impulses disappear.\n<\/p>\n

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\nSometimes the aspiration is felt at the navel, but that is part of the larger vital. The lower vital is below. The lower vital aspires by offering all its small movements in the fire of purification, by calling for the light and power to descend into it and rid it of its little greeds, jealousies, resistances and revolts over small matters, angers, vanities, sexualities etc. to be replaced by the right movements governed by selflessness, purity, obedience to the urge of the Divine Force in all things.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is evident that the lower vital has received the Divine Consciousness when even in the small movements of life there is an aspiration to the Divine, a reference as it were to the Divine Light for guidance or some feeling of offering to the Divine or guidance by the Divine. The lower vital commands the little details of emotion, impulse, sensation, action\u2014it is these that, when\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is true that for the external vital an outer discipline is necessary for the purification, otherwise it remains restless and fanciful and at the mercy of its own impulses\u2014so that no basis can be built there for a quiet and abiding higher consciousness to remain firmly. The attitude you have taken for the work is, of course, the best one and, applying it steadily, the progress you feel was bound to come and is sure to increase.\n<\/p>\n

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\n[Discipline:] To live and act under control or according to a standard of what is right\u2014not to allow the vital or the physical to do whatever they like and not to let the mind run about according to its fancy without truth or order. Also to obey those who ought to be obeyed.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAn overmastering impulse is not necessarily an inspiration of true guidance; in following always such impulses one is more likely to become a creature of random caprices. Inexhaustible energy is an excellent thing, but not an energy without discipline.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt [inability to accomplish anything in life] usually comes from a certain instability in the lower vital which does not give a consistent support to the Will, but is restless and fluctuates from one interest to another. It does not mean an incapacity for success \u2014usually one who has that could succeed in many directions,\n<\/p>\n

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but the fluctuation prevents sustained success in any. It is a defect that has to be got over and can be got over.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThere are some who are solid and tenacious in their vital, it is they who can be steady\u2014others are more mercurial and easily moved by impulses, it is these who are sometimes enthusiastic, sometimes drop into fatigue. It is a matter of temperament. On the other hand the mercurial people are often capable of a quicker ardour, so that they can progress fast if they want in their own way. In any case the remedy for all that is to find one’s true self above mind and vital and so not bound by temperament.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe bitterness you feel is that of a restless and dissatisfied vital which did not get what it desired because it could not desire anything strongly and
\npersistently. Otherwise it could have all the vital desires\u2014marriage, friends, position, etc.\u2014but it could stick to nothing owing to a kind of weak restlessness. In the yoga it has shown the same restless weakness,\u2014otherwise it could by this time have attained something, and besides there was the sex-impulse which it would neither satisfy nor leave. You must know what you want and want it with your whole will\u2014it is only so that there can be an end of this restlessness and failure.\n<\/p>\n

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      If he wants to
\nmake himself some day fit for the spiritual life, the first thing to be avoided
\nis vital restlessness. To do the work one has to do with a quiet mind, making an
\noffering of it to the Divine and trying to get rid of egoism and vital desire,
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\nYou should not indulge this sense of grief\u2014remain calm, confident, turned to the one Will in all circumstances; that is the way to secure that each step will be taken in the right measure and produce its best possible consequences. Regard henceforth the question of X and your relation with X as a minor and subordinate thing on the outer side of your sadhana. If you take it as a problem of the first importance, it will become that and stand in your way again. Look at it as a question from the past that has been firmly settled and put in its place and turn to the central aim of your sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

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\nFor the rest, apart from this circumstance, you need change nothing in the inward aim and concentration of your will and endeavour on the one thing to be done\u2014the enure self-giving and self-dedication of your inner and outer being to the Divine alone. If you can adopt firmly the right inward attitude, it may even be easier so than by an outward rule for your main, guidance.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe one thing necessary is to arrive at a fixed and definite choice in the mind which one can always oppose to the vital disturbance. Disturbance in the vital will always come so long as the full peace has not descended there, but with a fixed resolution in the mind kept always to the front the acuteness of the disturbance can disappear and the road become shorter.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is the lower (physical) vital that acts like that. This part of Nature does not act according to reason, it has no understanding of things. It acts only according to desire, impulse and habit. The mind and the heart and the higher vital have understood and put themselves on the side of the Peace and Force that are\n<\/p>\n

 
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acting to transform the nature. But this still responds to the ola forces when they touch it. It is a question of getting down the Peace and Force and Light into this part, so that whenever the outside forces of the lower Nature touch they will find that force there and not the old response. It is a little difficult because of the long past habit, but it will come more and more as the Force descends into the body and pervades it in its descent.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThere is perhaps something of all that\u2014but this part of the vital has no precise reasons to support itself with\u2014it takes hold of any mood of disappointment or strong sense of difficulty. It is a factor in all human natures,\u2014restless, desiring, eager, despondent, unstable. Stand back from it and do not allow it to govern or move you. There is a right part of the vital which must be .used\u2014ardent, sensitive to the higher things, capable of great love and devotion. Strengthen that and support it on the psychic and on the peace and wideness that comes from above.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe lower vital is not a part that listens to reason. There is no why <\/i>to its action; it acts in a particular way because it has been accustomed to act in that way, and it goes on even if the doing brings a painful reaction.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe doubts of the sadhaks more often rise from the vital than from the true mental\u2014when the vital goes wrong or is in trouble or depression, the doubts rise and repeat themselves in the same form and the same language, no matter how much the mind\n<\/p>\n

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had been convinced by either patent proofs or intellectual answers. I have noticed that always the vital is irrational (even when it uses the reason to justify itself) and it believes or disbelieves according to its feeling, not according to reason.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe vital started in its evolution with obedience to impulse and no reason\u2014as for strategy, the only strategy it understands is some tactics by which it can compass its desires. It does not like the voice of knowledge and wisdom\u2014but curiously enough by the necessity which has grown up in man of justifying action by reason, the vital mind <\/i>has developed a strategy of its own which is to get the reason to find out reasons for justifying its own feelings and impulses. When the reason is too clear to lend itself to this game, the vital falls back on its native habit of shutting its ears and going on its course. In these attacks, the plan of unfitness "Since you are not pleased with my impulses and I can’t change them, that shows I am unfit, so I had better go" is the counter strategy it adopts. But even if one counters that, the impulse itself is sufficient, coming strongly as it does from universal Nature, to restore to the vital for a short time its old blind irrational instinct to obey the push that has come.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe whole significance of your sentences was that you had made all the necessary resolutions, but you could not carry them out because the Force refused to support you. That is the usual trick of the vital mind when it wants to rid itself of the blame for difficulties or want of progress in the sadhana: "I am doing all I can, but the Force is not supporting me". It is no use your\n<\/p>\n

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 quoting other sentences, because you write now one thing,, now another, shifting your ground for the sake of your argument. If logic could help you to get rid of this trickiness of the vital mind, it would be worth while learning Logic.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAs to what you ask about anything else being behind than what your mind was conscious of in its surface intention, there is more often than not something behind when the vital meddles in the matter\u2014and it is a part of self-knowledge not to be misled by the mind’s surface movements but to detect this something behind. For it is the habit of the vital to make a mask of the mind’s arrangements about feelings and actions in order to conceal even from the self-observation of the doer the secret underlying motive or forces behind the speech, act or feelings.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYour letter of the morning came entirely from the disturbed and wounded vital; that was why
\nI was <\/font>
\nill <\/font>no hurry to answer. I do not know why
\nyou are so ready to believe that myself or the Mother act from ordinary
\nmovements of anger, vexation <\/font>or
\n<\/font>displeasure; there was nothing of the kind
\nin what I wrote. You had been repeatedly falling from your attained level of a
\nhigher consciousness and, in spite of our suggestions to you to see what was
\npulling you down, your only reply was that you could see nothing. We know
\nperfectly well that it was a part of your vital which did not want to change
\nand, not wanting to change, was hiding itself from the mind and the mind itself
\ndid not seem very willing to see,-so we thought it necessary when you gave us a
\nchance by what you wrote-first about X and secondly about the thoughts of the
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nature of the obstacle\u2014on one side your old sentiment persisting in the opposite form of anger, resentment and wounded feelings, on the other the vital’s habit of self-esteem, censorious judgment of others, the sense of superiority in sadhana or in other respects, a wish to appear well before others and before yourself also. This especially has a blinding influence and prevents the clear examination of oneself and the perception of the obstacles that are interfering with the spiritual progress. Even if the mind aspires to know and change, a habit of that kind acting concealed in the vital is quite enough to stand in the way and prevent both the knowledge and the change. I was therefore careful to speak plainly of vanity and self-righteousness, so that this part of the vital might not try not to see. The Mother speaks or writes much more pointedly and sharply to those whom she wishes to push rapidly on the way, because they are capable of it, and they do not resent or suffer but are glad of the pressure and the plainness, because they know by experience that it helps them to see their obstacles and change. If you wish to progress rapidly you must get rid of this vital reaction of abhimān, <\/b> <\/i>suffering, wounded feeling, seeking for argument of self-justification, outcry against the touch that is intended to liberate\u2014for so long as you have these, it is difficult for us to deal openly and firmly with the obstacles created by the vital nature.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIn regard to the difference between you and X. The Mother’s warning to you against the undesirability of too much talk, loose chat and gossip, social self-dispersion was entirely meant and stands; when you indulge in these things, you throw yourself out into a very small and ignorant consciousness in which your vital defects get free play and this is likely to bring you out of what you have developed in
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you went to X’s, it was a sign of your (psychic) sensitiveness coming into you\u2014into your vital and nervous being, and we meant that it was all for the good. But in dealing with others, in withdrawing from these things you should not allow any sense of superiority to creep in or force on them by your manner or spirit a sense of disapproval or condemnation or pressure on them to change. It is for your personal inward need that you draw back from these things, that is all. As for them, what they do in these matters, right or wrong, is their affair, and ours; we will deal with them according to what we see as necessary and possible for them at the moment and for that purpose we can not only deal quite differently with different people, allowing for one what we forbid for another, but we may deal differently with the same person at different times, allowing or even encouraging today what we shall forbid tomorrow. X’s case is quite different from yours, for there is no resemblance in your natures. I told you that or something like it long ago and I emphasised in my letter to X that what might be the rule for myself or Y was not to be applied or going to be applied in his case. To deal otherwise would be to create difficulties in his sadhana and not to make it easier for him or swifter. I have also told him quite clearly in my letter that the attempt at meeting and mixing with others\u2014which in the ordinary human life is attempted by sociableness and other contacts\u2014has to be realised in yoga on another plane of consciousness and without the lower mixture\u2014for a higher unity with all on a spiritual and psychic basis. But the way, the time, the order of movements by which this is done, need not be the same for everybody. If he attempted to force himself it would lead to gloom, despondency and an artificial movement which would not be the true way to success. A human soul and nature cannot be dealt with by a set of mental\n<\/p>\n

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rules applicable to everybody in the same way; if it were so, there would be no need of a Guru, each could set his chart of yogic rules before him like the rules of Sandow’s exercise and follow them till he became the perfect Siddha!\n<\/p>\n

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\nI have said so much in order to let you understand why we do not deal in the same way with X as with you or another. The tendency to take what I lay down for one and apply it without discrimination to another is responsible for much misunderstandings A general statement too, true in itself, cannot be applied to everyone alike or applied now and immediately without consideration of condition or circumstance or person or time. I may say generally that to bring down the supermind is my aim in the yoga or that to do that one has first to rise out of mind into overmind, but if on the strength of that, anybody and everybody began trying to pull down the supermind or force his way immediately out of mind into overmind, the result would be disaster.\n<\/p>\n

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\nTherefore concern yourself with your own progress and follow there the lead the Mother gives you. Leave others to do the same; the Mother is there to guide and help them according to their need and their nature. It does not in the least matter if the way she fellows with him seems different or the opposite of that which she takes with you. That is the right one for him as this is the right one for you.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYou have now begun to see the difficulties that are still there in your vital; keep to that clear perception, let it grow clearer and more precise. Concentrate on what you have to do and do not let yourself be disturbed this way and that by irrelevant preoccupations or any other influence.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is certainly not the answering of questions that will remove the underlying cause of recurrence. Even if the answers satisfy, it could only be for a time. The same questionings would rise either in a mechanical reiteration\u2014for it is not truly the reason from which they arise, it is a certain part of the vital consciousness affected by the surrounding atmosphere\u2014or else presented from a shifted ground or a somewhat changed angle of vision. The difficulty can only disappear if you remain resolute that it shall disappear\u2014if you refuse to attach any value to the justifications which the mind is made to put forward for your "sadness" under this atmospheric influence and, as you did in certain other matters, stick fast to the resolution to make the yogic change, to awake the psychic fully, not to follow the voices of the mind but to do rather what the Mother asks of you, persisting however difficult it may be <\/i>or seem to be. It is so that the psychic can fully awake and establish its influence, not on your higher vital where it is already awake, but on the lower vital, for it is there that your difficulties are and that this vital depression recurs.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is indeed amazing that you should have lost yourself to an extravagant deception such as X has set on foot. It is simply the spirit of vital falsehood, dramatic and romantic, obscuring the reason and shutting out common sense and simple truth. To clear the vital, you must get out of it all compromise with falsehood\u2014no matter how specious the reason it advances\u2014and get the habit of simple straightforward psychic truth engraved in it so that nothing may have a chance to enter. If this lesson can be imprinted in that part of the vital which is capable of such compromises some good will come out of this wrong movement. Put the Mother’s notice henceforth at the door of your vital\n<\/p>\n

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\nAs regards your defence of X, they sound like X’s own ideas and very queer ideas they are. If they are right, we should have to come to the following conclusions:\u2014\n<\/p>\n

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\n(1) Sattwa is not the best passage towards realisation, Rajas is the best way to become spiritual. It is the rajasic man with his fierce ego and violent passions who is the true sadhak
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\n(2) The Asura is the best Bhakta. The Gita is quite wrong in holding up the Deva nature as the condition of realisation and the Asura nature as contrary to it. It is the other way round.\n<\/p>\n

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\n(3) Ravana, Hiranyakashipu, Sishupala were the greatest devotees of the Divine because they were capable of hostility to the Divine and so were liberated in a few fives\u2014compared with them the great Rishis and Bhaktas were very poor spiritual vessels. I am aware of the paradox about Ravana in the Purana, but let me point out that these Asuras and Rakshasas did not pretend to be disciples or worshippers of Rama or Krishna or Vishnu or use their position as disciples to get Moksha by revolt \u2014they got it by being enemies and getting killed and absorbed into the Godhead.\n<\/p>\n

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\n(4) Obedience to the Guru, worship of the Divine are all tommy rot and fit only for sheep, not men. To turn round furiously on the Guru or the Divine, abuse him, express contempt, challenge his sincerity, declare his actions to be wrong, foolish or a trick\u2014to assert oneself as right at every point and his judgment as mistaken, prejudiced, absurd, false, a support of devils etc., etc. is the best way of devotion and the true relation\n<\/p>\n

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between Guru and Sishya. Disobedience is the highest respect to the Guru, anger and revolt are the noblest worship one can give to the Divine.\n<\/p>\n

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\n(5) One who takes the blows of Mahakali with joy as a means of discovering his faults and increasing in light and strength and purity is a sheep and unworthy of disciplehood\u2014one who responds to the quietest pressure to change by revolt and persisting in his errors is a strong man and a mighty Adhar and a noble disciple on the way to perfection.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI could go on multiplying the consequences, but I have no-time. Do you really believe all these things? They are the natural consequences of X’s theory or of this theory of revolt as the way to perfection. If you accept the premiss, you have to accept the logical consequences. That is what X did\u2014only he called his errors Truth and the way prescribed by me as falsehood explicable only by the fact that I was a "Master who had forgotten his higher self". And the consequences led to his departure, not willed by us, but by his own choice\u2014and under such circumstances that he had made it a practical impossibility for me to let him come back unless he undergoes a change which the experience of the past does not warrant me in thinking, possible.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYour analysis is perfectly accurate\u2014with this clear knowledge of the mechanism of the whole thing it should be easier to get rid of these ignorant forces. It is true that they care nothing for truth or reason and appeal only to the blind feelings of the vital, but still the light of the true consciousness turned steadily on them ought to so much enlighten your own vital that it will no longer lend itself to the things that seek to disturb it and be ready\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe difficulty you have in your vital is not peculiar to you, but is in some degree and in some form or another a fairly general malady. Its constant return, the mechanical irrational return even when all the rest of the nature has rejected it, is due to the obstinacy of the material consciousness always repeating the old moeement in the old groove at the least touch from the old habitual forces. It is a question of faith, patience and persistence. One must be more obstinate than the obstinate material nature and persevere until the light and truth can take permanent hold of the parts which are still responsive to the old movements. There can be no doubt that with this perseverance the Truth will in the end conquer.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt would make it easier if you could get rid of certain fixed ideas and of the habitual reaction of depression or despair when these recurrences come. For instance, dismiss any question about the "possibility" of conversion of your vital being; you should see rather that it is certain and not merely possible. When there are these recurrences, do not allow yourself to b depressed by them, but simply observe and stand back and call in the higher force with the full confidence that these are mechanical recurrences and in substance nothing more\u2014however strong they may seem in appearance. The principle of mechanical repetition is very strong in the material nature, so strong that it makes one easily think that it is incurable. That, however, is only a trick of the forces of this material inconscience; it is by creating this impression that they try to endure. If, on\n<\/p>\n

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the contrary, you remain firm, refuse to be depressed or discouraged and, even in the moment of attack, affirm the certainty of eventual victory, the victory itself will come much more easily and sooner.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYou should not allow yourself to be discouraged by any persistence of the movements of the lower vital nature. There are some that tend always to persist and return until the whole physical nature is changed by the transformation of the most material consciousness; till then their pressure recurs\u2014sometimes with a revival of their force, sometimes more dully\u2014as a mechanical habit. Take from them all fife-force by refusing any mental or vital assent; then the mechanical habit will become powerless to influence the thoughts and acts and will finally cease.\n<\/p>\n

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of the earthly vital nature. I have had myself the experience of this rising to a height, during a certain stage of the spiritual development of things, that before hardly existed and seemed quite absent in the pure yogic life. These things rise up like that because they are fighting for their existence\u2014they are not really personal to you and the vehemence of their attack is not due to any "badness" in the personal nature. I dare say seven sadhaks out of ten have a similar experience. Afterwards when they cannot effect their object which is to drive the sadhak out of his sadhana, the whole thing sinks and there is no longer any vehement trouble. I repeat that the only serious thing about it is the depression created in you and the idea of inability in the yoga that they take care to impress on the brain when they are at their work. If you can get rid of that, the violence of the vital attacks is only the phenomenon of a stage and does not in the end matter.\n<\/p>\n

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\npossibility of a response to such suggestions from outside remains in the grain
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heart, they rely only on the force of repetition that comes up from the subconscient and once started try to keep these old ideas and feelings repeating themselves so as to prevent the consciousness from settling down into quietude. But the poise once obtained is there and has only been covered up and has got to be uncovered again from these cloudings. You must get the habit of keeping quiet somewhere in yourself when these attacks come, of keeping something within that refuses to say ditto to these suggestions or accept them as its own proper thoughts and feelings.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAnyhow the Force will be put to help you; receive it and all that will go.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt was evidently not the action of something that is rooted still within, but an old movement returning from outside (from the universal Nature) to which something in the vital still responds by force of habit, force of accustomed recurrence. This is shown by the fact that you felt nothing at the time\u2014only afterwards; also by the alternations of quiet and unrest after calling the Force, as if of something losing its hold and then trying to get it back and hold on still. Things thrown out always come back like that relying on the old habit of response in the stuff of the nature,\u2014the old vibration. By throwing it out whenever it comes, in the end the part which responds begins to understand that it must not and is gradually or quickly liberated from the habit.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is normal that when special pressure is put on a vital movement, a resistance whether in the vital itself (here vital-physical)\n<\/p>\n

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or in the subconscient should manifest itself. It is sometimes a real resistance, sometimes it is only the pravrtti
\n<\/b> <\/i>presenting itself for purification.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe only way to get rid of these vital movements is to do persistently what he describes himself as doing with the invading forces\u2014i.e. he must be always vigilant, try always at every moment to be conscious, always reject these things, refusing to take pleasure in them, call on the Mother, bring down the descent of the Light. If they return persistently he must not be discouraged; it is not possible to change the nature at once, it takes a long time. If, however, he can keep the psychic consciousness in the front, then it will be much easier and there will be much less difficulty and trouble in the change. That can be done by constant aspiration and abhyāsa.<\/i>\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe lower vital in most human beings is full of grave defects and of movements that respond to hostile forces.
\nA constant psychic opening, a persistent rejection
\nof these influences, a separation of oneself from <\/font>all
\n<\/font>hostile suggestions and the inflow of the
\ncalm, light, peace, purity of the Mother’s power would eventually free the
\nsystem from the siege.<\/font><\/p>\n

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\nWhat is needed is to be quiet and more and more quiet, to look on these influences as something not yourself which has intruded, to separate yourself from it and deny it and to abide in a quiet confidence in the Divine Power. If your psychic being asks for the Divine and your mind is sincere and calls for liberation from the lower nature and from all hostile forces and if you can call the Mother’s power into your heart and rely upon it\n<\/p>\n

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more than on your own strength, this siege will in the end be driven away from you and strength and peace take its place,\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe one thing you have to avoid is losing patience; for that only prolongs the vital trouble. If the vital is to be changed (fundamentally) it always gives constant trouble like this until one can seat oneself fixedly in the calm of the inner consciousness and keep the vital movements quite on the surface.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhy should you suppose it is vain? The purification of the vital takes a long time because until all the parts are free, none is quite free and because they use a multitude of movements which have to be changed or enlightened,\u2014and moreover there is a great habit of persistence and resistance in the habitual movements of the nature. One therefore easily thinks that one has made no progress,\u2014but all sincere and sustained effort of purification has its result and after a time the progress made will become evident.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt it because both your mind and vital have become sincere that the attack is strong and seems to you abnormal. Before as you were yielding from time to time, the part that wants was not acutely insistent and, when it pressed, it was not so acutely felt by the rest of the vital nature. It is your mental, psychic and higher vital beings that now stand completely apart from it. It is your physical-vital that still keeps the desire and is pushed from time to time by opposite forces to make the desire active. It was also this desire that created the physical disturbance from which\n<\/p>\n

   
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you suffered a few days ago. You must get rid of this desire of the lower vital altogether.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is not the mind, but the psychic being that made the suggestion through the mind. There is a part of the mind that is under the influence of the Truth and can be the channel of the psychic being’s knowledge or feeling; there is another part that answers to the vital and expresses and supports the difficulties and oppositions in the nature. If the whole mind refuses to respond to the vital or accept or support its suggestions then much of the force of the vital attack disappears and one is more able to put a pressure on the vital and oblige it also to listen to the psychic and change.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhat happened in your case was that the whole vital difficulty\u2014the main one of the family\u2014massed itself together and rose. When an attack like that is overcome, there is always a clearance of the inner atmosphere. It must not be allowed to gather force again\u2014and for that the mind must always follow the psychic suggestion and refuse at once to harbour the opposite suggestions and at the same time keep itself open to the Mother, so that the Mother’s Force may come down into it and occupy it and work there.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhat happens usually is that something touches the vital, often without one’s knowing it, and brings up the old ordinary or external consciousness in such a way that the inner mind gets covered up and all the old thoughts and feelings return for a time. It is the physical mind that becomes active and gives its assent. If the whole mind remains quiet and detached observing\n<\/p>\n

   
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the vital movement but not giving its assent, then to reject it becomes more easy. This established quietude and detachment of the mind marks always a great step forward made in the sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

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\nBut what do you want to do with all these obscure and useless vital movements that torment you, these wrong thoughts, suggestions, confusions, inabilities etc.? You seem to write as if you thought they must be kept and changed? But why kept and how changed? What would be the use? But precisely what you have got to do is to "shut them out", to reject, refuse to keep them, refuse to have them. It is precisely to see in another way, to see in the true way that the Force is pressing on you. It would indeed be a great blessing if you could forget these other wrong things altogether. Again, why do you want to keep and change the "wrong things" as you yourself call them? If you have an illness, do you want to keep and change the pains, the sickness and all the rest of it? It is to throw out the illness that you want, for the body to forget it, not to keep any impression of it, to lose even the possibility of having it again, to live and feel in quite another way, the way of health. It is just the same here.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is this idea that you are helpless because the vital consents to the wrong movement that comes in the way. You have to put your inner will and the Mother’s light on the vital so that it shall change, not leave it to do what it likes. If one is to be "helpless" and moved by any part of the instrumental being, how is change possible? The Mother’s force or the psychic can act, but on\n<\/p>\n

     
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condition that the assent of the being is there. If the vital is left to do what it likes it will always go after its old habits; it has to be made to feel that it must change.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf you want to get back your faith and keep it, you must first quiet your mind and make it open and obedient to the Mother’s force. If you have an excited mind at the mercy of every influence and impulse, you will remain a field of conflicting and contrary forces and cannot progress. You will begin to listen to your own ignorance instead of the Mother’s knowledge and your faith will naturally disappear and you will get into a wrong condition and a wrong attitude.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYour ailment is evidently in its foundation an illness of the nerves and not an ordinary physical disease. These maladies are a creation of the pressure of hostile forces; they increase if anything in you assents to them and accepts, and the more the mind gives value to them and dwells on them, the more they grow. The only way is to remain quiet, dissociate yourself and refuse to accept it or make much of it, allow the calm and strength that the Mother has been putting around you to enter your mind and permeate your nervous system. To do otherwise is to place yourself on the side of the hostile forces that are afflicting you. The cure may take long because your nervous system has been long subjected to these influences and, when they are evicted, they return with violence to re-establish their hold. But if you can acquire and keep patience and fortitude and the right consciousness and right attitude with regard to these things, the hold they have will progressively disappear.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThere are defects in your vital nature which stand in the way of a settled spiritual progress, but they can be eliminated if,\n<\/p>\n

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dropping all exaggerated ideas of "sin" and unfitness, you look quietly at them and recognise and reject them. Tranquillise in yourself all over-eager demands and desires, all excitement and exaggeration of opposite feelings and impulses, seek first intensity of devotion, but also calm, strength, purity and peace. Allow a quiet and steady will to progress to be settled in you; learn the habit of a silent, persistent and thorough assimilation of what the Mother puts into you. This is the sound way to advance.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt would not be at all right to yield to these suggestions which are obviously there of a force that wants to make use of the unease and disappointment of the vital in order to draw you to break your sadhana. These are the usual suggestions that come to all under the stress of the vital condition: "I am not fit for this sadhana. I must go, I cannot stay here. The Mother does not love me. I have given up everything and got nothing. The struggle makes me too miserable; let me go." As a matter of fact, there is no real foundation for these suggestions. Because an acute struggle has come, it would be absurd to conclude that you are unfit for the sadhana and to give it up after going so far. It is because you have asked the physical-vital to give up certain of its cherished attachments and habits that it is in this condition; unable to resist altogether, miserable at being deprived, it accepts these suggestions as an excuse for escape from the pressure you have put upon it. The acuteness of the struggle is due to the vehemence of the attack, but still more to this vital or a part of it responding to the suggestions; otherwise a less disturbing, even if a slower, movement would be quite possible. The Mother has in no way changed towards you nor is she disappointed with you\u2014that is the\n<\/p>\n

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suggestion drawn from your own state of mind and putting its wrong sense of disappointment and unfitness on to the Mother. She has no reason to change or be disappointed, as she has always been aware of the vital obstacles in you and still expected and expects you to overcome them. The call to change certain things that seem to be in the grain of character is proving difficult even for the best sadhaks, but the difficulty is no proof of incompetence. It is precisely this impulse to go that you must refuse to admit\u2014for so long as these forces think they can bring it about, they will press as much as they can on this point. You must also open yourself more to the Mother’s Force in that part and for that it is necessary to get rid of this suggestion about the Mother’s disappointment or lack of love, for it is this which creates the reaction at the time of Pranam. Our help, support, love are there always as before\u2014keep yourself open to them and with their aid drive out these suggestions.\n<\/p>\n

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\nDo not allow yourself to admit any movement of vital depression, still less a depressed condition. As for the external being, it is always, not only in you but in everyone, a difficult animal to handle. It has to be dealt with by patience and a quiet and cheerful perseverance; never get depressed by its resistance, for that only makes it sensitive and aggrieved and difficult, or else discouraged. Give it rather the encouragement of sunlight and a quiet pressure, and one day you will find it opening entirely to the Grace.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThese feelings of despair and exaggerated sense of self-depreciation and helplessness are suggestions of a hostile Force and should never be admitted. The defects of which you speak are common to all human nature and the external being of every sadhak is full of them; to become aware of them is necessary for the transformation, but it must be done with a quiet mind and with the faith and surrender to the Divine and assured aspiration to the higher consciousness, which are proper to the psychic being. The transformation of the external being is the most difficult part of the yoga and it demands faith, patience, quietude and firm determination. It is in that spirit that you have to throw these depressions aside and go steadily on with the yoga.\n<\/p>\n

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\nA weeping
\nthat comes with the feeling you speak of is the
\nsign of a psychic sorrow-for it translates an aspiration of the psychic being.
\nBut depression and hopelessness ought not to come. You should rather cling to
\nthe faith that since there is a true aspiration in you, it is sure to be
\nfulfilled, whatever the difficulties of the external nature. You must recover in
\nthat faith the inner peace and quietude while at the same time keeping the clear
\ninsight into what has to be done and the steady aspiration for the inner and
\nouter change.<\/p>\n

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\nThe rule in yoga is not to let the depression depress you, to stand back from it, observe its cause and remove the cause; for the cause is always in oneself, perhaps a vital defect somewhere, a wrong movement indulged or a petty desire causing a recoil, sometimes by its satisfaction, sometimes by its disappointment. In yoga a desire satisfied, a false movement given its\n<\/p>\n

 
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head produces very often a worse recoil than disappointed desire.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhat is needed for you is to live more deeply within, less in the outer vital and mental part which is exposed to these touches. The inmost psychic being is not oppressed by them; it stands in its own closeness to the Divine and sees the small surface movements as surface things foreign to the true Being.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is indeed good that the psychic intervened and prevented the mind from taking the wrong direction. It is not possible that there should not be stumbles, failures, etc. in the work of self-purification and change, but to feel upset or remorseful over them is harmful rather than helpful; it easily brings depression, and depression brings clouding of the mind and weakness. To observe calmly the wrong movement and its nature (here it was the tongue that was at fault and the tongue is always an easily erring member) and to set it right inwardly is always the best way. Calm, especially when the true spiritual calm of the Self is there, is the thing that must always be preserved; with that everything else can be done in time and with the least trouble.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThere was nothing wrong in helping with the cooking. But if there were a wrong movement in that, it is not to be met by getting depression\u2014for depression itself is a wrong or mistaken movement; and how can one mistake be corrected by another? The proper way to deal with a wrong movement is to look quietly at it and put the consciousness right at that point.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is also a mistake to take quietude for callousness. If you are no longer disturbed by what people say or do, then that is a\n<\/p>\n

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great progress. If you have no abhimāna <\/i>against the Mother, that also is surely very desirable.
\nAbhimāna, <\/i>disturbance etc. may be signs of life but of a vital, not of the inner life. They must quiet down and give room for the inner life. At first the result may be a neutral quiet, but one has often to pass through that to arrive at a more positive new consciousness. When the mind thus falls quiet the thoughts of the past, all sorts of repetitive or mechanical thoughts begin to rise up\u2014these are from the physical mind or the subconscient. One has to refuse them and let them pass away, aspiring for the complete mental quietude in which the new consciousness can reveal itself little by little. Remain firm and quiet with the right will in you and let the Force do its work. That will may not bear recognisable fruit at once, but adhere to it and the fruit will come.\n<\/p>\n

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\nRemorse, repentance, is the natural movement of the vital mind when it sees it has done a mistake. It is certainly better than indifference. Its disadvantage is that it disturbs the vital stuff and sometimes leads to depression or discouragement. For that reason what is usually recommended to the sadhak is a quiet recognition of the mistake with a sincere aspiration and will that it should not be repeated or at least that the habit of making such mistakes should soon be eliminated. At a higher stage of development when the inner calm is established, one simply observes the defects of the nature as defects of a machinery that one has to put right and calls down the Light and Force for its rectification. In the beginning however the movement of repentance even helps provided it does not bring discouragement or depression.\n<\/p>\n

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      After you went from here it seems that the vital difficulties which you were emerging from here came back with your return to the atmosphere and that was the cause of the violent depression and ill-health that fell upon you. The depression again was the cause why everything went wrong and the arrangements made fell through or took a wrong turn. For depression prevents the Force from flowing through and calls in the adverse forces and gives them a chance to destroy the helpful formations that are made. All the trouble and difficulty you have had will disappear or be minimised if you shake off this tendency to depression altogether.\n<\/p>\n

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\nHowever or from wheresoever it came, the only thing to do with a depression is to throw it out.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe weakness in yourself of which you speak is there, as the persistency of these movements show, but it is not in the heart \u2014your heart is all right\u2014but in the lower vital nature. All your weaknesses are there; the rest of your being is quite strong enough for the spiritual life. But this inadequacy of the lower vital is not peculiar to you, it is present in almost every human being. This tendency to irrational sadness and despondency and these imaginations, fears and perverse reasonings\u2014always repeating, if you will take careful notice, the same movements, ideas and feelings and even the same language and phrases like a machine\u2014is a characteristic working of the lower vital nature. The only way to get rid of it is to meet it with a fixed resolution of the higher vital and the mind and the psychic being to combat, reject and master it. As you were determined to master the sex-\n<\/p>\n

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impulse and the desire of the palate, so you must determine to master this "irrational knot" of despondency and the lower vital nature. If you indulge it and regard it as a natural part of yourself with good causes for existence or if you busy yourself finding this or that justification when it comes, there is no reason why it should let go its unpleasant grip upon you. Be firm and courageous here, as you have learnt to be with other movements of your lower vital; you will then find less difficulty in your meditation and your general sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe feelings and movements of the past always return at night in sleep. It is only when the consciousness that generated them, is changed and cleared in the waking state, that afterwards one can clear them out of the sleep also.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYou are listening too much to the suggestions of the outer consciousness, "not being able," etc. etc. Since you did begin to open a little for a time, it shows that you are able. You have to get back to that movement; for that you must persuade this outer vital not to go on repeating "I am not able, my efforts cannot succeed, I am too crooked etc."\u2014or if it goes on, you must not listen to it. You must affirm and concentrate on the possibility that was shown you and not on the supposed impossibility.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is clear that the force and peace are descending and working more and more to fix themselves in you.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe other feelings, the wanting to be sad, the fear of being happy, the suggestion of incapacity or unfitness are the usual movements of the vital formation which is not yourself and they\n<\/p>\n

  
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come up to try and prevent the change in you. You have only to refuse to accept these suggestions and put yourself persistently on the side of the Truth in you which will make you free and happy, and all will be well.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWho does not feel the confusion or ignorance somewhere in himself so long as the full light and the true force have not come? Your mistake is to be always thinking about the confusion and struggling with it, dwelling on it, magnifying it by thinking about it, treating it as if it were the only thing real and true. Wh n you feel the force, turn to the force and let it act\u2014it is that Force and not you or your brooding and struggles that can get rid of the confusion and darkness. What is the use of examining whether your faith and confidence are of the "true" kind or not? To feel the force, be quiet, let it act is all that is needed.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is good that you go back from this struggle towards the quiet foundation that helps the opening. All this struggling and confusion and harassing self-depreciation is the old wrong way of proceeding; it is mental and vital and cannot succeed; it is in the quiet mind that the opening must come. Then the psychic being, the soul in you begins to come forward. The soul knows and sees the Truth; the mind and vital do not\u2014until they are enlightened by the soul’s knowledge.\n<\/p>\n

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physical mind comes uppermost. Only it is true that if you could keep yourself always in that part of you which is in contact, the thing would be done sooner and with much less difficulty and trouble.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf there is this unconsciousness, you have to learn to be conscious in all your actions, so that the vital movements will no longer be able to deceive you or take any cover. You must make a point of being perfectly sincere in looking at these vital movements and seeing them as they are.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf once you can open in the psychic being and keep it open, then from within yourself will come constantly a perception that will show you at each step the actual truth and keep you on your guard against any kind of deception. If you aspire constantly and allow the peace to grow and the Force to work in you, this opening will come.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI have
\nnever said that to overcome doubt is easy; it is difficult because it is the
\nnature of something in the human physical mind to cling to doubt for its own
\nsake. It is not easy to overcome gloom, depression, grief and suffering because
\nsomething in the human vital clings to it and almost needs it as part of the
\ndrama of life. So also I have never said that sex, anger, jealousy, etc. were
\neasy to overcome. I have said it was difficult because they were ingrained in
\nthe human vital and even if thrown out were always being brought into it either
\nby its own habit or by the invasion of the general Nature and the resurgence of
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and consciousness of man\u2014hates its own suffering and if left to itself dislikes also to see others suffer. But if you will try to fathom the significance of your admission of liking drama or of the turn towards drama from which very few human beings escape, and if you go deep enough, you will find that there is something in the vital which likes suffering and clings to it for the sake of the drama. It is something below the surface, but it is strong, almost universal in human nature and difficult to eradicate unless one recognises it and gets inwardly away from it. The mind and the physical of man do not like suffering, for if they did, it would not be suffering any longer, but this thing in the vital wants it in order to give a spice to life. It is the reason why constant depressions can go on returning and returning even though the mind longs to get rid of them, because this in the vital responds, goes on repeating the same movement like a gramophone as soon as it is got going and insists on turning the whole round of the oft-repeated record. It does not really depend on the reasons which the vital gives for starting off to the round, these are often of the most trivial character and wholly insufficient to justify it. It is only by a strong will to detach oneself, not to justify, to reject, not to welcome that one can in the end get rid of this most troublesome and dangerous streak in human nature. When therefore we speak of the vital comedy, of the vital drama, we are speaking from a psychological knowledge which does not end with the surface of things but looks at these hidden movements. It is impossible to deal with things for the purposes of yoga if we confine ourselves to the surface consciousness only: it is also quite according to the rule of these reactions that your despondency should have come immediately after a considerable progress in bhakti and the will to surrender in the inner being\u2014for it comes from the spirit of darkness\n<\/p>\n

  
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which attacks the sadhak whenever it can and that spirit resents-fiercely all progress made and hates the very idea of progress and its whole policy is to convince him by its attacks and suggestions that he has made none or that what progress he has made is after all null and inconclusive….\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe laws of this world as it is are the laws of the Ignorance and the Divine in the world maintains them so long as there is the Ignorance; if he did not, the universe would crumble to pieces \u2014utsīdeyur ime lokāh, <\/i>as the Gita puts it. There are also, very naturally, conditions for getting out of the Ignorance into the Light. One of them is that the mind of the sadhak should cooperate with the Truth and that his will should co-operate with the Divine Power which, however slow its action may seem to the vital or to the physical mind, is uplifting the nature towards the Light; when that co-operation is complete, the progress can be rapid enough. But the sadhak should not grudge the time and labour needed to make the co-operation fully possible to the blindness and weakness of human nature and effective.<\/p>\n

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\nAll this call of yours for faith, sincerity, surrender is only an invitation to make that co-operation more easily possible. If the physical mind ceases to judge all things including those that it does not know or are beyond it, like the deeper things of the spirit, then it becomes easier for it to receive the Light and know by illumination and experience the things that it does not yet know. If the mental and vital will place themselves in the Divine Hand without reservation, then it is easier for the Power to work and produce tangible effects. If there is resistance, then it is natural that it should take more time and the work should be done from within or, as it might appear, underground so as to prepare the nature and undermine the resistance….\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe surface nature does not enjoy\u2014but something within enjoys the līlā <\/i>of "laughter and tears", joy and grief, pleasure and pain, in a word the play of the ignorance. In some people this comes up to a certain extent on the surface. Many, if you propose to them the removal of suffering from life, look askance at you and feel that it would be terribly wrong to have nothing but joy and Ananda and peace\u2014many even have said it.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI don’t think mere doubts can bring any gain;, mental questioning can bring gains if it is in pursuit of truth, but questioning just for the sake of sceptical questioning or in a pure spirit of contradiction can only bring, when it is directed against the truths of the spirit, either error or a lasting incertitude. If I am always questioning the Light when it comes and refusing its offer of truth, the Light cannot stay in me, cannot settle; eventually, finding no welcome and no foundation in the mind, it will retire. One has to push forward into the Light, not always falling back into the darkness and hugging the darkness in the delusion that it is the real light. Whatever fulfilment one may feel in pain or in doubt belongs to the Ignorance; the real fulfilment is in the divine joy and the divine Truth and its certitude and it is that for which the yogin strives. In the struggle he may have to pass through doubt, not by his own choice or will but because there is still imperfection in his knowledge.\n<\/p>\n

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have to do is to prepare the consciousness by getting rid of the inertia. A sattwic gladness and calm and confidence is the proper temperament for this yoga; gloom, depression and weeping should not be indulged in, as they stand in the way of the opening, unless the tears are the psychic weeping of release or adoration or a moved love and bhakti. The progress made in controlling the sex and other rajasic movements of the lower vital is a good preparation, but not enough; by itself it is only the negative side, though indispensable. Aspire for a positive sattwic opening for strength, for light, for peace and do not worry or repine if the progress is slow at first, nor grudge the time and labour of preparation necessary before there can be a rapid advance in the yoga.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe change noted by X evidently indicates a great progress in the vital and physical being. There is nothing spiritually wrong in being glad and cheerful, on the contrary it is the right thing. As for struggles and aspiration, struggles are really not indispensable to progress and there are many people who get so habituated to the struggling attitude that they have all the time struggles and very little else. That is not desirable. There is a sunlit path as well as a gloomy one and it is the better of the two\u2014a path in which one goes forward in absolute reliance on the Mother, fearing nothing, sorrowing over nothing. Aspiration is needed but there can be a sunlit aspiration full of light and faith and confidence and joy. If difficulty comes, even that can be faced with a smile.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhat is needed is to profit by the discovery and get rid of the impediment. The Mother did not merely point out the impediment; she showed you very expressly how to get rid of it and at that time you understood her, though now (at the time of writing your letter to me) the light which you saw seems to have been clouded by your indulging your vital more and more in the bitter pastime of sadness. That was quite natural, for that is the result sadness always does bring. That is the reason why I object to the gospel of sorrow and to any sadhana which makes sorrow one of its main planks (abhimān, <\/i>revolt, viraha). <\/i>For sorrow is not, as Spinoza pointed out, a passage to a greater perfection, a way to siddhi; it cannot be, for it confuses and weakens and distracts the mind, depresses the vital forces, darkens the spirit. A relapse from joy and vital elasticity and Ananda to sorrow, self-distrust, despondency and weakness is a recoil from a greater to a lesser consciousness,\u2014the habit of these moods shows the clinging of something in the vital to the smaller, obscurer, dark and distressed movement out of which it is the very aim of yoga to rise.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is, therefore, quite incorrect to say that the Mother took away the wrong .key with which you were trying to open the Faery Palace and left you with none at all. For she not only showed you the true key but gave it to you. It was not a mere vague exhortation to cheerfulness she gave you but she described exactly the condition felt in the right kind of meditation\u2014a state of inner rest, not of straining, of quiet opening, not of eager or desperate pulling, a harmonious giving of oneself to the Divine Force for its workings and in that a sense of the Force working and a restful confidence and allowing it to work without any unquiet interference. And she asked you if you had not experienced that condition and you said you had and you knew\n<\/p>\n

 
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it very well. Now that condition is the psychic opening and, if you have had it, you know what the psychic opening is; of course, there is much more that afterwards comes, but this is the fundamental condition in which it can most easily come. What you should have done was to keep the key the Mother gave you present in your consciousness and apply it\u2014not to go back and allow sadness and the repining view of the past to grow upon you. In this condition, which you call the right or the psychic attitude, there may be call, prayer, aspiration; intensity, concentration will come of themselves, not by a hard effort or tense strain on the nature. Rejection of wrong movements, frank confession of defects are not only not incompatible, but helpful to it, but this attitude makes the rejection, the confession easy, spontaneous, entirely complete and sincere and effective. That is the experience of all who have consented to take this attitude.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI may say in passing that consciousness and receptivity are not the same thing; one may be receptive, yet externally unaware of how things are being done and of what is being done. The Force works, as I have repeatedly written, behind the veil. The results remain packed behind and come out afterwards, often slowly, little by little, until there is so much pressure that it breaks through somehow and forces itself upon the external nature. There is a difference between a mental and a vital straining and pulling and a spontaneous psychic openness, and it is not at all the first time that we have spoken of the difference. The Mother and myself have written and spoken of it times without number and we have deprecated pulling1<\/sup> and straining\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is not that the pulling and straining and tension can do nothing; in the end they prevail for some result or other, but with difficulty, delay, struggle, strong upheavals of the forces breaking through in spite of all. Ramakrishna himself began by pulling and straining and got his result, but at the cost of a tremendous and perilous upsetting; afterwards he took the quiet psychic way whenever he wanted a result and got it with ease and in a minimum time. You say that this way is too difficult for you or the likes of you and it is only "Avatars" like myself or the Mother that can do it. That is a strange misconception; for it is, on the contrary, the easiest and simplest and most direct way and anyone can do it, if he makes his mind and vital quiet…even those who have a tenth, of your capacity can do it. It is the other way of tension and strain and hard endeavour that is difficult and needs a great force of tapasya. As for the Mother and myself we have had to try all ways, follow all methods, to surmount mountains of difficulties, a far heavier burden to bear than you or anybody else in the Ashram or outside, far more difficult conditions, battles to fight, wounds to endure, ways to cleave through impenetrable morass and desert and forest, hostile masses to conquer\u2014a work such as, I am certain, none else had to do before us. For the leader of the way in a work like ours has not only to bring down or represent and embody the Divine but to represent too the ascending element in humanity and to bear the burden of humanity to the full and experience, not in\n<\/p>\n

  
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a mere play or Lila but in grim earnest, all the obstruction, difficulty, opposition, baffled, hampered and only slowly victorious labour which are possible on the path. But it is not necessary, nor tolerable that all that should be repeated over again to the full in the experience of others. It is because we have the complete experience that we can show a straighter and easier road to others\u2014if they will only consent to take it. It is because of our experience won at a tremendous price that we can urge upon you and others, "Take the psychic attitude; follow the straight sunlit path, with the Divine openly and secretly upbearing you\u2014if secretly, he will yet show himself in good time,\u2014do not insist on the hard, hampered, roundabout and difficult journey."\n<\/p>\n

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\nYou say that you were never pointed out all this before. But it is what we have been saying in season and out of season to everybody for a long time past. But you were not inclined to regard it as feasible or at least not ready to apply it in the field of meditation, because your consciousness by tradition, owing to past lives and other reasons, was clinging to former contrary conceptions. Something in you was harking back to the Vaishnava sadhana, and that tended to bring in its pain-giving feeling, elements of abhimān, <\/i>revolt, suffering, the Divine hiding himself ("always I seek but never does he show himself"), the rarity of the unfolding and the milan. <\/i>Something else in you was inclined to see as the only alternative some hard, grim, ascetic ideal, the blank featureless Brahman and imagined that the supramental was that; something in the vital looked on the conquest of wrong movements as a hard, desperate tapasya, not as a passage into the purity and joy of the Divine; even now something in you seems to insist on regarding the psychic attitude as something extraordinary, difficult, unhuman and impossible.\n<\/p>\n

   
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\nIt is not that there is anything peculiar in you in these difficulties; every sadhak entering the way has to get over similar impediments. It took me four years of inner striving to find a real way, even though the divine help was with me all the time, and even then, it seemed to come by an accident; and it took me ten more years of intense yoga under a supreme inner guidance to trace it out and that was because I had my past and the world’s past to assimilate and overpass before I could find and found the future.\n<\/p>\n

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\nBut for you the remedy we propose, the key we offer to you, ought not to be difficult to apply as you imagine. After all, it is only applying in "meditation" the way that has been so successful with you in music and poetry. There is a way of producing poetry by strain and tension, by breaking of the brain, by hard and painful labour\u2014often the passage clogged, and nothing coming or else coming only in return for a sort of intellectual tapasya. There is the other way in which one remains quiet and opens oneself to a power that is there behind and waits for inspiration; the force pours in and with it the inspiration, the illumination, the Ananda,
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\n1<\/sup> The Russellian fear of emptiness which is the form the active mind gives to silence. Yet it was on what you call emptiness, on the silence, that my whole yoga was founded and it was through it that there came afterwards all the inexhaustible riches of a greater knowledge, will and joy, all the experiences of a greater mental, psychic and vital realms, all the ranges up to overmind and beyond. The cup has often to be emptied before it can be new-filled; the yogin, the sadhak ought not to be afraid of emptiness or silence.
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\nIn the way of meditating of which we spoke, aspiration, prayer, concentration, intensity are a natural part of it. Those who take it go quicker and develop their sadhana, once they get fixed in it, much more easily as well as smoothly than by a distressed, doubtful and anxious straining with revulsions of despondency and turning away from hope and endeavour. We spoke of a steady opening to the Divine with a flow of the force doing its work in the Adhar, a poised opening with a quiet mind and heart full of trust and the sunlight of confidence; where do you find that we said a helpless waiting must be your programme?\n<\/p>\n

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\nThere is nothing to be troubled about. You ought rather to congratulate yourself that you have become conscious of your ego-centricity. Very few people in the Ashram are. They are all egocentric and they do not realise their ego-centricity. Even in their sadhana the I is always there,\u2014my <\/i>sadhana, my <\/i>progress, my <\/i>everything. The remedy is to think constantly of the Divine, not of oneself, to work, to act, do sadhana for the Divine; not to consider how this or that affects me <\/i>personally, not to claim\n<\/p>\n

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anything, but to refer all to the Divine. It will take time to do that sincerely and thoroughly, but it is the proper way.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYour nature like that of almost everybody has been largely ego-centric and the first stages of the sadhana are with almost everybody ego-centric. The main idea in it is always one’s own sadhana, one’s own endeavour, one’s own development, perfection, siddhi. It is inevitable for most, for without that personal endeavour there would not be sufficient will or push to bring about the first necessary changes. But none of these things\u2014development, perfection or siddhi\u2014can really come in any degree of completeness or unmixed finality until this ego-centric attitude changes into the God-centric, until it becomes the development, perfection, siddhi of the Divine Consciousness, its will and its instrumentation in this body\u2014and that can only be when these things become secondary, and bhakti for the Divine, love for the Divine, oneness with the Divine in consciousness, will, heart and body, become the sole aim\u2014the rest is then only the fulfilment
\nof the Divine Will by the Divine Power. This attitude is never difficult for the
\npsychic, it is its natural position and feeling, and whenever your psychic was
\nin front, you had it in your central consciousness. But there were the outer
\nmind, vital and physical that brought in their mixture of desire and ego and
\nthere could be no effective liberation in life and action till these were
\nliberated. The thinking mind and higher vital can accept without too much
\ndifficulty, but the difficulty is with the lower vital and physical and
\nespecially with the most external parts of them; for these are entirely
\ncreatures of habit, recurring movement, an obstinate repetition of the same
\nmovement always. This habit is so blind and obstinate and persistent as to seem
\nalmost invincible, especially<\/p>\n

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when it is used at a
\njuncture like this by the Forces of Ignorance as their last refuge or point of
\nattack. But the apparent invincibility is not true. The most ego-centric can
\nchange and do change by the psychic principle becoming established in the
\nexternal nature. That it can be done only by the Divine Grace and Power is true
\n(that is true of all spiritual change)\u2014but with the full consent of the being.
\nAs it was done in the inner being, so it can be done in the outer; give the
\nadhesion of your full will and faith and, whatever the difficulty, it will be
\ndone.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is true about living and doing all for oneself, but that is the nature of
\nman, he is centred in his ego, ego-centric, and does all for his ego; even his
\nlove and liking is mostly based on ego. All that has to be changed and all has
\nto be centred in the Divine, done for the Divine Mother. It is the work of the
\nsadhana to get that done. The silence, the growth of the psychic and all else is
\nmeant to bring about that\u2014but it cannot be done all at once. When the
\nconsciousness is ready, then the psychic love, the impulse for self-giving
\nbegins to open out in the heart and the change is made\u2014more and more till there
\nis the complete self-giving.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf you think there is no ego or desire in you, only pure devotion, that shows a
\ngreat unconsciousness. To be free from ego and desire is a condition which needs
\na high siddhi in yoga\u2014even many yogis of a great spiritual attainment are not
\nfree from it. For a sadhak at your stage of development to think he is free from
\nego and desire is to blind himself and prevent the clear\n<\/p>\n

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perception of one’s own
\nnature-movements which is necessary for progress towards spiritual perfection.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe Mother does not need to have your writings before her in order to see what
\nis in you.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIf your writings show ego and desire, and they certainly do, it is because they
\nare there without your perceiving it and express themselves without your
\nintending it. What the surface mind thinks and intends is one thing and what is
\nbehind the thoughts and actions is another thing. A man’s surface mind shapes
\nits own idea of oneself and one’s nature in an entire self-ignorance. The first
\nthing one has to do to get rid of this ignorance is to draw back from the
\nsurface mind and get into contact with the psychic which does not allow such
\ndelusions and shows one clearly the truth about one’s movements.\n<\/p>\n

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\nBut in what way do they [all things] belong to the Divine, so long as the ego
\nappropriates and uses them for its own purposes? Self-giving in fact means a
\nchange from ego-centricity to God-centricity; also such a giving as would lead
\nto a change of the whole base of the consciousness.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYes\u2014it is looking at things from the ego point of view that there comes all the
\nconfusion and trouble and ignorance. One has to think of the Divine, be still
\nand let the divine consciousness come in and replace the egoistic human\u2014then all
\nthat disappears.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYes, ego is the reason of the difficulty in everybody.\n<\/p>\n

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     Yes, that is right\u2014to
\nremember constantly and live in the peace and calmness so that the Force may
\nwork and the Light may come. The small things of daily life must go on in the
\nsurface consciousness, not filling too large a place in it, until the Force and
\nLight have taken possession and can lay direct hold of these also. It is the ego
\nthat gives them too big a place\u2014the ego must be discouraged\u2014"Not for myself, but
\nfor the Divine" should grow to be the law of the whole consciousness and thought
\nand action. It cannot be done thoroughly all at once, but that must become the
\ninsistent note in the mind as soon as possible.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhy is it [to be concentrated on the Divine] selfishness? Selfishness is to live
\nfor oneself and not for something greater than the self. To be concentrated on
\nthe Divine at all times is to get out of the personal self and its aims into
\nsomething greater and serve the aims of that greater Existence. It is no more
\nselfishness than to five for others always would be selfishness.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe selfishness of the ego is not a reason for not calling down the higher
\n(divine) consciousness of which the peace and the force are as it were the front
\nor the basis. How can you get rid of the selfish ego unless you call down that
\nhigher consciousness to which the ego is not a necessity?\n<\/p>\n

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\nIn the evolution of the lower consciousness here ego and selfishness were a
\nnecessity. So long as the higher consciousness above ordinary mind does not
\ndescend, ego remains a necessity even in aspiring towards the Divine or towards
\nMukti, even if it becomes a sattwic ego. It is only in the higher consciousness\n<\/p>\n

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that ego can dissolve,
\neither by ascending there or by its descent into the consciousness below.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI suppose the ego came there first as a means of the outer consciousness
\nindividualising itself in the flux of Nature and, secondly, as an incentive for
\ntamasic animal man to act and get something done. Otherwise he might merely have
\ncontented himself with food and sleep and done nothing else. With that incentive
\nof ego (possession, vanity, ambition, eagerness for power etc. etc.) he began
\ndoing all sorts of things he might never otherwise have done. But now that he
\nhas to go higher, this ego comes badly in the way.\n<\/p>\n

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\nBut what is this ego of which you speak? Everybody has the ego and it is
\nimpossible to get rid of it altogether except by two things\u2014the opening of the
\npsychic within and the descent of a wider ego-free consciousness from above. The
\npsychic being opening does not get rid of the ego at once but purifies it and
\noffers it and all the movements to the Divine, so that one becomes unegoistic
\nthrough self-giving and surrender. At the same time the nature opens above and
\nthe wider ego-free consciousness comes down and ego disappears and by the power
\nof the psychic you know your own true being which is a portion of the Mother.
\nThis is what has to happen, but it cannot happen in so short a time. Do not be
\nalways thinking of the vital movement and the ego\u2014you have seen them and know
\nthat they are, it is enough. Concentrate rather in the heart on the opening
\nthere; concentrate persistently and aspire persistently and do not mind\n<\/p>\n

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 if it takes time. Call in
\nany way even if you cannot call yet deeply \u2014then the deeper call will come.\n<\/p>\n

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\nI think you still give an exaggerated importance
\nand attention to the ego and other elements that are interwoven in the nature of
\nhumanity and cannot be entirely got rid of except by the coming of a new
\nconsciousness which replaces them by higher movements. If one rejects centrally
\nand with all sincerity the ego and rajas, their roots get loosened and sattwa
\ncan prevail in the nature, but the expulsion of all ego and rajas cannot be done
\nby the will and its effort. After a certain stage of preparation, therefore, one
\nmust stress more on the positive side of the sadhana than on the negative side
\nof rejection,-though this of course must remain to help the other. Still what is
\nimportant is to develop the psychic within and bring down the higher
\nconsciousness from above. The psychic, as it grows and manifests, detects
\nimmediately all wrong movements or elements and at the same time supplies almost
\nautomatically the true element or movement which will replace them-this process
\nis much easier and more effective than that of a severe tapasya of purification.
\nThe higher consciousness in descending brings peace and purity into all the
\ninner parts; the inner being separates itself from the imperfect outer
\nconsciousness and at the same time the peace that comes carries in it a power
\nwhich can throw out what contradicts the peace and purity. Ego can then slowly
\nor swiftly but surely disappear-rajas and tamas change into their divine
\nsubstitutes.<\/p>\n

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\nFor the ego, however insistent it may be, one has to keep one’s, eye on it and
\nsay no to all its suggestions so that each position it takes up proves to be a
\nfruitless move. Treated in that way, it becomes ready for the moment when the
\npsychic has only to give a slight push for it to fall away in each field of its
\nactivity from its loosened roots. Persevere steadily in the present movement and
\nit cannot fail to be effective.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWithout persistent rejection it [liberation from the ego] cannot be done. Going
\nup into the Self liberates the higher parts, but the ego remains in the lower
\nparts. The most effective force for this liberation is the psychic control along
\nwith steady rejection.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWithout the liberation of the psychic and the realisation of the true Self the
\nego cannot go, both are necessary. If there is no consciousness of the Self, how
\ncan the ego disappear? The psychic can be liberated by love and devotion, but I
\nwas speaking of a case in which it is not so liberated, and the realisation of
\nthe Self seems more easy.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYes. If you had gone inside, the psychic development would have been easier, and
\nthe conquest of ego\u2014likewise, the widening of the consciousness.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is rather a wider than a higher consciousness that is necessary for the
\nliberation from the ego\u2014going high is necessary of course,, but by itself it is
\nnot sufficient.\n<\/p>\n

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\nOnce the universality is established, there is no longer a secure fortress in
\nthe nature for the vital egoism\u2014the walls of it having been broken down. They
\n[egoistic vital movements] may still attack from outside, but it now lies in the
\npower of the sadhak to prevent their making a settled formation in him any
\nlonger.\n<\/p>\n

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\nA true spiritual experience must be free from the
\nclaim of the ego. What the ego can do, however, is to get proud of having the
\nexperience and think: "What a great one am I?" Or it may think, "I am the Self,
\nthe Divine. So let me go and do what I will, for it is the Divine who wills in
\nme." It is only if the experience of Self imposes silence on the other parts and
\nfrees the psychic that the ego disappears. Even if not ego itself, numerous
\nfragments and survivals of ego-habit can remain and have to be eliminated.<\/p>\n

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\nA certain exaltation of the being comes naturally
\nwith the stronger experiences and the sense of marvel or miracle may go with it,
\nbut there should be no egoistic feeling in the .exaltation<\/p>\n

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\nYes, it is a thing which comes to many; exaggerated and made a principal part of
\nthe vital attitude, it has been the cause of failure and departure of several
\nwho consider themselves great sadhaks \u2014they made it an excuse for indulging and
\nmagnifying the vital ego. Since you see that it is ridiculous, you should have
\nno difficulty in getting rid of it. The only truth in it is that each one who
\nopens himself in such a way that the Force can get through to\n<\/p>\n

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his material so as to
\nchange it, will by that be contributing to the victory of the Force\u2014but it
\napplies to everybody, not to any one individual.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe egoism of the instrument can be as dangerous or more dangerous to spiritual
\nprogress than the egoism of the doer. The ego-sense is contrary to spiritual
\nrealisation, so how can : any kind of ego be a thing to be encouraged? As for
\nthe magnified ego, it is one of the most perilous obstacles to release and
\nperfection. There should be no big I, not even a small one.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhat is meant by the magnified ego is that when the limits of the ordinary mind
\nand vital are broken, one feels a far vaster and more powerful consciousness and
\nunlimited possibilities, but if one ties all that to the tail of one’s own ego,
\nthen one becomes a thousand times more egoistic than the ordinary man. The
\ngreatness of the Divine becomes an excuse and a support for one’s own greatness
\nand the big I swells itself to fill not only the earth but the heavens. That
\nmagnification of the ego is a thing to be \u2022guarded against with a watchful care.\n<\/p>\n

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\nImpersonality in itself is not the Divine. All these mistakes can be and are
\nmade by many who claim to be in an impersonalised consciousness. A force may be
\nuniversal but may be also a wrong force: many think they are impersonal and free
\nfrom ego because they are obeying a force or something bigger than their own
\npersonality\u2014but that force or that something may be quite other than the Divine
\nand it may hold them by something in .their personality and ego.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAmbition and vanity are things so natural to the human consciousness\u2014they have
\neven their use in ordinary life\u2014that it is quite natural that at first they
\nshould enter into the sadhana also and finger even when they are rejected. But
\nthey have to be pushed out, before one is far on the path\u2014otherwise they are
\nvery dangerous attendants and can pervert both aspiration and siddhi .\n<\/p>\n

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\nAmbition is always a force of the vital.\n<\/p>\n

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\nSuggestions of ambition, etc. are always born in the vital mind or, as it might
\nbe called, the mind of the vital and from there they rush up to the thinking
\nmind and claim its assent and the sanction of the mental will. When the thinking
\nmind gets clouded by the uprush, it is carried away and gives its assent. The
\nthinking mind (reason) has always to remain unmoved above and judge what is
\nright without being caught and carried away by the vital.\n<\/p>\n

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\nA spiritual humility within is very necessary, but I do not think an outward one
\nis very advisable (absence of pride or arrogance or vanity is indispensable of
\ncourse in one’s outer dealings with others)\u2014it often creates pride, becomes
\nformal or becomes ineffective after a time. I have seen people doing it to cure
\ntheir pride, but I have not found it producing a lasting result.\n<\/p>\n

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\nPerhaps one could say that it [spiritual humility] is to be aware of the
\nrelativity of what has been done compared with what is still\n<\/p>\n

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to be done\u2014and also to be
\nconscious of one’s being nothing without the Divine Grace.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAs for the sense of superiority, that is a little difficult to avoid when
\ngreater horizons open before the consciousness, unless one is already of a
\nsaintly and humble disposition. There are men like Nag Mahashaya (among Sri
\nRamakrishna’s disciples) in whom spiritual experience creates more and more
\nhumility; there are others like Vivekananda in whom it creates a great sense of
\nstrength and superiority\u2014European critics have taxed him with it rather severly;
\nthere are others in whom it fixes a sense of superiority to men and humility to
\nthe Divine. Each position has its value. Take Vivekananda’s famous answer to the
\nMadras Pundit who objected to one of his assertions saying: "But Shankara does
\nnot say so", to whom Vivekananda replied: "No, but I, Vivekananda, say so", and
\nthe Pundit was speechless. That "I, Vivekananda," stands up to the ordinary eye
\nlike a Himalaya of self-confident egoism. But there was nothing false or unsound
\nin Vivekananda’s spiritual experience. For this was not mere egoism, but the
\nsense of what he stood for and the attitude of the fighter who, as the
\nrepresentative of something very great, could not allow himself to be put down
\nor belittled. This is not to deny the necessity of non-egoism and of spiritual
\nhumility, but to show that the question is not so easy as it appears at first
\nsight. For if I have to express my spiritual experiences I must do that with
\ntruth\u2014I must record them, their bhāva, <\/i>their thoughts, feelings,
\nextensions of consciousness which accompany them. What am I to do with the
\nexperience in which one feels the whole world in oneself or the force of the
\nDivine flowing in one’s being and nature or the certitude of one’s faith against
\nall\n<\/p>\n

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doubts and doubters or
\none’s oneness with the Divine or the smallness of human thought and life
\ncompared with this greater knowledge and existence? And I have to use the word
\nI\u2014I cannot take refuge in saying "This body" or "This appearance", especially as
\nI am not a Mayavadin. Shall I not, therefore, fall into expressions which will
\nmake X shake his head at my assertions as full of pride and ego? I imagine it
\nwould be difficult to avert it.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAnother thing: it seems to me that you identify faith very much with the mental
\nbelief, but real faith is something spiritual, a knowledge of the soul. The
\nassertions you quote in your letter are the hard assertions of mental belief
\nleading to a great vehement assertion of one’s mental creed and goal because
\nthey are one’s own and must therefore be greater than those of others \u2014an
\nattitude which is universal in human nature. Even the atheist is not tolerant,
\nbut declares his credo of Nature and Matter as the only truth and on all who
\ndisbelieve it or believe in other things he pours scorn as unenlightened morons
\nand superstitious half-wits. I bear him no grudge for thinking me that, but I
\nnote that this attitude is not confined to religious faith but is equally
\nnatural to those who are free from religious faith and do not believe in Gods or
\nGurus. You will not, I hope, mind my putting the other side of the question; I
\nwant to point out that there is the other side, that there is much more to be
\nsaid than at first sight appears.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThe right attitude is to see that as a separate being, as an ego, one has no
\nimportance whatever and the insistence on one’s own desires, pride, position
\netc. is an ignorance, but one matters only\n<\/p>\n

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as a spirit, as a portion
\nof the Divine, not more than others but as all souls matter to the Soul of all.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIdeas of superiority and inferiority are not of much use or validity. Each one
\nis himself with his own possibilities to which there need be no limit except
\nthat of will and development and time. Each nature has its own lines and in
\nthings that are more developed or less developed, but the standard should be set
\nby what he in himself aims to be. Comparison with others brings in a wrong
\nstandard of values.\n<\/p>\n

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\nThis is a very common disease with the sadhaks\u2014making comparisons with feelings
\nof jealousy and envy\u2014in some it leads to-revolt and self-assertion, in others to
\nself-depreciation and depression. Naturally, these feelings are quite out of
\nplace and the judgments created are out of focus. Each sadhak has his own
\nmovement, his own relation with the Divine, his own place in the work or the
\ngeneral sadhana and to compare with others immediately brings in a wrong
\nstandard. It is on the truth of his own inner movement that he has to take his
\nbase\u2014svadharma.<\/i>\n<\/p>\n

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\nSelf-respect and a sense of superiority are two very different things.
\nSelf-respect is not necessarily a sign of egoism any more than its absence is a
\nsign of liberation from egoism. Self-respect means observing a certain standard
\nof conduct which is proper to the level of manhood to which I belong\u2014e.g. I
\ncannot make a false statement out of self-respect though it would be
\nadvantageous to do it and most people under the circumstances would\n<\/p>\n

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make it. Amour-propre <\/i>
\nis different and belongs to the sattwic type of ego. When one is not free from
\nego, then amour-propre <\/i>(as well as self-respect\u2014for that can be with ego
\nor without ego) are necessary supports for the maintenance of the personality at
\nits proper level.\n<\/p>\n

     
\nHatred being very unspiritual is not an aid to be called in for the purpose.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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 For many sadhaks there is
\na first stage governed by the mind or higher vital in which they go on very
\nwell, because in the mind and higher vital there are elements that are strong
\nenough to control the rest while the first experiences or first progress is
\nmade. But a time comes when the sadhak has to deal with the lower parts of the
\nbeing, then <\/i>all the vital difficulties arise. If the early progress or
\nexperiences have engendered pride or ego or if there is a serious flaw
\nsomewhere, then they are unable to deal with these so long as the ego is not
\nremoved or broken or the flaw mended. X developed a pride of self-righteousness
\nthat stood in his way altogether; he has also the flaw of a narrow obstinate
\nmind that sticks to its own ideas as if they alone were right \u2014the instances you
\ngive of his conduct are illustrations of this defect. That is why here he
\nquarrels with everyone thinking that he is right and they are very bad and
\nmischievous, cannot see his own faults and mistakes and when he is not heard by
\nthe Mother or myself feels hurt and offended because we do not support his
\nsaintliness and righteousness against the wicked who oppress him. He is a good
\nand clever worker but he cannot progress in sadhana so long as he keeps this
\nstiffness and ego.\n<\/p>\n

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\nYou have capacities and yogic stuff, but along with them goes a very strong
\nself-esteem and a self-righteous spirit which stand in the way of perfection and
\nconstitute a very serious obstacle. So long as a sadhak has that, the attempt of
\nthe Truth to manifest in him will always be baffled by his changing it into
\nmental and vital constructions which distort it, turn it into ineffective
\nhalf-truth or even make truth itself a source of error.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nYes\u2014self-justification keeps the wrong movement going because it gives a mental
\nsupport. Self-justification is always a sign of ego and ignorance. When one has
\na wider consciousness, one knows that each one has his own way of looking at
\nthings and finds in that way his own justification, so that both parties in a
\nquarrel believe themselves to be on the right. It is only when one looks from
\nabove in a consciousness clear of ego that one sees all sides of a thing and
\nalso their real truth.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nBut that [not recognising one’s defects] is a very common human weakness,
\nalthough it ought not to exist in a sadhak whose progress depends largely on his
\nrecognising what has to be changed in him. Not that the recognition by itself is
\nsufficient, but it is a necessary element. It is of course a kind of pride or
\nvanity which considers this necessary for strength and standing. Not only will
\nthey not recognise it before others but they hide their defects from themselves
\nor even if obliged to look at it with one eye look away from it with the other.
\nOr they weave a veil<\/p>\n

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of words and excuses and
\njustifications trying to make it something other than it really is. X’s saying1<\/sup>
\nis very characteristic of him \u2014that has been his main stumbling-block in the
\npath of yoga.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt
\nis only this habit of the nature-self-worrying and
\nharping on the sense of deficiency that prevents you from being quiet. If you
\nthrew that out, it would be easy to be quiet. Humility is needful, but constant
\nself-depreciation does not help; excessive selfesteem and self-depreciation are
\nboth wrong attitudes. To recognise any defects without exaggerating them is
\nuseful but, once recognised, it is no good dwelling on them always; you must
\nhave the confidence that the Divine Force can change everything and you must let
\nthe Force work.<\/p>\n

<\/font><\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt depends on the nature of the ego. Some egoists are hard-skinned and not
\nsensitive at all, others are hyper-sensitive.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nSensitiveness is one of the most persistent obstacles of many sadhaks. There are
\ntwo remedies for it\u2014the psychic’s confidence in the Mother and the surrender
\nthat goes with it, that is, "whatever she wills is best for me", and the
\nvastness which you feel now;\u2014it is the wideness of the true self, of the true
\nmental, vital, physical being also, from which such things fall off like dust,
\nfor they are of no importance to it whatever.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

      
\nIt is the one thing to do, to get permanently into the wideness,\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\n1<\/sup> "I would die if I had to admit my faults."\n<\/p>\n

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peace and silence and let
\nthe ego dissolve into it and the attachments fall away.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nOne has not to cure oneself of one’s sensitiveness, but only acquire the power
\nto rise to a higher consciousness taking such disenchantments as a sort of
\njumping-board. One way is not to expect even square dealings from others, no
\nmatter who the others are. And besides, it is good to have such experiences of
\nthe real nature of some people to which a generous nature is often blind; for
\nthat helps the growth of one’s consciousness. The blow you wince at seems to you
\nso hard because it is a blow the world of your mental formation has sustained.
\nSuch a world often becomes a part of our being. The result is that a blow dealt
\nto it gives almost physical pain. The great compensation is that it makes you
\nlive more and more in the real world in contradistinction to the world of your
\nimagination which is what you would like the real world to be. But the real
\nworld is not all that could be desired, you know, and that is why it has to be
\nacted upon and transformed by the Divine Consciousness. But for that, knowledge
\nof the reality, however unpalatable, is almost the first requisite. This
\nknowledge often enough is best brought home to us through blows and bleedings.
\nTrue, idealistic people, sensitive people, refined natures smart under such
\ndisillusionments more than do others who are somewhat thick-skinned, but that is
\nno reason why fine feelings should be deprecated and the keen edge of fine
\nsusceptibilities be blunted. The thing is to learn to detach oneself from any
\nsuch experience and learn to look at such perversions of others from a higher
\naltitude from where one can regard these manifestations in the proper
\nperspective\u2014 the impersonal one. Then our difficulties really and literally\n<\/p>\n

   <\/p>\n

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\n

\n

become opportunities. For
\nknowledge, when it goes to the root of our troubles, has in itself a marvellous
\nhealing-power as it were. As soon as you touch the quick of the trouble, as soon
\nas you, diving down and down, get at what really ails you, the pain disappears
\nas though by a miracle. Unflinching courage to reach true Knowledge is therefore
\nof the very essence of yoga. No lasting superstructure can be erected except on
\na solid basis of true Knowledge. The feet must be sure of their ground before
\nthe head can hope to kiss the skies.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nYour surprise at X’s behaviour shows that you do not yet know what kind of thing
\nis the average human nature. Did you never hear of the answer of Vidyasagar when
\nhe was told that a certain man was abusing him,\u2014"Why does he abuse me? I never
\ndid him a good turn (upakāra)." <\/i>The unregenerate vital is not grateful
\nfor a benefit, it resents being under an obligation. So long as the benefit
\ncontinues, it is effusive and says sweet things, as soon as it expects nothing
\nmore it turns round and bites the hand that fed it. Sometimes it does that even
\nbefore, when it thinks it can do it without the benefactor knowing the origin of
\nthe slander, fault-finding or abuse. In all these dealings of yours there is
\nnothing unusual, nothing, as you think, peculiar to you. Most have this kind of
\nexperience, few escape it altogether. Of course, people with a developed psychic
\nelement are by nature grateful and do not behave in this way.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIX <\/b>\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nMost men are, like animals, driven by the forces of Nature: whatever desires
\ncome, they fulfil them, whatever emotions come\n<\/p>\n

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\n

\n

they allow them to play,
\nwhatever physical wants they have, they try to satisfy. We say then that the
\nactivities and feelings of men are controlled by their Prakriti, and mostly by
\nthe vital and physical nature. The body is the instrument of the Prakriti or
\nNature \u2014it obeys its own nature or it obeys the vital forces of desire, passion,
\netc.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nBut man has also a mind and, as he develops, he learns to control his vital and
\nphysical nature by his reason and by his will. This control is very partial: for
\nthe reason is often deluded by vital desires and the ignorance of the physical
\nand it puts itself on their side and tries to justify by its ideas, reasonings
\nor arguments their mistakes and wrong movements. Even if the reason keeps free
\nand tells the vital or the body, "Do not do this", yet the vital and the body
\noften follow their own movement in spite of the prohibition\u2014man’s mental will is
\nnot strong enough to compel them.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nWhen people do sadhana, there is a higher Nature that works within, the psychic
\nand spiritual, and they have to put their nature under the influence of the
\npsychic being and the higher spiritual self or of the Divine. Not only the vital
\nand the body but the mind also has to learn the Divine Truth and obey the divine
\nrule. But because of the lower nature and its continued hold on them, they are
\nunable at first and for a long time to prevent their nature from following the
\nold ways\u2014even when they know or are told from within what to do or what not to
\ndo. It is only by persistent sadhana, by getting into the higher spiritual
\nconsciousness and spiritual nature that this difficulty can be overcome; but
\neven for the strongest and best sadhaks it takes a long time.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIs there any time in the "straight path" for satisfying desires? If desire is
\nnot mastered, how can there be any straight walking on the straight path?\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is not yoga to give free play to the natural instincts and desires. Yoga
\ndemands mastery over the nature, not subjection to the nature.\n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nKāmanā bāsanā <\/i>have no part in yoga, they cannot be its help (sahāya), <\/i>
\nthey can only be hindrances. So long as desire and ego remain, there can be no
\nsurrender to the Divine, no fulfilment in the yoga. They are movements of the
\nvital and cannot be anything else.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nEgoless strength is strength which does not act for selfish motives or for the
\ndesires of the vital or to carry out the ideas of one’s own mind, but exists
\nonly for the service of the Divine and as an instrument of the Divine.\n<\/p>\n

 \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt would certainly be very easy if all that one had to do were to follow one’s
\ndesires; but to be governed by one’s desires is not yoga.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nNeed and want are not the same thing. The fact that they could go on without it
\nfor so long shows that it was not a need.\n<\/p>\n

  \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nDemand and desire are only two different aspects of the same thing\u2014nor is it
\nnecessary that a feeling should be agitated or\n<\/p>\n

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\n

\n

restless to be a desire; it
\ncan be, on the contrary, quietly fixed and persistent or persistently recurrent.
\nDemand or desire comes from the mental or the vital, but a psychic or spiritual
\nneed is a different thing. The psychic does not demand or desire\u2014it aspires; it
\ndoes not make conditions for its surrender or withdraw if its aspiration is not
\nimmediately satisfied\u2014for the psychic has complete trust in the Divine or in the
\nGuru and can wait for the right time or the hour of the Divine Grace. The
\npsychic has an insistence of its own, but it puts its pressure not on the
\nDivine, but on the nature, placing a finger of light on all the defects there
\nthat stand in the way of the realisation, sifting out all that is mixed,
\nignorant or imperfect in the experience or in the movements of the yoga and
\nnever satisfied with itself or with the nature till it has got it perfectly open
\nto the Divine, free from all forms of ego, surrendered, simple and right in the
\nattitude and all the movements. This is what has to be established entirely in
\nthe mind and vital and in the physical consciousness before supramentalisation
\nof the whole nature is possible. Otherwise what one gets is more or less
\nbrilliant, half-luminous, half-cloudy illuminations and experiences on the
\nmental and vital and physical planes inspired either from some larger mind or
\nlarger vital or at the best from the mental reaches above the human that
\nintervene between the intellect and the overmind. These can be very stimulating
\nand satisfying up to a certain point and are good for those who want some
\nspiritual realisation on these planes; but the supramental realisation is
\nsomething much more difficult and exacting in its conditions and the most
\ndifficult of all is to bring it down to the physical level.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

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\nThere are always two methods of living in the Supreme. One is to draw away the
\nparticipation of the consciousness from things altogether and go so much inwards
\nas to be separated from existence and live in contact with that which is beyond
\nit. The other is to get to that which is the true Essence of all things, not
\nallowing oneself to be absorbed and entangled by the external forms. Desire,
\nattachment, slavery to the attractions of the external sense are the chief
\nobstacle to this movement\u2014so in either way they have to be got rid of. But it is
\nquite possible to see the Supreme before the attraction of external sense is
\ngone\u2014only one cannot live securely in It if there is desire and external
\nattachment because that is always taking one away from the inner poise.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nAll the ordinary vital movements are foreign to the true being and come from
\noutside; they do not belong to the soul nor do they originate in it but arc
\nwaves from the general Nature, Prakriti.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe desires come from outside, enter the subconscious vital and rise to the
\nsurface. It is only when they rise to the surface and the mind becomes aware of
\nthem, that we become conscious of the desire. It seems to us to be our own
\nbecause we feel it thus rising from the vital into the mind and do not know that
\nit came from outside. What belongs to the vital, to the being, what makes it
\nresponsible is not the desire itself, but the habit of responding to the waves
\nor the currents of suggestion that come into it from the universal Prakriti.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe <\/b>rejection of desire is essentially the rejection of the element of
\ncraving, putting that out from the consciousness itself as a\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

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\n

\n

\n

 foreign element not
\nbelonging to the true self and the inner nature. But refusal to indulge the
\nsuggestions of desire is also a part of the rejection; to abstain from the
\naction suggested, if it is not the right action, must be included in the yogic
\ndiscipline. It is only when this is done in the wrong way, by a mental ascetic
\nprinciple or a hard moral rule, that it can be called suppression. The
\ndifference between suppression and an inward essential rejection is the
\ndifference between mental or moral control and a spiritual purification.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nWhen one lives in the true consciousness one feels the desires outside oneself,
\nentering from outside, from the universal lower Prakriti, into the mind and the
\nvital parts. In the ordinary human condition this is not felt; men become aware
\nof the desire only when it is there, when it has come inside and found a lodging
\nor a habitual harbourage and so they think it is their own and a part of
\nthemselves. The first condition for getting rid of desire is, therefore, to
\nbecome conscious with the true consciousness; for then it becomes much easier to
\ndismiss it than when one has to struggle with it as if it were a constituent
\npart of oneself to be thrown out from the being. It is easier to cast off an
\naccretion than to excise what is felt as a parcel of our substance.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nWhen the psychic being is in front, then also to get rid of desire becomes easy;
\nfor the psychic being has in itself no desires, it has only aspirations and a
\nseeking and love for the Divine and all things that are or tend towards the
\nDivine. The constant prominence of the psychic being tends of itself to bring
\nout the true consciousness and set right almost automatically the movements of
\nthe nature.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\nDesire takes a long time to get rid of entirely. But, if you can once get it out
\nof the nature and realise it as a force coming from outside and putting its
\nclaws into the vital and physical, it will be easier to get rid of the invader.
\nYou are too accustomed to feel it as part of yourself or planted in you\u2014that
\nmakes it more difficult for you to deal with its movements and dismiss its
\nancient control over you.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nYou should not rely on anything else alone, however helpful it may seem, but
\nchiefly, primarily, fundamentally on the Mother’s Force. The Sun and the Light
\nmay be a help, and will be if it is the true Light and the true Sun, but cannot
\ntake the place of the Mother’s Force.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is good. No one can easily get rid of desires. What has first to be done is
\nto exteriorize them, to push them out, on the surface and get the inner parts
\nquiet and clear. Afterwards they can be thrown out and replaced by the true
\nthing, a happy and luminous will one with the Divine’s.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe necessities <\/i>of a sadhak should be as few as possible; for there are
\nonly a very few things that are real necessities in life. The rest are either
\nutilities or things decorative to life or luxuries. These a yogin has a right to
\npossess or enjoy only on one of two conditions\u2014\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\n(1) If he uses them during his sadhana solely to train himself in possessing
\nthings without attachment or desire and learn to use them rightly, in harmony
\nwith the Divine Will, with a proper handling, a just organisation, arrangement
\nand measure\u2014or,\n<\/p>\n

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\n(2) if he has already attained a true freedom from desire and attachment and is
\nnot in the least moved or affected in any way by loss or withholding or
\ndeprival. If he has any greed, desire, demand, claim for possession or
\nenjoyment, any anxiety, grief, anger or vexation when denied or deprived, he is
\nnot free in spirit and his use of the things he possesses is contrary to the
\nspirit of sadhana. Even if he is free in spirit, he will not be fit for
\npossession if he has not learned to use things not for himself, but for the
\nDivine Will, as an instrument, with the right knowledge and action in the use,
\nfor the proper equipment of a life lived not for oneself but for and in the
\nDivine.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nWhether ascetic or non-ascetic, the yogi, the sadhak must become free from vital
\ndesire and spiritually master of the movements of his nature\u2014and for that he
\nmust be free from ego and desire and duality. I have always made that quite
\nclear\u2014that indulgence of desire is no more part of this yoga than it is of
\nSannyasa. One must be able to use and handle physical things and physical life,
\nbut from the spiritual consciousness, not from the level of the vital ego.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nAll belongs to the Divine\u2014there must be no ego or desire\u2014 only the Divine and
\nits Light, Knowledge, Power, Ananda, action. But all this must come from above,
\nnot from the mixed lower cosmic forces.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

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\n

\n

     After realisation
\nwhatever the higher Will demands is the best\u2014 but first, detachment is the rule.
\nTo reach the freedom without the discipline and development is given to few.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIf you want to do yoga, you must take more and more in all matters, small or
\ngreat, the yogic attitude. In our path that attitude is not one of forceful
\nsuppression, but of detachment and equality with regard to the objects of
\ndesire. Forceful suppression (fasting comes under the head) stands on the same
\nlevel as free indulgence; in both cases, the desire remains: in the one it is
\nfed by indulgence, in the other it lies latent and exasperated by suppression.
\nIt is only when one stands back, separates oneself from the lower vital,
\nrefusing to regard its desires and clamours as one’s own, and cultivates an
\nentire equality and equanimity in the consciousness with respect to them that
\nthe lower vital itself becomes gradually purified and itself also calm and
\nequal. Each wave of desire as it comes must be observed, as quietly and with as
\nmuch unmoved detachment as you would observe something going on outside you, and
\nmust be allowed to pass, rejected from the consciousness, and the true movement,
\nthe true consciousness steadily put in its place.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is true that the mere suppression or holding down of desire is not enough,
\nnot by itself truly effective, but that does not mean that desires are to be
\nindulged; it means that desires have not merely to be suppressed, but to be
\nrejected from the nature. In place of desire there must be a single-minded
\naspiration towards the Divine.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nAs for love, the love must be turned singly towards the Divine.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n

\n

     
\nWhat men call by that name is a vital interchange for mutual satisfaction of
\ndesire, vital impulse or physical pleasure. There must be nothing of this
\ninterchange between sadhaks; for to seek for it or indulge this kind of impulse
\nonly leads away from the sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nYour theory is a mistaken one. The free expression of a passion may relieve the
\nvital for a time, but at the same time it gives it a right to return always. It
\nis not reduced at all. Suppression with inner indulgence in subtle forms is not
\na cure, but expression in outer indulgence is still less a cure. It is perfectly
\npossible to go on without manifestation if one is resolute to arrive at a
\ncomplete control, the control being not a mere suppression but an inner and
\nouter rejection.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nYou do not seem to have a correct idea of the nature of vital desire. Vital
\ndesire grows by being indulged, it does not become satisfied. If your desire
\nwere indulged, it would begin to grow more and more and ask for more and more.
\nThat has been our constant experience with the sadhaks and it confirms what has
\nalways been known about desire. Desire and envy have to be thrown out of the
\nconsciousness\u2014there is no other way to deal with them.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nNot necessarily suppression, if the refusal of food [to a desire] is accompanied
\nby detachment in the major part of the being. The difference between suppression
\n(nigraha) <\/i>and self-control (samyama) <\/i>is that one says "I cannot help
\ndesiring but I will\n<\/p>\n

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\n

\n

\n

not satisfy my desire",
\nwhile the other says "I refuse the desire as well as the satisfaction of the
\ndesire".\n<\/p>\n

 \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nEverything which it hankers after is desirable to the vital\u2014but the desire has
\nto be rejected. "I won’t desire" is quite the right thing to say, even if "I
\ndon’t desire" cannot yet be said by the vital. Still there is something in the
\nbeing that can even say "I don’t desire" and refuse to recognise the vital
\ndesire as part of the true being. It is that consciousness which the peace and
\npower bring that has to be recognised as the true "I" and made permanent in
\nfront.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is always the habit of the vital being to find out things by which it
\npersuades the mind and justifies its desires; and circumstances usually shape
\nthemselves to justify it still further. For what we have within us creates the
\ncircumstances outside us. What matters is that you should take inwardly a
\ndifferent position in the future.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nOf course\u2014the vital is insatiable. There are only two things that interfere with
\nit\u2014the limitations of the body and the disapprobation of the mind\u2014but the latter
\nis not always there. There is also of course the possibility of the psychic
\ninterfering, but to that the vital becomes pervious only at a certain stage. It
\nis therefore the body that is the only check for most people.\n<\/p>\n

 \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is difficult to get rid of desires altogether <\/i>all at once\u2014if the right
\nones have the upper hand, that already makes the ultimate\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

\nPage-487<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

victory sure. Therefore
\ndon’t allow that to trouble you. A progressive change is the way these things
\nwork out\u2014and if the progress has begun, then there can be a fundamental sense of
\ncertitude about the outcome of the sadhana and a quiet view upon what has to be
\ndone because it is sure to be done.\n<\/p>\n

  \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe vision simply means that when you clutch at anything and try to make it your
\nown with an egoistic sense of possession, then however beautiful and wonderful
\nit may be, it loses its value and becomes ordinary.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is often the experience that when one gives up the insistence of desire for a
\nthing, then the thing itself comes. The right attitude is to wait on the Divine
\nWill and seek that only\u2014desire always creates perturbation and even its
\nfulfilment does not satisfy. Aspiration is a different thing. The oscillation
\nbetween the two conditions you speak of, is the sign of a struggle in the
\nphysical consciousness\u2014it must end by the Peace and Power fixing itself there,
\nthen the other will disappear.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt should be quite clear to you what the two opposite things are, the two things
\nwith which every sadhak is faced. One is the vehemence of earthly egoistic
\ndesire which brings only confusion and suffering and the other is the peace,
\nforce, joy, light of understanding which is the divine in you and which we are
\nstriving to establish in you. When you put yourself on the right side, things
\nbecome easy; when you hesitate, and are divided, there is a double state; when
\nsomething in you receives and clings to the desires\n<\/p>\n

   <\/p>\n

\nPage-488<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

then all goes wrong. You
\nmust <\/i>learn to put always the weight of your choice on the right side.
\nCertainly I shall do all to get the wrong will changed and the right one put in
\nits place\u2014whatever is the resistance or difficulty, that I shall do always.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe fear is again that of the physical consciousness or of the vital element in
\nit\u2014it is afraid if it gives up desire that it will lose everything\u2014or everything
\nit <\/i>wants\u2014and gain nothing in exchange or at least nothing it <\/i>wants.
\nIt does not realise that it will get something far greater and more powerful and
\nhappy in place of this troubled desire and its doubtful and precarious fruits
\n\u2014for it has been accustomed to think of desire as the only possible motive of
\nlife. It does not know that the divine Force is there waiting to descend with
\nits light and peace and joy bringing much greater things and a happier life.
\nWhen this part can be enlightened and persuaded to want whole-heartedly the
\nchange, then a great difficulty, indeed the central difficulty will have gone.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is the old vital nature that feels its human worldly desires will not be
\nsatisfied and feels like this. All that has not to be indulged but rejected and
\nswept aside. In its place must come the wideness in which there is a
\nself-existent peace and satisfaction and into that peace and wideness must come
\nthe Mother’s greater peace, force, fight, knowledge, Ananda.\n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThere was and is the opening before you of a new stage in your spiritual
\ndevelopment. For it to realise itself you must progress first in two directions.
\nThe first we have already pressed on you<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\nPage-489<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

 \u2014the surmounting of those
\nvital desires which linked you to the lower movements and invited the pressure
\nof a hostile Force on your lower vital and your body, and the complete surrender
\nof life and body to the One alone. The other is the descent of a full calm and
\nstrength and equanimity into these parts so that you may conquer life and its
\ndifficulties and do your work for the Divine. This calm and strength had often
\ndescended into your mind and higher vital, but these other parts were still open
\nto much weakness and attachment and a self-indulgent movement. That must go if
\none wants to become a hero and master of spiritual action. In your life at your
\nprevious place these things were too much sheltered and allowed to remain; at
\nyour present place you have a chance to be by yourself with the Divine Force and
\nlook life in the face from the soul’s inner strength and become master of
\ncircumstances. Outer difficulties or inconveniences you should not allow to
\nalarm or depress you. Inner difficulties should also be met with detachment,
\ncalm, equality, the unshakable will to conquer.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nAs for the rest you have rightly said, "I must preserve my equanimity and a
\nfaith in Divine Guidance when falsehood or any trouble or difficulty confronts
\nme." The defect that opened the way to the bodily and other troubles was the
\nfaltering in your resolution to conquer the vital and follow the straight and
\nhigh path and the consequent violent despair and depression it brought in its
\nwake. Let these disappear altogether and do not allow them to rise in that way
\nagain. The path of spiritual calm and strength and the consecration of all your
\nforces to the Divine is the one safe way for you and that you must now
\nconsistently follow.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\nPage-490<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

     
\nIt is again the old vain imagination prompted by an uprising of the dissatisfied
\ndesires of the vital nature. Evidently, the wrong attitude of desire must have
\nbeen waiting for its opportunity and it gave the opportunity also for the old
\nvital to rise and indulge in its accustomed movements. It is also evident that
\nit was the pressure of the desire coming up from below that removed the Ananda.
\nThe psychic Ananda and the desire of the complaining and clamouring vital cannot
\ngo together; if desire comes up, the Ananda is obliged to draw back\u2014unless you
\nreject the desir in time and refuse to make any compromise with it. Especially
\nwhen the Mother was giving you wideness and peace and intense Ananda, it was
\nirrational in the extreme to give room to an external desire and sacrifice all
\nthat for its sake.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nTo yield to depression when things go wrong is the worst way of meeting the
\ndifficulty. There must be some desire or demand within you, conscious or
\nsubconscious, that gets excited and revolts against its not being satisfied. The
\nbest way is to be conscious of it, face it calmly and steadily throw it out.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIf the lower vital (not the mind only) could permanently make up its mind that
\nall desire and demand are contrary to the Truth and no longer call for them,
\nthese things would lose very soon their force of return.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nSaturate your mind and vital with the Truth and remain calm and still. It is
\nfrom unsatisfied desire that all suffering arises; take your stand on a calm
\nfree from desire. When that has come, all else of the Divine Truth, Love and
\nAnanda can come and stand securely upon it.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\nPage-491<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

     
\nYou have done righty about the things. These small desires obstruct greatly the
\nchange in the outer consciousness and the being must be free from them if the
\ntransformation is not to be hampered there.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is the vital-physical that receives these suggestions and obeys these
\ndesires. What you have to do is to get the consciousness down into the whole of
\nthe vital proper so that not only the mind but the vital itself will reject
\nthese desires. In that case, the vital-physical desires will lose half their
\nforce.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIf the peace and power that were acting on the head and in the chest, have come
\ndown into the stomach and below, that would indicate that they are no longer
\nonly acting on the mind and emotional being only, but fully on the vital
\nalso\u2014that is a great progress.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe desires you refer to are those of the vital-physical in the subtle physical
\nconsciousness\u2014impulse to talk, essential hunger, thirst, etc. Peace and quietude
\nfull in the vital-physical and subtle physical and down even in the lowest
\nlevels, are necessary for the whole change to be made. The heat of which you
\nspeak is that of this subtle principle of vital-physical desire which exists for
\nits own sake, not for the real needs of the body\u2014 that is why physical
\nsatisfaction does not diminish it.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is the small habits of the lower vital being which gather all their strength
\nto resist correction and try to occupy the\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

\nPage-492<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

consciousness. When they
\ncome you must learn to detach your inner consciousness from them entirely so
\nthat even when they strongly come they will not be able to occupy the
\nconsciousness or get any assent.\n<\/p>\n

    \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe vital in the physical easily slips back to its
\nold small habits if it gets a chance. It is there that they stick. T hey go
\nentirely only when that part gets equanimity and a simple natural freedom from
\nall desires.<\/p>\n

<\/font><\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

      These
\nhabits of the physical-vital are almost automatic
\nin their action and it takes either a very strong will or a persistent effort of
\nself-discipline to get out this automatic, almost reflex action. You should not
\ntherefore be discouraged by the difficulty, but go on with the necessary
\nperseverance of the will to press it out of existence.<\/font><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

      X
\n<\/b>\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

      The
\nfact that the anger comes with such force is itself
\nenough to show that it is not in you that it is but that it comes from outside .
\nIt is a rush of force from the universal Nature that tries to take possession of
\nthe individual being and make that being act according to the will of this
\noutside force and not according to the will of the soul within. These things
\ncome in the course of the sadhana because the sadhak is liberating himself<\/p>\n

<\/font><\/p>\n

  \n<\/p>\n

Page-493<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

from the lower nature and
\ntrying to turn towards the Mother and live in her divine consciousness and the
\nhigher nature. The forces of the lower nature do not want that and so they make
\nthese rushes in order to recover their rule. It is necessary when that comes, to
\nremain quiet within remembering the Mother or calling her and reject the anger
\nor whatever else comes, whenever it comes or however often it comes. If that is
\ndone, then these forces begin to lose their power to invade. It is easier if one
\ndearly feels them to be outside forces and foreign to oneself; but even if you
\ncannot feel that yet when they enter, still the mind must keep that idea and
\nrefuse to accept them as any longer a part of the nature. The idea of the Mother
\nbeing severe was of course a suggestion that came with the invading force so as
\nto help it to enter. Such suggestions come to many sadhaks (though not so many
\nas before) at Pranam and is the cause to them of much disturbance. Such
\nsuggestions must be firmly rejected at once.\n<\/p>\n

    \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

     
\nIn fact <\/font>all <\/font>
\nthese ignorant vital movements originate from
\noutside in the ignorant universal Nature; the human being forms in his
\nsuperficial parts of being, mental, vital, physical, a habit of certain
\nresponses to these waves from outside. It is these responses that he takes as
\nhis own character (anger, desire, sex etc.) and thinks he cannot be otherwise.
\nBut that is not so; he can change. There is another consciousness deeper within
\nhim, his true inner being, which is his real self. but is covered over by the
\nsuperficial nature. This the ordinary man does not know, but the yogi becomes
\naware of it as he progresses in his sadhana. As the consciousness of this inner
\nbeing increases by sadhana, the surface nature and its responses are pushed out
\nand can be<\/p>\n

<\/font><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\nPage-494<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

got rid of altogether. But
\nthe ignorant universal Nature does not want to let go and throws the old
\nmovements on the sadhak and tries to get them inside again; owing to a habit the
\nsuperficial nature gives the old responses. If one can get the firm knowledge
\nthat these things are from outside and not a real part of oneself, then it is
\neasier for the sadhak to repel such returns, or if they lay hold, he can get rid
\nof them sooner. That is why I say repeatedly that these things rose not in
\nyourself, but from outside.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nI think you have always had an idea that to give
\nexpression to an impulse or a movement is the best way or even the only way to
\nget rid of it. But that is a mistaken idea. If you give expression to anger, you
\nprolong or confirm the habit of the recurrence of anger; you do not diminish or
\nget rid of the habit. The very first step towards weakening the power of anger
\nin the nature and afterwards getting rid of it altogether is to refuse all
\nexpression to it in act or speech. Afterwards one can go on with more likelihood
\nof success to throw it out from the thought and feeling also. And so with all
\nother wrong movements.<\/font><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nAll these movements come from outside, from the universal lower Nature, or are
\nsuggested or thrown upon you by adverse forces\u2014adverse to your spiritual
\nprogress. Your method of taking them as your own is again a wrong method; for by
\ndoing that you increase their power to recur and take hold of you. If you take
\nthem as your own, that gives them a kind of right to be there. If you feel them
\nas not <\/i>your own, then they have no right, and the will can develop more
\npower to send them away. What you must always have and feel as yours is this
\nwill, the power to refuse assent, to refuse admission to a wrong movement. Or if
\nit comes in, the power to send it away, without expressing it.\n<\/p>\n

     \n<\/p>\n

\nPage-495<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

      
\nOf course the best way will be if you can keep the contact more with the Mother
\nand her Light and Force and receive and accept and follow only what comes from
\nthat higher force.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is really simply the recurrence of an old habit of the nature. Look at it and
\nsee how trifling is the occasion of the rising of this anger and its outburst\u2014it
\nbecomes more and more causeless\u2014 and the absurdity of such movements itself. It
\nwould not really be difficult to get rid of it if, when it comes, you looked at
\nit calmly\u2014for it is perfectly possible to stand back in one part of the being,
\nobserving in a detached equanimity even while the anger rises on the surface\u2014as
\nif it were someone else in your being who had the anger. The difficulty is that
\nyou get alarmed and upset and that makes it easier for the thing to get hold of
\nyour mind which it should not do.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nHelp we are giving you\u2014stand back so as to be able to feel it and not this
\nobsession of these surface movements.\n<\/p>\n

 \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThat is the right thing that must happen always when anger or anything else
\nrises. The psychic reply must become habitual pointing out that anger is neither
\nright nor helpful and then the being must draw back from these outward things
\nand take its stand in its inner self, detach from all these things and people.
\nIt is this detachment that is the first thing that must be gained by the sadhak\u2014he
\nmust cease to live in these outward things and live in his inner being. The more
\nthat is done the more there is a release and peacefulness. Afterwards when one
\nis secure in this inner being, the right thing to do, the right way to deal with
\nmen and things will begin to come.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\nPage-496<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

    
\n"When it is the psychic that rules all the movements of the being, then it
\n[anger] completely disappears and when the equanimity of the higher
\nconsciousness takes complete possession of the lower vital. Till then one can
\nestablish control, diminish and reduce it to a touch that has no outward effect
\nor a wave that passes without life-expression.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nYes, certainly. Infinite peace, universal love can remove anger \u2014if they are
\ncomplete and stable.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is true that anger and strife are in the nature of the human vital and do not
\ngo easily; but what is important is to have the will to change, and the clear
\nperception that these things must go. If that will and perception are there,
\nthen in the end they will go. The most important help to it is, here also, for
\nthe psychic being to grow within\u2014for that brings a certain kindliness, patience,
\ncharity towards all and one no longer regards everything from the point of view
\nof one’s own ego and its pain or pleasure, likings and dislikings. The second
\nhelp is the growth of the inner peace which outward things cannot trouble. With
\nthe peace comes a calm wideness in which one perceives all as one self, all
\nbeings as the children of the Mother and the Mother dwelling in oneself and in
\nall. It is that towards which your sadhana will move, for these are the things
\nwhich come with the growth of the psychic and spiritual consciousness. Then
\nthese troubled reactions to outward things will no longer come.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is indeed when the quietude comes down from above or comes out from the
\npsychic that the vital becomes full of peace or of\n<\/p>\n

  \n<\/p>\n

\nPage-497<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

kindliness and goodwill. It
\nis therefore that the inner psychic quietude first and afterwards the peace from
\nabove must occupy the whole being. Otherwise such things as anger in the vital
\ncan be controlled but it is difficult to get rid of them altogether without this
\noccupation by the inner quietude and higher peace. That you should depend on the
\nMother for the sadhana is the best attitude, for it is indeed her Force that
\ndoes the sadhana in you.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThese things, hard forms of speech, anger etc. are habits formed by the
\nvital-physical consciousness and, as they are supported by the subconscient,
\nvery difficult to change. If one can conquer or change them by force of will or
\nmental or spiritual control, so much the better. But if one cannot do this at
\nonce, one must not be upset or think oneself unfit. It is easier for most to
\nrealise the Divine or enter into the psychic consciousness than to change this
\npart of the nature; but once the psychic consciousness governs or the higher
\nconsciousness descends then it is much easier for these to go. You must not
\ntherefore be discouraged by these recurrences or persistences, but try always to
\nstand back in an inner quietude and if they come let them pass away like a cloud
\nacross the light. In time these things will be finally dealt with by the Force.\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is indeed a very good sign that the anger when it comes is brief and subdued
\nand no longer expressed in the outward\u2014for that is one very marked stage always
\nof the rejection of something not wanted by the nature. It comes still but it
\nhas no longer the old force, duration, intensity, completeness. The\n<\/p>\n

   \n<\/p>\n

\nPage-498<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

externalised condition is
\noften used to show or test the progress made in the outer nature itself, for
\nwhen one is entirely within these outward movements remain quiescent, so the
\nextent to which they are changed cannot be so easily measured. But of course it
\nis the going inward that most helps to deliver the nature.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIf the anger did not come, it must be because the vital force of the attack is
\ndiminishing and it must be more in the physical mind and the external (physical)
\nvital that it acts. You have a great strength for action; as for the inner
\ngrowth and action of the sadhana you have a strength there too of the psychic
\nand the vital,\u2014it is only the external being that finds these difficulties in
\nits way and is momentarily overcome or affected by them. Things always come in
\nthe way when one wants to progress in the sadhana, but in the end if one is
\nsincere in one’s aspiration these troubles help to prepare the victory of the
\nsoul over all that opposes.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe inner will prevails sometimes, sometimes it does not prevail for the time
\nbeing. That is quite normal. It depends on certain conditions which the physical
\nmind does not see. As one grows in knowledge, one becomes aware of these unseen
\nconditions and understands better what happens.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe fire is always the fire of purification\u2014it is very red when it is acting on
\nthe vital; when the vital no longer covers the psychic, then the rose colour of
\nthe psychic comes out more and more.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe house you saw is the new building of the nature, especially in the vital,
\nwhich is being prepared by the sadhana.\n<\/p>\n

    \n<\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\nPage-499<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

    
\nThe reason why quietness is not yet fixed and anger returns is that you allow
\nyour physical mind to become active. In regard to the sadhana it begins to think
\nthere is this defect in you and that defect and therefore the sadhana does not
\nbecome immediately effective and perfect. This makes the vital nervous or
\ndespondent and in the despondency a state of irritation arises. At the same time
\nthis mind becomes active as it has now with regard to X or begins to judge and
\ncriticise and this too leads to nervousness and irritation. These things belong
\nto the old mind you are trying to leave and therefore stand in the way of
\nconcentration and quietude. They should be stopped at their root by rejecting
\nthe suggestions of the physical mind as soon as they begin. A new consciousness
\nis coming based upon inner silence and quietude. You must wait quietly for that
\nto develop. True knowledge, true perceptions of people and things will come in
\nthat new silent consciousness. The mind’s view of people and things must
\nnecessarily be either limited and defective or erroneous\u2014 to go on judging by it
\nis now a waste of time. Wait for the new consciousness to develop and show you
\nall in a new and true light. Then the tendency to anger which arises from this
\nmind and is a violent impatience directed against things the mind and vital do
\nnot like, would have no ground to rise at all\u2014or if it rose without cause could
\nbe more easily rejected. Rely for the sadhana on the Mother’s grace and her
\nForce, yourself remembering always to keep only two things, quietude and
\nconfidence. For things and people, leave them to the Mother also; as you have
\ndifficulties in your nature, so they have too; but to deal with them needs
\ninsight, sympathy, patience.\n<\/p>\n

     
\nAbout the attachment to things, the physical rejection of them is not the best
\nway to get rid of it. Accept what is given you, ask for what is needed and think
\nno more of it\u2014attaching no<\/p>\n

 \n<\/p>\n

\nPage-500<\/font><\/p>\n

\n

\n

\n

 importance, using
\nthem when you have, not troubled if you have not. That is the best way of
\ngetting rid of the attachment.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIf you look closely, you will see that all these things\u2014the rudeness of one, the
\nanger of another\u2014are exceedingly slight things which should be received with
\nindifference. Do not allow them to trouble you so much. The one thing of supreme
\nimportance is your sadhana and your spiritual growth. Let nothing touch or
\ndisturb that.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 *                                                            
\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe Essays on the Gita <\/i>explain the ordinary Karmayoga as developed in the
\nGita, in which the work done is the ordinary work of human life with only an
\ninward change. There too the violence to be used is not a personal violence done
\nfrom egoistic motives, but part of the ordered system of social life. Nothing
\ncan spiritually justify individual violence done in anger or passion or from any
\nvital motive. In our yoga our object is to rise higher than the ordinary life of
\nmen and in it violence has to be left aside altogether.\n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\nAn inner psychic or spiritual change is not brought about by violence. It is not
\na change of conduct that has to be done in the sadhaks, but a change of soul and
\nspirit governing the mind and vital and body instead of the mind and vital
\ngoverning. Violence is the drastic contradiction of that; it makes mental egoism
\nand vital passion and fury or else cruelty the rulers. Violence in ordinary
\nNature does not justify violence in spiritual work.\n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\nIn <\/b>all things there must be a control over
\nthought and speech also. But while rajasic violence is excluded, a calmly
\nforceful severity of thought and speech where severity is needed is sometimes
\nindispensable.<\/font><\/p>\n

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\n XI <\/b>\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is true that what one fears has the tendency to come until one is able to
\nlook it in the face and overcome one’s shrinking. One must learn to take one’s
\nfoundation on the Divine and overcome the fear, relying on the help to carry one
\nthrough all things even unpleasant and adverse. There is a Force that works even
\nthrough them for the seeker and carries him towards his goal.\n<\/p>\n

 \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\nYes fear creates imaginary terrors-even if there is
\nreal danger, fear does not help; it clouds the intelligence, takes away presence
\nof mind and prevents one seeing the right thing to do.<\/font><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nLet the Force at work increase, till it clears out the mixed consciousness
\naltogether.\n<\/p>\n

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\nIt is a mistake to think that by fearing or being
\nunhappy you can progress. Fear is always a feeling to be rejected, because what
\nyou fear is just the thing that is likely to come to you: fear attracts the
\nobject of fear. Unhappiness weakens the strength and lays one more open to the
\ncauses of unhappiness.<\/font><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nOne can be quiet, happy, cheerful without being all that in a light or shallow
\nway\u2014and the happiness need not bring any vital reaction. All that you need to do
\nis to be observant and vigilant, \u2014watchful so that you may not give assent to
\nwrong movements\n<\/p>\n

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or the return of the old
\nfeelings, darkness, confusion, etc. If you remain vigilant, then with the
\nincrease of the Force upholding you, a power of self-control will come, a power
\nto see and reject the wrong turn or the wrong reaction when it comes. Fear and
\nunhappiness will not give you that. It is only by this vigilance accompanied by
\nan opening to the supporting and guiding Force that it will come. What you
\ndescribe as a capacity to choose the right and the feeling of strength or power
\nthat can stop the wrong movement and take the right one as soon as it recognises
\nthem is just this control and vigilance. It is by this control and vigilance
\nsupported by the Force that you can prevent the love and devotion too from being
\nmixed with or replaced by selfish desires and impurities. The more you open, the
\nmore this power will increase in you.\n<\/p>\n

    \n<\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\n[Ways to remove fear:] By bringing down strength
\nand calm into the lower vital (region below the navel). Also by will and
\nimposing calm on the system when the fear arises. <\/font>It
\n<\/font>can be done in either way or both together.<\/font><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\nThere is no fear in the higher Nature. Fear is a creation of the vital plane, an
\ninstinct of the ignorance, a sense of danger with a violent vital reaction that
\nreplaces and usually prevents or distorts the intelligence of things. It might
\nalmost be considered as an invention of the hostile forces.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\n   XII <\/b>\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nJealousy should not be there if there is no ground for it, for then it is absurd
\nand meaningless\u2014but also when there is reason\n<\/p>\n

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for it according to common
\nstandards, it should not be there,, for it is a sentiment lacking in nobility
\nand quite un-yogic.\n<\/p>\n

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\nAs for getting rid of lobha, <\/i>certainly the Mother’s full help-will be
\nwith you.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIt is of course the old reaction\u2014jealousy is certainly there, or you would not
\nfeel this violent sorrow. That it subsists still in the recesses and rises with
\nsuch vehemence shows how deeply rooted this movement was in your physical
\nconsciousness. You have not been able to root it out because when it comes you
\nassociate yourself entirely with it and abandon yourself to its outcries and
\nviolence. You must have the strength to stand back from it in that part of your
\nnature which is free\u2014only then will you be able to push it away from you; and it
\nis only if it is pushed away from you each time it rises that it will consent to
\ndisappear and return no more. As for our support and help it is there, but you
\nmust remain conscious of it\u2014and you must not allow any wrong ideas like those of
\nthis morning to diminish the sense of unity and contact with the Mother.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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\n*<\/b><\/p>\n

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\nI do not see why you make such a big difference between the quarrels and
\njealousy over other women and quarrels and jealousy over other attractions not
\nof a sexual character. They both spring from the same primary impulse, the
\npossessive instinct which is at the base of ordinary vital love. In the latter
\ncase, as often sexual jealousy is not possible, the mind supports itself on
\nother motives which seem to it quite reasonable and justifiable\u2014it may not be
\nconscious that it is being pushed by the vital, but the quarrels and the
\nvivacity of the disagreement are there all the same.\n<\/p>\n

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\nWhether you had or had not both forms of it, is not very material and does not
\nmake things better or worse. It is the getting rid of the instinct itself that
\nmatters, whether from the psychological point of view or from that of a
\nspiritual change.\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nThe one thing that is of any importance is the fact that the old personality
\nwhich you were throwing out has reasserted itself for the moment, as you
\nyourself see. It has confused your mind, otherwise you would not ask the
\nquestion whether it is there still and how that agrees with my description of
\nyour aspiration and glimpse of turning entirely to the Mother as true and real.
\nOf course, they were true and real and sincere and they are still there even if
\nfor a moment clouded over. You know well enough by this time that the whole
\nbeing is not one block so that if one part changes, all changes miraculously at
\nthe same time. Something of the old things may be there submerged and rise up
\nagain if the pressure and fixed resolution to get rid of them slackens. I do not
\nknow to what you refer when you speak of the statement that\u2014"Light and Darkness,
\nTruth and Falsehood cannot dwell together"; but certainly it can only mean that
\nin the spiritual endeavour one cannot allow them to dwell together, \u2014the Light,
\nthe Truth must be kept, the Darkness, the falsehood or error pushed out
\naltogether. It certainly did not mean that in human beings there can be either
\nonly all light or only all darkness and whoever has any weakness in him has no
\nlight and no sincere aspiration and no truth in his nature. If that were so,
\nyoga would be impossible. All the sadhaks in this Ashram would be convicted of
\ninsincerity and of having no true sadhana\u2014 for who is there in whom there is no
\nobscurity and no movement of ignorance?\n<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

     
\nIf you have fallen down from the consciousness you had, it is because instead of
\ndismissing the dispute with X as a moment’s\n<\/p>\n

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movement, you begin to
\nbrood on it and prolong the wrong turn it gave. It is no use persisting in the
\nfeelings that it creates in you. You have only to do what I have been trying to
\ntell you. Draw back from them and, having seen what is there in the nature,
\ndismiss them quietly and turn back again to the true consciousness, opening
\nyourself to receive once more the Truth that is creating you anew and let it
\ncome down into all your nature.\n<\/p>\n

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