{"id":3924,"date":"2013-07-13T01:52:14","date_gmt":"2013-07-13T01:52:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost\/?p=3924"},"modified":"2013-07-13T01:52:14","modified_gmt":"2013-07-13T01:52:14","slug":"08-april-1914-vol-01-prayers-and-meditations-volume-01","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/02-works-of-the-mother\/01-cwmce\/01-prayers-and-meditations-volume-01\/08-april-1914-vol-01-prayers-and-meditations-volume-01","title":{"rendered":"-08_April 1914.htm"},"content":{"rendered":"<table border=\"0\" cellpadding=\"6\" style=\"border-collapse: collapse\" width=\"100%\">\n<tr>\n<td>\n<div class=\"Section1\">\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n<b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 1, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 1, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 1, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>I feel we have entered the very heart of Thy sanctuary and grown aware<br \/>\nof Thy very will. A great joy, a deep peace reign in me, and yet all my inner<br \/>\nconstructions have vanished like a vain dream and I find myself now, before Thy<br \/>\nimmensity, without a frame or system, like a being not yet individualised. All<br \/>\nthe past in its external form seems ridiculously arbitrary to me, and yet I<br \/>\nknow it was useful in its own time. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>But now all is changed: a new stage has begun.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>14<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 2, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 2, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 2, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>Every day, when I want to write, I am interrupted, as though the new<br \/>\nperiod opening now before us were a period of expansion rather than of<br \/>\nconcentration. It is in the activity of each moment that we must serve Thee and<br \/>\nidentify ourselves with Thee rather than in deep and silent contemplation or in<br \/>\nmeditation, written or unwritten. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>But my heart does not tire of singing a hymn to Thee and my thought is<br \/>\nconstantly filled with Thee.&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>15<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 3, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 3, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 3, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>It seems to me that I am being born to a new life and all the methods,<br \/>\nthe habits of the past can no longer be of any use. It seems to me that what I<br \/>\nthought were results is nothing more than a preparation. I feel as though I<br \/>\nhave done nothing yet, as though I have not lived the spiritual life, only<br \/>\nentered the path that leads to it, it seems to me that I know nothing, that I<br \/>\nam incapable of formulating anything, that all experience is yet to begin. It<br \/>\nis as though I were stripped of my entire past, of its errors as well as its<br \/>\nconquests, as though all that has vanished and made room for a new-born child<br \/>\nwhose whole existence is yet to be lived, who has no Karma, no experience to<br \/>\nlearn from, but no error either which has to be set right. My head is empty of<br \/>\nall knowledge and all certitude, but also of all vain thought. I feel that if I<br \/>\nlearn how to surrender without any resistance to this state, if I do not try to<br \/>\nknow or understand, if I consent to be completely like an ignorant and candid<br \/>\nchild, some new possibility will open before me. I know that I must now<br \/>\ndefinitively give myself up and be like an absolutely blank page on which Thy<br \/>\nthought, Thy will, O Lord, can be inscribed freely without danger of any<br \/>\ndeformation.&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\nAn immense gratitude rises from my heart, it seems to me that I have at<br \/>\nlast reached the threshold I sought so much.<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>Grant, O Lord, that I may be sufficiently pure,<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>16<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\nimpersonal, animated with Thy divine love to be able to cross it definitively. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>Oh, to belong to Thee without any darkness, without any restriction!<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Page &#8211; 1<\/span><span style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>17<\/span><\/font><\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 4, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 4, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 4, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"4\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<b>\u00a0<\/b><\/font><\/span><font size=\"4\"><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>O<\/span><\/font><span><font size=\"4\"><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'> Lord<\/span><\/font><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>,<\/span><\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'> my adoration rises ardently to Thee, all my being is an<br \/>\naspiration, a flame consecrated to Thee. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<br \/>\n<\/span>Lord, Lord, my sweet Master, it is Thou who <span class=\"SpellE\">livest<\/span><br \/>\nand <span class=\"SpellE\">willest<\/span> in me! <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"line-height: 150%;margin: 0\"><span><span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>This body is Thy instrument; this will is<br \/>\nThy servant; this intelligence is Thy tool; and the whole being is only<br \/>\nThyself.&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>18<\/p>\n<hr>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:left;line-height:150%'>\n<b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 7, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\nApril 7, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 7, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"> <\/font> <\/a> <\/span><\/b><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:left;line-height:150%'>\n&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>What kind of courage is mine that I always try to avoid the fight? What<br \/>\nkind of energy is mine, that I am instinctively frightened of the new effort to<br \/>\nbe made and try, without being aware of it, to go to sleep passively, relying<br \/>\nupon the results of previous efforts? In order to act, I have to be compelled<br \/>\nand my mute contemplation is partly made of laziness&#8230;. All this is becoming<br \/>\nmore and more clearly apparent to me. All that I have done till now seems to me<br \/>\nto be nothing. The poverty and limitations of the instrument I put at Thy<br \/>\nservice, Lord, are evident to me, and I laugh a little sorrowfully at the idea<br \/>\nthat at times I could have a good opinion of my being, its efforts and their<br \/>\nresults. This threshold of the true life that I always think I have reached is<br \/>\nlike a hope bestowed upon me but never a tangible realisation; it is the toy<br \/>\npromised to a child, the reward held out for a moment before the weak. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>When shall I become a truly strong being, made entirely of courage,<br \/>\nenergy, valour and calm perseverance; when shall I have forgotten my own person<br \/>\ncompletely enough to be nothing but an instrument moulded solely by the forces<br \/>\nit has to manifest? When will my consciousness of unity be no longer tinged with <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>any inertia; when will my feeling of divine<br \/>\nlove be no longer mixed with any weakness? <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, all thought seems dead within me, now that I have asked these<br \/>\nquestions. I search for my conscious mind and I do not find it; I search for my<br \/>\nindividuality&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Page &#8211; 1<\/span><span style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>19<\/span><\/font><\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>and I cannot discover it anywhere; I search<br \/>\nfor my personal will and it is not there. I search for Thee, and Thou art<br \/>\nsilent&#8230;. Silence, silence&#8230;. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Now I seem to hear Thy voice: \u201cNever hast thou known how to die<br \/>\nintegrally. Always something in thee has wanted to know, to witness, to<br \/>\nunderstand. Surrender completely, learn how to disappear, break the last barrier<br \/>\nthat separates thee from me; accomplish unreservedly thy act of surrender.\u201d<br \/>\nAlas, O Lord, for a long time have I wanted it, but I could not. Now wilt Thou<br \/>\ngive me the power to do so? <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, my sweet eternal Master, break this resistance which fills me<br \/>\nwith anguish&#8230; deliver me from myself!<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>20<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 8, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 8, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Lord, my thought is calm and my heart ingathered; I turn towards Thee<br \/>\nwith a profound devotion and a boundless trust: I know that Thy love is<br \/>\nall-powerful and that Thy justice will reign over the earth; I know that the<br \/>\nhour is near when the last veil will be rent and all iniquity disappear to give<br \/>\nplace to an era of peace and harmonious effort. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, with thought rapt within and the heart at peace, I approach Thee<br \/>\nand all my being is filled with Thy divine Presence; grant that I may see Thee<br \/>\nalone in all things and that all may be resplendent with Thy divine Light. Oh,<br \/>\nmay all hatred be appeased, all rancour effaced, all fears dispelled, all<br \/>\nsuspicions destroyed, all malevolence overcome, and in this city, in this<br \/>\ncountry, upon this earth, may all hearts feel vibrating within them that sublime<br \/>\nlove, source of all transfiguration. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, how ardently do I call and implore Thy love! Grant that my<br \/>\naspiration may be intense enough to awaken the same aspiration everywhere: oh,<br \/>\nmay goodness, justice and peace reign as supreme masters, may ignorant egoism be<br \/>\novercome, darkness be suddenly illuminated by Thy pure Light; may the blind see,<br \/>\nthe deaf hear, may Thy law be proclaimed in every place and, in a constantly<br \/>\nprogressive union, in an ever more perfect harmony, may all, like one single<br \/>\nbeing, stretch out their arms towards Thee to identify themselves with Thee and<br \/>\nmanifest Thee upon earth. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span> <\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>O Lord, with thought rapt within, the heart<br \/>\nradiant with sunshine, I give myself to Thee without reservation, and the \u201cself\u201d<br \/>\ndisappears in Thee! &nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>21<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 10, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 10, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;*<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Suddenly the veil was rent, the horizon was disclosed \u2013 and before the<br \/>\nclear vision my whole being threw itself at Thy feet in a great outburst of<br \/>\ngratitude. Yet in spite of this deep and integral joy all was calm, all was<br \/>\npeaceful with the peace of eternity. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>I seem to have no more limits; there is no longer the perception of the<br \/>\nbody, no sensations, no feelings, no thoughts \u2013 a clear, pure, tranquil<br \/>\nimmensity penetrated with love and light, filled with an unspeakable beatitude<br \/>\nis all that is there and that alone seems now to be myself, and this \u201cmyself\u201d is<br \/>\nso little the former \u201cI\u201d, selfish and limited, that I cannot tell if it is I or<br \/>\nThou, O Lord, sublime Master of our destinies. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>It is as though all were energy, courage, force, will, infinite<br \/>\nsweetness, incomparable compassion&#8230;. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Even more forcibly than during these last days the past is dead and as<br \/>\nthough buried under the rays of a new life. The last glance that I have just<br \/>\nthrown backward as I read a few pages of this book definitely convinced me of<br \/>\nthis death, and lightened of a great weight I present myself before Thee, O my<br \/>\ndivine Master, with all the simplicity, all the nudity of a child&#8230;. And still<br \/>\nthe one only thing I perceive is that calm and pure immensity&#8230;. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Lord, Thou hast answered my prayer, Thou hast granted me what I have<br \/>\nasked from Thee; the \u201cI\u201d has disappeared, there is only a docile instrument put<br \/>\nat Thy service, a centre of concentration and manifestation<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>22<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>of Thy infinite and eternal rays; Thou hast<br \/>\ntaken my life and 124made it Thine; Thou hast taken my will and hast united it<br \/>\nto Thine; Thou hast taken my love and identified it with Thine; Thou hast taken<br \/>\nmy thought and replaced it by Thy absolute consciousness. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>The body, marvelling, bows its forehead in the dust in mute and<br \/>\nsubmissive adoration. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;<\/span>And<br \/>\nnothing else exists but Thou alone in the splendour of Thy immutable peace.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Page &#8211; 1<\/span><span style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>2<\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>3<\/span><\/font><\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Karikal, <\/font> <\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<a name=\"April 13, 1914\"><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">April 13, 1914<\/font><\/span><\/b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><b><font size=\"3\"> <\/font> <\/b><\/span><\/a><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Everything works together to prevent me from remaining a creature of<br \/>\nhabits, and in this new state, in the midst of these circumstances, so complex<br \/>\nand unstable, I have never before so completely lived Thy immutable peace or<br \/>\nrather the \u201cI\u201d has never before disappeared so completely that Thy divine peace<br \/>\nalone is alive there. All is beautiful, harmonious and calm, all is full of<br \/>\nThee. Thou shinest in the dazzling sun, Thou art felt in the gentle passing<br \/>\nbreeze, Thou dost manifest Thyself in all hearts and live in all beings. There<br \/>\nis not an animal, a plant that does not speak to me of Thee and Thy name is<br \/>\nwritten upon everything I see. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;<\/span><\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>O my sweet Lord, hast Thou at last granted<br \/>\nthat I may belong entirely to Thee and that my consciousness may be definitively<br \/>\nunited with Thine? What have I done to be worthy of so glorious a happiness?<br \/>\nNothing except to desire it, to want it with constancy \u2013 that is very little. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;<\/span><\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>But, O Lord, since now it is Thy will and<br \/>\nnot mine that lives in me, Thou wilt be able to make this happiness profitable<br \/>\nto all; and its very purpose will be to enable the greatest possible number of<br \/>\nbeings to perceive Thee.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Oh, may all know Thee, love Thee, serve<br \/>\nThee; may all receive the supreme consecration! <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;<\/span><\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>O Love, divine Love, spread abroad in the<br \/>\nworld, regenerate life, enlighten the intelligence, break the barriers of<br \/>\negoism, scatter the obstacles of ignorance, shine resplendent as sovereign<br \/>\nMaster of the earth.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>24<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n<b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n<font size=\"3\">Pondicherry<\/font><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">,<br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 17, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\nApril 17, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;*<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>\n&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, O almighty Master, sole Reality, grant that no error, no<br \/>\nobscurity, no fatal ignorance may creep into my heart and my thought. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\n<span style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;<\/span><\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>In action, the personality is the<br \/>\ninevitable and indispensable intermediary of Thy will and Thy forces. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>The stronger, the more complex, powerful, individualised and conscious is<br \/>\nthe personality, the more powerfully and usefully can the instrument serve. But,<br \/>\nby reason of the very character of personality, it easily tends to be drawn into<br \/>\nthe fatal illusion of its separate existence and become little by little a<br \/>\nscreen between Thee and that on which Thou willest to act. Not at the beginning,<br \/>\nin the manifestation, but in the transmission of the return; that is to say,<br \/>\ninstead of being, as a faithful servant, an intermediary who brings back to Thee<br \/>\nexactly what is Thy due \u2013 the forces sent forth in reply to Thy action, \u2013 there<br \/>\nis a tendency in the personality to want to keep for itself a part of the<br \/>\nforces, with this idea: \u201cIt is I who have done this or that, I who am<br \/>\nthanked&#8230;\u201d Pernicious illusion, obscure falsehood, now are you discovered and<br \/>\nunmasked. That is the maleficent canker corroding the fruit of the action,<br \/>\nfalsifying all its results.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>O Lord, O my sweet Master, sole Reality,<br \/>\ndispel this feeling of the \u201cI\u201d. I have now understood that so long as there will<br \/>\nbe a manifested universe, the \u201cI\u201d will remain necessary for Thy manifestation;<br \/>\nto dissolve, or even to diminish or weaken the \u201cI\u201d, is to<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>25<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>&nbsp;deprive Thee of the means of<br \/>\nmanifestation, in whole or part. But what must be radically and definitively<br \/>\nsuppressed is the illusory thought, the illusory feeling, the illusory sensation<br \/>\nof the separate \u201cI\u201d. At no moment, in no circumstances must we forget that our<br \/>\n\u201cI\u201d has no reality outside Thee. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O my sweet Master, my divine Lord, tear out from my heart this illusion<br \/>\nso that Thy servant may become pure and faithful and faithfully and integrally<br \/>\nbring back to Thee all that is Thy due. In silence let me contemplate and<br \/>\nunderstand this supreme ignorance and dispel it for ever. Chase the shadow from<br \/>\nmy heart, and let Thy light reign in it, its uncontested sovereign.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Page &#8211; 1<\/span><span style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>26<\/span><\/font><\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span style='font-family:Times New Roman' lang=\"EN-GB\"><br \/>\n<font size=\"3\">&nbsp;<\/font><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 18, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 18, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Yesterday morning the last veil was almost rent, the last stronghold of<br \/>\nthe blind and ignorant personality seemed to be on the point of yielding; for<br \/>\nthe first time I thought I had understood what true impersonal service was, and<br \/>\nthe obstacle separating me from the integral realisation seemed very fragile to<br \/>\nme, and on the point of disappearing definitively. But the necessity of my outer<br \/>\nduties tore me away from this beneficent and happy contemplation, and when I was<br \/>\nobliged to return to the outer consciousness the veil closed again and now seems<br \/>\nto me darker than ever. Why this fall into the inconscience of night after so<br \/>\ngreat a light?&#8230; <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, Lord, wilt Thou not then let me escape at last from ignorance and<br \/>\nbecome one with Thee? Now that I have known and seen so well what the work upon<br \/>\nthe earth must be, could I not realise it? Am I then riveted to ignorance and<br \/>\nillusion?&#8230; <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Why, why this night after so great and pure a light? All my being is<br \/>\ntense in a call of anguish! <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Lord, take pity on me!<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>27<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 19, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 19, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 19, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>There is a great difference between being in the midst of active work, of<br \/>\nexternal action, while keeping one&#8217;s thought constantly fixed on Thee, and<br \/>\nentering into that perfect union with Thee which leads to what I have called<br \/>\n\u201cabsolute Consciousness, true Omniscience, Knowledge\u201d. When one acts, though<br \/>\nwith the thought fixed on Thee, one is like a blind man walking on the road with<br \/>\na sense of direction, but knowing nothing about the path he is following and<br \/>\nhow, precisely, one must walk so as to neglect nothing. In the other case, on<br \/>\nthe contrary, there is the clear vision in full light, the utilisation of the<br \/>\nleast occasion, the plenitude of action, the maximum result. And if the first<br \/>\nattitude is indispensable before acquiring the other, yet at no moment must one<br \/>\ncease working, making an effort to attain perfect communion. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>But my heart is in peace, my thought free from impatience, and I entrust<br \/>\nmyself to Thy will with the smiling confidence of a child. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>May Thy peace reign over all&#8230;.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>28<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 20, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 20, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 20, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>After having hoped so much, after having believed that my outer being was<br \/>\nat last to become an instrument adapted to Thy purpose, after feeling hopeful<br \/>\nthat I would at last be delivered from this obscure and cumbersome \u201cself\u201d, I<br \/>\nfeel I am as far from the goal as before, as ignorant, as egoistic as I was<br \/>\nbefore this great expectation. And the path stretches out once again,<br \/>\ninterminable across the fields of inconscience. The sublime door has closed<br \/>\nagain and I find myself still on the threshold of the sanctuary without being<br \/>\nable to enter within. But I have learnt to look at everything with a smile and a<br \/>\ntranquil heart. I ask only this of Thee, O my divine Master, not to let me make<br \/>\nany mistakes; even if the instrument is still condemned for a time to<br \/>\nunconsciousness, grant that it may let itself be guided faithfully and docilely<br \/>\nby Thy divine law. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>I bow to Thee, O Lord, with a deep and pure devotion. On! Be the<br \/>\nsovereign Master of all hearts.&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>29<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span style='font-family:Times New Roman' lang=\"EN-GB\"><br \/>\n<a name=\"April 23, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">&nbsp;<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><a name=\"April 23, 1914\"><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">April 23, 1914<\/font><\/span><\/b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><b><font size=\"3\"> <\/font> <\/b><\/span><\/a><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>All rules have vanished, the regularity of the discipline is gone, all<br \/>\neffort has ceased; not by my own will nor, I believe, through negligence, but<br \/>\nbecause circumstances are working together to bring this about. It seems that<br \/>\nthis inner will, always alert, like a steersman holding the rudder, has<br \/>\nevaporated or fallen asleep, and my being is only something peacefully<br \/>\nsurrendered which lets itself be carried along by the stream. Till now, it seems<br \/>\nto me, the course has always been in a straight line, and I would keep the hope<br \/>\nthat it is Thou, O Lord, who guidest the stream; but surely if I have erred at<br \/>\ntimes through too great a rigidity, a lack of suppleness and spontaneity, it<br \/>\ncould very well be that now I err through the opposite excess. I have come to<br \/>\naccept peacefully the state I am in and to tell myself that Thou wilt bestow<br \/>\nupon me the true Consciousness, the absolute Consciousness when Thou thinkest it<br \/>\nbest. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>I look at all this changing world as a game unfolding itself, and I take<br \/>\npart in this game with the same energy and conviction with which I would if I<br \/>\nbelieved it real and important. All this is very new. But what is certain is<br \/>\nthat never before were my mind and heart in so complete a repose. What will come<br \/>\nout of that, I do not know. But I trust in Thee, O Lord; Thou knowest the best<br \/>\nway of using and developing Thy instrument&#8230;.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><font size=\"3\">Page &#8211; 1<\/font><\/span>30<\/p>\n<div class=\"MsoPlainText\" align=\"center\" style='text-align:center'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\";color:blue'><\/p>\n<hr size=\"2\" width=\"100%\" align=\"center\">\n<p><\/span><\/div>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 28, 1914\"><font size=\"3\">April 28, 1914<\/font><\/a><\/span><\/b><b><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><a name=\"April 28, 1914\"><font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<\/font><br \/>\n<\/a><br \/>\n<\/span><\/b><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>Thou art the Master of the world; Thy law unfolds before us with<br \/>\nprecision, and as I thought or rather as Thou didst make me understand it before<br \/>\nwe left <\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:  12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Paris<\/span><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>, it is the best \u2013 what could best serve<br \/>\nThy work in the world \u2013 that has happened. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>In beatitude I communed with Thy puissance dominating over darkness and<br \/>\nerror, shining like a marvellous and eternal dawn above the mud of hypocritical<br \/>\nforce and its apparent success. Everything has been brought to light, we have<br \/>\ntaken one more step towards the full light of sincerity, and this full light<br \/>\nwill be the first stage of Thy reign upon earth. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<br \/>\n<\/span>O Thou inconceivable splendour, Thou conqueror of all ignorance, victor<br \/>\nover all egoism, Thou who dost illumine all hearts and enlighten all minds, Thou<br \/>\nwho art Knowledge and Love and Being, let me live constantly in the<br \/>\nconsciousness of Thy unity, let me always conform to Thy Will. <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style='margin:0;text-align:justify;line-height:150%'><span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-size:12.0pt;font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'><span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><br \/>\nWith reverent and silent devotion I bow to Thee as the sovereign Lord of the<br \/>\nworld.<br \/>\n&nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" align=\"center\" style='margin:0;text-align:center;line-height:150%'>\n<font size=\"3\"><br \/>\n<span lang=\"EN-GB\" style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>Page &#8211; 1<\/span><span style='font-family:\"Times New Roman\"'>31<\/span><\/font><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/table>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>April 1, 1914 &nbsp; &nbsp; \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I feel we have entered the very heart of Thy sanctuary and grown aware of Thy very will. 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