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\nFebruary 15, 1915<\/i> <\/font><\/b><\/p>\n

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\n0<\/i> LORD of Truth, thrice have I implored Thy
\nmanifestation invoking Thee with deep fervour. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nThen, as always, the whole being made its total submission. At that moment the consciousness perceived
\nthe individual being mental, vital and physical,
\ncovered all over with dust, and this being lay prostrate before Thee, its forehead touching the earth,
\ndust in the dust, and it cried to Thee, "0 Lord,
\nthis being made of dust prostrates itself before Thee
\npraying to be consumed with the fire of the Truth
\nthat it may henceforth manifest only Thee." Then
\nThou saidst to it, "Arise, thou art pure of all that
\nis dust." And suddenly, in a stroke, all the dust
\nsank from it like a cloak that falls on the earth,
\nand the being appeared erect, always as substantial
\nbut resplendent with a dazzling light. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nMarch 3, 1915<\/b><\/i> <\/b>
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\nSOLITUDE, a harsh intense solitude, and always this
\nstrong impression of having been flung headlong
\ninto a hell of darkness! Never at any moment of
\nmy life, in any circumstances have I felt myself
\nliving in surroundings so entirely opposite to all
\n; that I am conscious of as true, so contrary to all
\nthat is the essence of my life. Sometimes when the
\nimpression and the contrast grow very intense, I
\ncannot prevent my total submission from taking on
\na hue of melancholy and the calm and mute converse with the Master within is transformed for a
\nmoment into an invocation that almost supplicates,
\n"0 Lord, what have I done that Thou hast thrown
\nme thus into the sombre Night?" But immediately
\nthe aspiration rises, still more ardent, "Spare this
\nbeing all weakness; suffer it to be the docile and
\nclear-eyed instrument of Thy work, whatever that
\nwork may be.." <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nMarch<\/i> 7, 1915<\/i><\/font><\/b>
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\nI AM exiled from every spiritual happiness, and of
\nall ordeals this, 0 Lord, is surely the most painful
\nthat Thou canst impose: but most of all the withdrawal of Thy will which seems to be a sign of
\ntotal disapprobation. Strong is the growing sense of
\nrejection, and it needs all the ardour of an untiring
\nfaith to keep the external consciousness thus abandoned to itself from being invaded by an irremediable sorrow…. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nBut it refuses to despair, it refuses to believe that
\nthe misfortune is irreparable; it waits with humility
\nin an obscure and hidden effort and struggle for the
\nbreath of Thy perfect joy to penetrate it again. And
\nperhaps each of its modest and secret victories is a
\ntrue help brought to the earth…. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nIf it were possible to come definitively out of this
\nexternal consciousness, to take refuge in the divine
\nconsciousness! But that Thou hast forbidden and
\nstill and always Thou forbidst it. No flight out of
\nthe world! The burden of its darkness and ugliness
\nmust be borne to the end even if all divine succour
\nseems to be withdrawn. I must remain in the bosom
\nof the Night and walk on without compass, without
\nbeacon-light, without inner guide. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nI will not even implore Thy mercy; for what Thou
\nwillst for me, I too will. All my energy is in
\ntension solely to advance, always to advance step
\nafter step, despite the depth of the darkness, despite
\nthe obstacles of the way, and whatever comes, 0
\nLord, it is with a fervent and unchanging love that,
\nThy decision will be welcomed. Even if Thou findest the instrument unfit to serve Thee, the instrument belongs to itself no more, it is Thine; Thou
\ncanst destroy or magnify it, it exists not in itself,
\nit wills nothing, it can do nothing without Thee. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nMarch 8, 1915<\/i> <\/a> <\/font><\/b><\/p>\n

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\nFOR the most part the condition is one of calm and
\nprofound indifference; the being feels neither desire
\nnor repulsion, neither enthusiasm nor depression,
\nneither joy nor sorrow. It regards life as a spectacle
\nin which it takes only a very small part; it perceives
\nits actions and reactions, conflicts and forces as
\nthings that at once belong to its own existence which
\noverflows the small personality on every side and
\nyet to that personality are altogether foreign and
\nremote. <\/font><\/p>\n

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\nBut from time to time a great breath passes, a great
\nbreath of sorrow, of anguished isolation, of spiritual
\ndestitution,\u2014one might almost say, the despairing
\nappeal of Earth abandoned by the Divine. It is a
\npang as silent as it is cruel, a sorrow submissive,
\nWithout revolt, without any desire to avoid or pass
\nout of it and full of an infinite sweetness in which
\nsuffering and felicity are closely wedded, something
\ninfinitely vast, great and deep, too great, too deep
\nperhaps to be understood by men\u2014something that
\nholds in it the seed of To-morrow…. <\/font><\/p>\n

\nPage – 65<\/font><\/p>\n

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