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January 24, 1973<\/H3><\/p>\n

Do you have something? …<\/i><\/p>\n

No.<\/p>\n

The farther I go, the more contradictions I discover in myself<\/i><\/p>\n

 –
\n sharp contradictions. They look like impossibilities.<\/i><\/p>\n<\/p>\n

No, not impossibilities – it probably means you have to go deeper or higher to their meeting ground. That’s how it works: the opposites get increasingly vehement until we find the point where they … where unity is established.
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One must go deeper and deeper, or higher and higher – it’s one and the same thing. It’s the same thing.
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(silence)<\/i>
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All our old ways of understanding things are WORTHLESS – worthless.
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All, all our values are WORTHLESS.
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We are on the threshold of something truly marvelous, but … we don’t know how to keep it – it comes like this (gesture imitating a passing bird)…. <\/i>We just don’t know.
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Never, never before have I had such a sense of ignorance, of impotence, of … of being a jumble of frightful contradictions, and I know, I KNOW – deep down, beyond speech – that it’s because I don’t know how to find the place where they … they harmonize and unite.
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I can do absolutely nothing, I know absolutely nothing – in fact, I am nothing but a … false appearance, that’s all.
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I don’t remember anything, I even forget what I have said before…. Everything is … (gesture of crumbling).<\/i>
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And strangely, almost at the same time, there’s torture and bliss at the same time. There you are.
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(Mother coughs silence)<\/i>
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Only, what’s odd is that human nature as it is constituted seems to understand torture more readily than bliss.
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There’s a curious phenomenon: because books [by Mother] are published, I am put in contact with things I said before, and of course when I said them I was very convinced, but now … I tell myself: how could you say that!
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Well.
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There is "something" … (Mother opens her palms upward).<\/i>
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(long silence)<\/i>
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There is only one, one will left: may the Divine express Himself without deformation through this body. This is constant, constant, constant, constant….
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Tell me, what is the mantra?<\/p>\n

OM….<\/i><\/p>\n

OM Namo Bhagavateh?<\/p>\n

Bhagavateh, yes, Mother.<\/i><\/p>\n

(Mother plunges in.<\/i>
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The clock strikes an eternal hour)<\/i>
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