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(Letter to Mother from Satprem, <\/i>
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once again in Pondicherry)<\/i>
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Pondicherry, July 10, 1959<\/i>
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Mother,
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Please excuse me, but I cannot come to meet you. My heart is broken. I would not know how to speak to you.
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A moment ago I barely found the strength not to kill myself. Destiny has repeated itself once again, but this time it was not I who rejected her, as in past existences, it is she who rejected me: ‘Too late.’ <\/i>For a moment, I thought I was going to go crazy too, so much pain did I have – then finally I said, ‘May Thy Will be done,’ (that of the Supreme Lord) and I kept repeating, ‘Thy Grace is there, even in the greatest suffering.’ But I am broken, rather like a living dead man. So be happy, for I will never wear the white robe that Guruji gave me.
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You will understand that I do not have the strength to come to see you. My only strength is not to rebel, my only strength is to believe in the Grace in the face of everything. I believe I have too much grief in my heart to rebel against anything at all. I seem to have a kind of great pity for this world.
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Well, this time I shall remain silent.
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Adieu, Mother.
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Signed: <\/i>Satprem
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