{"id":6024,"date":"2013-07-13T02:05:26","date_gmt":"2013-07-13T02:05:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost\/?p=6024"},"modified":"2013-07-13T02:05:26","modified_gmt":"2013-07-13T02:05:26","slug":"166-july-14-1959-vol-01-volume-01","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/02-works-of-the-mother\/03-agenda\/01-volume-01\/166-july-14-1959-vol-01-volume-01","title":{"rendered":"-166_July 14_1959.htm"},"content":{"rendered":"

July 14, 1959<\/H3>
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(Letter to Mother from Satprem)<\/i>
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Pondicherry, July 14, 1959
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Tuesday evening
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Sweet Mother,
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This is what I should have told you this morning, but I was afraid. For the last month I have been afraid of you, afraid that you might not understand. But I cannot leave with this weight on
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me. I beg of you to understand, Sweet Mother. I want nothing bad, nothing impure. I feel I have something to create <\/i>with Sujata, I feel she is absolutely a part of something I have to achieve, that we have something to achieve together. For the five years we have known each other I have never had a single wrong thought – but suddenly she opened my heart, which had been so completely walled-off, and this was like a wonder in me and at the same time a fear. A fear, perhaps because this love has been thwarted for so many lives.
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… … … …
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Mother, I need Sujata like my very soul. It seems to me that she is a part of me, that she alone can help me break with this horrible past, that she alone can help me to love truly at last. I need peace so much, a quiet, PEACEFUL happiness – a base of happiness upon which I could use my strength to build, instead of always fighting, always destroying. Mother, I am not at all sure of what must be, but I know <\/i>that Sujata is part of this realization.
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That’s all, Mother. Forgive me, but I am so afraid. For how is this possible in the Ashram? What would people say?
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Mother, my whole soul writes you this. I swear there is in me a single great need of Love, beauty, nobility, purity. And we would work for you together in joy at last.)
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Your anxious child,
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Signed: <\/i>Satprem

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ISBN 2-902776-33-0<\/p>\n

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