I have a lot of difficulties inwardly…. I don’t know, I feel I am very inhuman, as if I were far, far, far away. And all human relationships tire me. I am far away.<\/i><\/p>\n
That doesn’t matter. Do you think it’s necessary to feel human?<\/p>\n
I don’t know…. It’s bad, isn’t it?<\/i><\/p>\n
It’s not really necessary to feel human.<\/p>\n
It’s as if I were lending myself to a certain game, but it tires me more than anything. As if I were far away. So I am wondering if it’s good or bad (!)<\/i><\/p>\n
I think all the experiences that are sent to us are sent because they are necessary. I am convinced of this. And fortunately, my body too is convinced of this, because … If I looked at it from the ordinary point of view … it’s rather wretched.
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Everyone around me is ill, and … (gesture falling back on Mother). <\/i>Fever, this, that …
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It’s difficult, very difficult. I told you, it’s very difficult.
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Well, I am convinced – my body is convinced (fortunately it is itself convinced) that it’s because it has to learn some things. We must learn. There is a lot to learn….
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Here (Mother hands Satprem a flower called “Grace”). <\/i>We must
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