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If there weren’t people’s thought, the collective suggestion, and maybe – maybe – a subconscious suggestion (the cells may possibly still be subject to a subconscious suggestion, that’s possible …), otherwise, with a few seconds of … (gesture of drawing within), <\/i>like that, plunging back into the Supreme Consciousness – every
thing is fine, I am never hungry (and don’t feel the need to eat), I am never sleepy (and don’t feel the need to sleep). Only, there is, still the old suggestion, and also people’s whole thought that if I don’t eat I’ll become weak and fall ill; that if I don’t sleep I’ll get tired and fall ill – that sort of refrain. The cells don’t believe in it but … You understand, they think they have a duty to eat and a duty to sleep, otherwise … And I clearly see that work isn’t AT ALL what tires me: I am not more tired after having seen forty, forty-five, fifty people … than after having seen one ill-disposed person. Especially there are atmospheres that are corrupt, in the sense that those people instinctively loathe truth (there are such people – they aren’t even aware of it), and it causes a malaise, it still causes a malaise. And one minute, just one minute of someone coming in with that atmosphere is enough, you understand – then I have to concentrate, to make an effort. Sometimes I have to … (gesture showing the Force coming down to strike), <\/i>there are people to whom I “say,” “You’d better keep still, otherwise something is going to happen to you.” I don’t even think it, you understand, but the Force goes like this (gesture). <\/i>Not with many, but now and then there are such people. But the nerves remember … You know that after living with Sri Aurobindo for a year, when I left at the time of the [first world] war, because of the war, all the nerves fell ill: they were in a state of irritated tension (I think they call it neuritis, when all, but all the nerves are ill). It’s particularly painful, and everything is disorganized all over: the circulation was disorganized, the digestion was disorganized, everything was disorganized (it was in France, in southern France). The nerves remember that, and I don’t know why, once when things here were very difficult, they remembered. Sri Aurobindo was there and I told him (I think I’ve already told you the story): I absolutely had the sense of a hand coming and taking the whole pain away like that – in one second it was gone. And it had never returned. Now, from time to time, when people are ill-disposed or their thoughts are bad, and when in addition there’s no rest, no eating, no sleeping, then from time to time, here or there, the nerves get strained. It’s a sharp pain at its height. In France, I had it for weeks. Sometimes it comes, and then I have to keep still and … melt … in the Divine Presence – then it’s over, it goes away without a trace. But when they feel ill at ease, they remember. They ask, “I don’t know what should be done to erase this memory.” I take them to task, I tell them they’re stupid, but … Then they keep still. Page 64<\/font><\/p>\n But what I find interesting is this: there’s no hunger and no sleepiness; that doesn’t exist, it doesn’t correspond to a sensation, not in the least. There is very clearly the sense of harmony and disharmony; when the atmosphere is harmonious, or at least of goodwill (there can always be a greater harmony, that goes without saying), then it’s all right. With some people, the minute they come in, there is a tremendous descent, very often of Kali’s power or Maheshwari’s power (not the Supreme, but what they understand best), very often – right away, instantly. Then everything is stilled. And it’s very amusing, it’s interesting: the Response (the Response, what responds) is what makes me very clearly realize the state people are in. It’s not at all a mental perception: I know what they think only by inference, from what took place [i.e., the type of force that manifested in Mother]. Then, quite naturally, I know: they must be in this state of mind. But I wouldn’t be able to say what they think; some people, for instance, can tell you very well, “This or that is what you are thinking,” but I couldn’t. All that is mental is quite foreign to me. But I could say very clearly what is their state of receptivity, of goodwill and aspiration – and automatically, without trying to know it, simply from what is created in the atmosphere. (silence)<\/i> Sri Aurobindo is always there. At times he becomes very active, especially when people “pump” or pull or crush you under the weight of all their difficulties and all their desires. Then (these last few days have been like that), I might put it into the words he often used, but this is his attitude: “They accept the God only when they can crucify him.” I find that so interesting, you know! They accept God – the Divine – only when they can crucify him. That is to say, they recognize the Divine in a body only if that body is fit to be crucified or tortured. And then, if things go wrong, “So he’s not divine!” He is not divine…. He always used to say, “The Divine takes care to veil himself so as not to crush them.” And it’s true, I have noticed it: at times when the Force comes with really Page 65<\/font><\/p>\n always like that: it contains itself so as not to be … unbearable. (Mother goes into a meditation)<\/i> You have before you, here (gesture at chest level), <\/i>Sri Aurobindo’s symbol. The descending triangle is of an almost white light, but with a golden hue, and the ascending part is of an intense dark violet – I don’t know why…. The ascending triangle is dark violet (the color of vital power), an intense dark violet, very, very strong, and with the descending triangle, that makes Sri Aurobindo’s symbol, here, in front of you, like that. It’s not luminous, but not dark: it has a rich and very intense color, a very intense violet. The ascending triangle is the creation’s aspiration; the descending triangle is the Divine’s response. And the junction of the two makes the square of the manifestation. It was there, in front of you, very clearly written. It corresponds to your inner state…. 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