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Page 130<\/font><\/p>\n You see, it’s the Vatican. I fought and fought, but … there are too many lies around me. That’s it, too many people tell lies all around. I was supposed to see P.L. tomorrow; I think it’s better to wait for a few days. You could tell him – don’t tell him why!<\/p>\n Did it come through his atmosphere?<\/i><\/p>\n Not particularly – directly. Naturally, it’s because of that business, and specially because of what we wanted him to do at the Vatican. It’s the response to that. I felt it immediately and was able to resist for a very long time, but then … the atmosphere here isn’t pure enough.<\/p>\n It makes use of one or the other.<\/i><\/p>\n It’s the general atmosphere. When the disorder is invisible, I am free not to say anything and people won’t know, but here (laughing) <\/i>it has taken such a visible form that I couldn’t ignore it!<\/p>\n Last night, at the time of the deepest sleep, I found myself in<\/i><\/p>\n dressed in black, and I was a prisoner there. It was a world of <\/i>\n <\/p>\n horrible men, like S.S., but dressed completely in black – maybe<\/i><\/p>\n they were priests and not S.S.? I felt like a prisoner there, as a concentration camp.<\/i><\/p>\n<\/p>\n Oh!<\/p>\n Tall fellows dressed in black, with cruel faces and lips … I thought they were S.S., but maybe they are priests?<\/i><\/p>\n (Mother remains silent, <\/i> then goes into a long contemplation, A white column, obstinately – obstinately, all the time, there (gesture in front of her), <\/i>like an offer of peace. * * * Page 131<\/font><\/p>\n (Towards the end, Satprem comes back<\/i> to Isn’t this whole thing going to recoil on them?<\/i><\/p>\n I don’t care. [[Just as Mother uttered those words, Satprem had a very distinct impression that Mother was saying, “It’s ME, over there, to be transformed.” ]] <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" May 15, 1968 (There has been a rumor going about that Mother was “unwell,” and indeed she has not seen anyone. When Satprem comes into her…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[144],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6283","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-09-volume-09","wpcat-144-id"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6283","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6283"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6283\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6283"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6283"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/worksofthemotherandsriaurobindo.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6283"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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