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I had a rather amusing experience while walking [during japa]. I was looking at people’s attitude (I mean those who think they lead a spiritual life, who think they have made a surrender), <\/i>and how they are utterly vexed when things don’t happen the way they want! (They don’t always admit it, they don’t always say it to themselves, but it’s a fact.) Then all at once, I saw a huge robot – huge, magnificent, resplendent, covered with gold and jewels – a huge being … but a robot. And all-powerful – all-powerful, capable of doing anything, anything at all; anything you could imagine, he could do it: you had only to press a button and he did it. And it was … (laughing) <\/i>as if the Lord were telling me, “See, here is what I am to them!”
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I couldn’t have recounted the experience just like that, but I made a note of it. He said, “See, this is what I am to them.” So I wrote it down.
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(Mother first reads out the French version of her note)<\/i>
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Then I wrote it in English (if there’s a “gap” in the Bulletin, <\/i>I’ll put it in!):
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“The Lord is not an all-powerful automaton that the human beings can move by … (laughing) the push-button of their will …
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It’s very funny!
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… the push-button of their will – and yet most of those who surrender to God expect that from Him.”
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I read it to Pavitra; he said, “But still, that’s rather like the way things work!” He didn’t quite understand (Mother laughs)<\/i>.
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(Mother comments on the previous conversation, in which she was looking for a way out “down below” but abruptly came out of the experience “above”:) <\/i>
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Page 184<\/font><\/p>\n In order to be complete, we should add that we are aware (not aware: we know it, it’s a certainty) that all the upward paths are open, traveled, you can go there as you like and when you like. That’s it, and that’s why, when I wanted to come out of the experience, it meant going upward, quite naturally. Not that the passage above is closed, on the contrary, it’s traveled, explored – but inadequate. We must find the corresponding passage down below. (silence)<\/i> All the means of getting out have been found and practiced. But only for getting out individually, or above – nobody has ever found the key to the change, the way to make that “thing” cease to exist. Because it can cease only in order to become SOMETHING ELSE. And to become something else, there must be that leaven of transformation. There is a period (a period which from the human point of view may seem long, but which can certainly …), a transitional period which must begin with the perception of what has to come, followed by the aspiration, the will to become it, and then the work of transformation. How far have we gone in that work of transformation? (silence)<\/i> Sri Aurobindo came with the notion, or the Command, or the conviction that it was in the present. But to what extent is the transformation present? And what does “present” mean? What span of time does it cover?… There is such a certitude – such a certitude that the thing is ALREADY there, but that’s when you see it from the other end. Seen from this end here … When you see it on the scale of human beings and world events, how much time will it take? I don’t know. And how far have we traveled, where are we on the road? I don’t know. And quite clearly, certainties as WE conceive of them, I mean someone who knows (and someone who knows can only be the Supreme) and tells you clearly, “Here is where you stand,” and with YOUR way of seeing things, well (Mother laughs), <\/i>such certainties aren’t to be expected, it seems! Probably it’s quite stupid to ask the question. You do feel it’s a bit stupid, but you often feel the need to know! Page 185<\/font><\/p>\n (laughter) <\/i>It’s stupid, but…. It’s not much, not a large part of the being that would like to know. It happens when the body feels quite … bizarre, not at all, AT ALL as it was before, but also not at all as it thinks it should be. A transitional period which is truly unsatisfactory, in the sense that you no longer feel the strength you had, the capacities you had, but you don’t feel at all the Power and capacities you expect either – you are halfway between, neither like this nor like that. With, now and then, some absolutely bewildering things, things that make you stare wide-eyed, “Oh, that’s how it is!” But at the same time, such tiresome limitations, tiresome…. That is the part (a completely childish part) which needs a little encouragement: “Come on, don’t worry, you’re on the right track.” But that’s childish. The only way is to keep quiet and go on without worrying. There is somewhere a sort of capacity for acute discernment, which can very easily turn into a censor (it’s still there; probably it serves a purpose), and that’s what demands certainties. The major part of the being says, “It’s not my concern. I am here because You want me to be here. If You didn’t want me to be here, I wouldn’t be here.” There is nothing like an attachment or a desire. (That went away quite a while ago! But now it has become an almost cellular condition.) “And since You keep me here, it means I am doing something here, and if I am doing something here, that’s all I need, that’s why You keep me here….” It comes full circle, of course. How long will it last? That’s not my concern. Maybe something would be a bit … frightened if it were told the time it will take (we can’t say, we can’t foresee the reaction). So it’s best to keep quiet. But there’s nothing of interest. Nothing to make interesting literature – nothing, nothing at all … absolutely nothing. Patience. Page 186<\/font><\/p>\n <\/b><\/p>\n \n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" June 22, 1963 I had a rather amusing experience while walking [during japa]. 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