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869 P. utth 101/2 hours (3.45 + 2.15 + 3 + 11/2 with intervals of 1/4, 3/4 and 31/2 hours)
June 13— The "first assertion" is now to a great degree fulfilled.10 All the parts and instruments of the Vijnana are in constant action and more or less organised. "Constant" is not "continual". There are periods of disorganisation and broken action, even of quiescence or mere mental action,— although the latter survival is decreasing in force and frequency. Thought and script are frequent and normally vijnanamaya, but too often possessed by ganas who try to veil the Iswara. Percep- tive thought is more often pulled down into the mentality, but still it rises again into the luminous action. Trikaldrishti is constant; though often disorganised. Aishwarya-traya is constant, though often broken and even confined to isolated effects. Samadhi (swapna) is now organised; there is stable scene & movement, continuous action, combination, but it does not go beyond a brief stability & continuity. Samadhi jagrat is not yet delivered from the obstruction. This is the only absolute defect of the organised vijnana, but even here there is incipient organisation. == The contradictions of the Samata have now ananda behind or in them, except when the ananda also is expressly overpowered. Sraddha & devibhava waver, but are founded, —though not yet complete. Brahman is complete, but not yet quite securely Lilamaya in the Ishwara. The defect however is occasional & slight. Krishna-Kali is constant, but not yet quite continuous. == All the physical Anandas ahaituka & sahaituka have pro- gressed greatly. Utthapana is attempting to emerge. In primary utthapana weariness, stiffness, pain can all be got rid of or rendered ineffective
10 See the entry of 6 June, page 863. Ed.
870 by the Tapas, but the exhaustion of the store of Pranic energy in the annakosha still persists as a habit & the resultant weakness tends to bring back these reactions. These are, however, very rapidly cast off. . The secondary & tertiary utthapanas are not now in action. In Arogya there is still the dominant recurrence of the habit- ual fragments of roga and the persistence of the two that are yet unbroken. Cold is attempting to return. Saundarya is still unable to break its shell. == Karma & Kama await the growth of the Aishwarya & the Sharira. The life & its work [are]11 still under the menace of the Enemy & deprived of their instruments and equipment. == During the day 9 hours primary utthapana, but with greater breaks & less force of utthapana. == The relapse from the Arogya increases rather than diminishes. == On the other hand Sharira Ananda of all kinds grows more spontaneous, frequent, intense and prolonged. == A crisis during the day lowering the sraddha and the force. == No definite progress in the Vijnana which has been thrown back into the "yeast" of a confused and obscured action with the perceptive thought and tapastraya trying to form out of it. ==
June 14— Some increase in the organisation of swapna samadhi. In the afternoon lipi of swapna samadhi again began to come right. == Continuation of relapse & crisis till the middle of the after- noon— ==
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871 Krishnadarshana, relapsed for these two or three days, is again active in its various intensities, but sometimes lapses into the Brah- man. == Force of aishwarya traya increased a little, but the resistance still prevails over the attempt to apply it in all cases. == Taste developed strongly, so that always in the swallow there is some kind of taste sukshma or sthula. Taste of sweetness entirely sthula & intense lasted for many minutes. Gandha is frequent, often entirely niradhara— Shabda tries to develop. == The rule of not sitting or lying except when necessary, but always walking or standing is being observed and in this way almost the whole day has passed. Standing restores the declining force & thus a continuous spell of 4 hours in the afternoon has been done without any serious difficulty. Whole period of primary utthapana 41/4 + 11/4 + 4 + 1/2 hours with intervals of 1/4 , 1/2 & 4. == Sleep 12.30 to 7.15. ==
June 15— Pr. utthapana 15 hours (43/4 + 71/4 + 3 with intervals of 1/4 and 21/4 hours). Today practically 12 hours were done without a break. The reaction became powerful at times towards the end, but always lightened. Standing is sufficient without other rest for restoration, but sometimes the restoration of strength comes while walking. == A great advance in certainty of trikaldrishti and some in Aish- warya. The basis of perfect organisation of the knowledge has been laid. == Arogya is still affected by the persistence of the attack. == Karma is also suffering. ==
872 In the Vijnana it is evident that Will & Thought are drawing towards each other preparatory to union. At times they coincide entirely, but not yet in a well-organised fashion. Something of the tapasic stress still survives in the will affecting the thought. Some- thing of the passive inertness and absence of power still lingers in the thought divorced from will == Vishaya has not yet definitely advanced, although shabda seems to be preparing, & there are pure sukshma movements in the others. == Samadhi is almost stationary in swapna; in jagrat dense forms of a certain stability imperfectly manifested in the darkness. == There is no advance in Saundarya. == In Krishnadarshana the vision of everything as a form of Krish- na Kali seems fixed. Darshana of Krishna Kali ranges between the various intensities down to non-intensity. == Ananda is firmer, as the remnants of responsibility & desire have been diminished, the former to vanishing-point; but sraddha is not restored. There is sraddha in Yoga-siddhi minus Saundarya, imperfect in all Sharira except Ananda, but none in Karma. == The 16th will be a day of progress. Sleep 6 hours.
June 16— An enormous progress in Krishnadarshana, which has fixed itself rapidly, first in the mere darshana, then in the first intensity, then in the third where it varies between the first & third in the third. The first in the third is Sarvamaya, the second is Anantagunamaya and the third is Anandamaya Krishna. A great intensity of 33 Kd [Krishnadarshana] in things, sounds etc. ==
873 The vijnana made considerable progress in trikaldrishti. The will also began to become more easily identical with knowledge. But there is still the difficulty of accommodating the transvolutive will & perception with the evolutive will and perception. == In rupasamadhi no definite progress. Vishaya is depressed. == Anandamaya Samata made considerable progress towards undisturbed perfection. There is some attempt at backsliding in the invulnerability of the physical ananda == Ten hours pr. utth. but much broken. Reaction prevails == Arogya struggles to regain its ascendency, but it is not yet accomplished == Sleep about 6 hours. ==
June 17— The Krishnadarshana is now almost fixed in the third degree of the third intensity, but the lower degrees still tend to return sometimes into predominance. == The entire vijnanising of the mentality proceeds rapidly, but the Tapas today is less potently effective. There is a movement, however, towards the entirety of the vijnana organisation. == In swapnasamadhi stability is both stronger and more fre- quent. Jagrat samadhi is still preparing more behind the veil than in front of it. == In the second chatusthaya Ishwarabhava grows & declines along with the intensity of effective Tapas. Sraddha follows the same fluctuations. ==
874 The Ishwara is now manifest behind all thought & vani, some- times both behind and in it. == Sharira is still subject to struggle. Utthapana is under the influence of the reaction which is now strong & persistent; the weariness & weakness recur, but only in the annakosha & its pranic environment, not in the pranashakti proper. Stiffness & pain also recur, but are not persistent. == Ananda (sharira) is less active & vishaya depressed or ob- structed. Karma is obstructed, but the Tapas maintains itself & produces slight positive & much negative result. == A great advance in the combination of knowledge and tapas Lipi . . "figurative fashioning tapas" == Pr utt. 71/2 hours. == Sleep 5 hours—swapnasamadhi 11/2
June 18— The Krishnadarshan fluctuates and admits new combina- tions, but with a general fixity of the third intensity which only occasionally gives way. The intensity is imperfect with regard to animals. == The disorganised mentality is again active & all parts of the Siddhi depressed. == Lipi increases in regular activity. (Lipi—regularity of the lipi) ==
June 19— The Mahakali-Mahasaraswati consciousness with the Ma- heshwari pratistha & the Mahaluxmi colouring is now being firmly & finally established. ==
875 A similar finality of Krishna Kali is in process of final founda- tion. == The revolt of the evolutive tendency non-central to the adhara is the cause of the relapse of these last two days and the break of the unity in the universal consciousness. As usual the relapse has synchronised with the reappearance of the Mahakali energy. == Anandamaya samata has been superficially disturbed, but tends always to hold its own. == Sraddha is affected with regard to karma and rapidity, but the lapse is much less complete than on any former occasion of the same magnitude. == Lipi. The last attack on the telepathy trikaldrishti. == Growth of the balabhava and manifestation of the KrishnaKali relation, the latter element in perfection, the former in imperfection. == Free recurrence of the sharira Anandas, depressed for some time, is now reviving. == A good part of the sleep turned into Samadhi.
June 20— The Krishna relation is now established with perfection of the Krishnabhava. == Experiment has shown that the Kamananda is much stronger than it ever was before, reviving almost immediately from what formerly depressed it for a day or for half a day. Moreover it is beginning to manifest in the body and no longer only at its own centre. ==
876 Greater activity of the sukshmavak. ==
June 21 The Krishna-Kali relation is fixed & confirmed. == The Krishnadarshana which had gone back to the Anantaguna is now recovering the Anandamaya, the third degree of the third intensity. == The Sharira Anandas are again on the increase, more intense, more recurrent, tending to the continual recurrence & even to the continuous. == Satyam of combined telepathy, trikaldrishti, tapas is again active with greater force, but ritam is imperfect. Strong increase of sukshmavak: it is not however entirely developed from the material envelope (Vritra). == Manasik rupa has for some time been occasionally active; manasik sparsha, sravana, etc are also occasionally active and not only in the form of imperfectly materialised vishayas, but as pure manasa. == The premananda which was long involved, has reemerged to the surface & is both general and particular. The suddhananda also, which was contained & almost sup- pressed in the ahaituka + chidghana, has reemerged. With it the full intensity of the third degree of Krishnadarshana is reemerging. == Vishayas of smell & taste are again becoming active with the first force.
June 22— An uprush of a material layer full of the asiddhi. Chidananda emerges with Sadananda behind it giving the
877 ananda of the material oneness (substance) & of the all-life in its vital activity (prana). == The vijnana obscured during the last two days reemerges with the decisive Will-Knowledge. == Siddhi of Kriti, but not yet decisive. ==
June 23— There is a movement towards the settled intensity of the Anan- das, subjective & objective, but the material environment resists strongly & obstinately. == Certainty of trikaldrishti, telepathic and pure, is very strong in the general result, but the anritam prevails in the detail. The movement is towards such a correction of the physical mentality that it shall record faithfully the ritam even when not illumined, but this movement is as yet unsuccessful except in moments of concentration. == The struggle in the Arogya continues. There is nowhere com- plete deliverance, but there is an increasing effectivity of the Will on the body in respect of Roga. In Utthapana & Saundarya the Will is depressed, held down and sometimes overcome. == There is a general repression of the Siddhi by the physical nature, but through it all the Siddhi progresses.
June 24— General intensity of premananda with occasional high inten- sity. == The shuddhananda increases. == Intense revelational-inspirational thought is manifesting in the
878 vangmaya. Vijnana is active illuminating the perceptive thought & thought suggestions. == Rupa has for some days been increasing in intensity in the jagrat (perfect developed & dense) but has only an initial stability or none. Crude jagrat rupa has receded and seems dissolving rather than forming. The Krishnadarshana is fixed, but depressed, at the lowest intensity possible to the complete darshana, except in occasional instances or moments of concentration. There is now a movement to recover & fix the general intensity beyond relapse. The work now being done is to fix all gains in the lowest physical consciousness so that they may be always secure and not only present during periods, however long, of concentration, illumination or exaltation. == Tivra is beginning to generalise its intense recurrence through- out the body. Vaidyuta is also seeking to pervade the body and with less force kama and vishaya. == Rupasamadhi is growing by little jets of progress in the midst of an obstructing physical consciousness. == Trikaldrishti grows constantly in force, but fluctuates in com- pleteness and especially in ritam. == Intensity of premananda fails now only because of the inability of the prana to hold it. The prana is accustomed only to calmness or to an equable ananda. == Kriti wavers in the balance & progresses only in little points. == The vishayas are depressed in their recurrence. == The defective parts of the second chatusthaya grow in strength. —
879 June 25th Vishaya is now the strongest pervasive Ananda in the body. The others are becoming continually recurrent at points & more disposed to pervasiveness. Pervasive Kama is the most backward. == The second chatusthaya is now fixed in its lesser completeness & intensity. The greater awaits the full organisation of vijnana. == Ananda is now complete & organised, the subjective & the physical; only the continuity in intensity has to be acquired. Conti- nuity is beginning in all the physical anandas. == Trikaldrishti & tapas increase in force, but the organisation is once more inchoate preparing a stronger harmony. == Krishnadarshana is moving steadily towards its full & fixed intensity. == There is now a strong movement to replace the remnants of the intellectuality altogether by the ideality. It has already made some progress. == Crude akasha rupa of a certain stability & variety seems now to be established in the jagrat. Crude dense is also frequent. == Ananda Brahman came to the front; this was followed by a lapse into Jnanam Brahma. Afterwards Anandamaya Ishwara took its place. == Continuity of Sharira Ananda still needs smarana; recurrence is almost free from the necessity. == The Vijnana movement was obstructed & receded again in the afternoon. == Drishti of sukshma rain etc.
880 June 26th Yesterday's lipi— 175 = 17 + 5 and 1 + 7 + 5—In accordance with the first Ananda Brahman & some progress in Samadhi. In accordance with the latter progress in vijnana, sharira ananda and drishti of other planes. == 17 + 5. Lilamaya Ananda Brahman with full fivefold subjective Ananda perfectly organised. == 115. 11 + 5 preparing (Kalibhava on five planes). The action of the divine Prakriti must centre in the Vijnana and flow from it and work itself out through a passive receptive channel of mind, a passive enjoying Prana, a passive instrumental body. == The Seven Affirmations. The three Krishna affirmations are now unalterably established in the being, but are sometimes pale to the consciousness The four Brahma affirmations are fixed, but for their full action await the Ritam of the vijnana The two Prakriti affirmations, Time & the five worlds, are in course of being established. ==
June 27th The day has been devoted to the farther confirmation (1) of the Ananda Brahman; (2) of the 1st chatusthaya in sama Ananda; especially Ananda of failure (3) of the 2d, especially in sraddha (4) of the combination of Ishwarabhava & (3) (5) of the vijnana organisation. The only true resistance now is in the physical obstacle [af- fecting]12 especially (1) samadhi, (2) three members of the Sharira, especially Saundarya, in a less degree utthapana, in a still less degree Arogya, (3) Karma ==
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881 At night repeated coherent swapna. . June 28th Organisation of samadhi has entered into the deepest sushupta swapna; but is not yet more than initial, conversations of three or four sentences, brief complex actions, short stabilities, rapid but not long continued thought, vangmaya & perceptive etc. == For the rest the established siddhis are growing stronger, espe- cially telepathy & trikaldrishti, but there is a thick veil and siege of the environing manastattwa through which the vijnanamaya action has to break. == Lipi. 1. large interesting results. 2. pursue all the business of the aishwarya, telepathy, trikaldrishti (double line lipi) == Double line lipi in akasha & sadhara (chitra) is becoming gradually frequent.
June 29th Great progress in organisation of tapas, telepathy, trikaldrishti. == The swapnasamadhi organisation progresses & confirms itself on a surer base. == There seems to be some beginning of a freer movement in the jagrad rupa. ==
June 30th Swapnasamadhi very strong in all but stability of rupa and long continuity. Rupa in jagrat continues to attempt a freer breaking through the veil. ==
882 On the whole the vijnana may be said to have been well organised, but not perfectly in the month of June. == The Sharira has been delivered only in Ananda, not in Arogya etc; nevertheless there is a foundation of firm faith in the Sharira, but it wavers on the surface with regard to tertiary utthapana and saundarya. == The Iswara leads the life, but not yet to any definite result.
883 July— June has been the period of four powerful finalities— 1. Anandamaya Samata The first chatusthaya is delivered from the external attacks of the nirananda and asamata. Only a slight vibration is left combating the Ananda of failure, but this is itself becoming Anandamaya of the duality and is kept only to found a particular vibration of the pure Ananda. 2. Daivi Prakriti The daivi prakriti and the fundamental sraddha are founded firmly and the Mahakali energy has occupied the Mahasaraswati frame, covered the Maheshwari pratistha, assumed the Mahaluxmi colouring and made its fiercer working compatible with the anan- damaya samata. This movement is not yet touched to the final perfection and the ishwarabhava and sraddha are still insufficient and fluctuate on the surface. But the former defect is likely to disappear during the month. The latter depends on the imperfec- tion of the vijnana and will disappear as the Tapas increases in its effectiveness. 3. Brahman & Krishna Kali The Anandam Brahma is now fixed in the vision of all things and only occasionally goes back for a moment into the Anantam Jnanam Brahma. Along with this finality there is also the finality of the Lilamaya darshana in all existences; there is no longer the sharp distinction which confined the strong darshana to that which is urjasvi, the beautiful, young, noble or emphatic in character or to the human being. The siddhi however needs a more unwa- vering firmness and a more delightful intensity. These come to it sometimes, but are not yet part of the normal vision. Krishnakali has been fixed in the consciousness finally. The Ishwara governs the action, thought etc entirely, but not yet with an invariable prominence. He is vibhu, but not always immediately & directly prabhu. Still the vangmaya, script & vani belong to him directly; only the perceptive thought & feeling are still indirectly possessed except in their extraordinary moments.
884 4. Organised vijnana Vijnana is organised in all its parts. Tapas, telepathy, trikal- drishti work together, but while telepathy is brihat and almost entirely and spontaneously ritam, trikaldrishti though always ac- tive, has often to wait for or acquire its ritam out of the mass of the possibilities. The ritam however plays a large part and grows continually. Tapas is effective sometimes as will-thought against resistance, sometimes as Chit-Tapas. It is not yet entirely chit-tapas and therefore not in possession of the samrajya. Samadhi is still crude & unstable in the jagrat, and in the swapna still brief and often attacked by confusion and dislocation, but all the necessary elements are present and work more and more together. == The perfection of the first three siddhis may be expected in July as well as a much greater perfection of the fourth. == Deficiencies Sharira is the field of the main conflict; the Arogya is subject to constant attack which takes the form of habitual fragmentary roga. Utthapana after making a great stride (primary) fell back & is suspended. Saundarya has been unable to manifest in the head and jara attacks chiefly in the hair. In the bhava there is eternal youth. == Karma makes little visible headway. It waits on the growth of the effective Tapas. It is attacked chiefly in equipment and freedom. == Physical Ananda All the physical anandas are daily active and even have an initial combination and organisation. This is the one physical siddhi which is liberated from complete obstruction and ready for finality.
885 July 1— Lipi— 1. sahitya-siddhi trikaldrishti tapas telepathy ie the right combination ie the substitution of the healthy Prakriti for the rogamaya. Lointain ie distant telepathy etc. (ie these are the things that must now be brought to perfection) 2. telepathy 3. trikaldrishti-siddhi. == In accordance with lipi 2. there was a great extension of telepathy of thought, the motions of thought in one physically near being followed with a great and constant, though not invariable exactness and proved by the subsequent action; the working was by a sort of combined mental prakamya and vyapti, prakamya predominating, —neither of them yet luminous, —manomaya, not vijnanamaya. == In accordance with lipi 3. there was a swift movement of ritam in trikaldrishti at the same time. This has yet to [be] perfected and extended to the distant (lointain of lipi 1); for in the dis- tant there is still mainly the surge of possibilities, telepathy not trikaldrishti. == Sahitya-siddhi seems to be moving towards the recovery of the lost Mahalakshmi colouring in the style. (lipi 1). Throughout the day a violent struggle between the Arogya- prakriti & the Rogasharira. The latter has manifested for some days in bad forms of assimilation and incipient cold, and now in incipient fever. The latter has been defied in all respects except not bathing & so far has been unable to make itself felt except in a fluctuating recurrent heat and occasional tendency to weakness. The weakness however makes no difference either to intellectual work or to physical exertion. This is the struggle to establish the ) Arogyasharira (lipi 1. ==
886 The lipi "trikaldrishti tapas telepathy" is not yet in visible course of fulfilment, but there are incipient movements.
July 2d Lipi to full effectivity hereafter in the telepathy trikaldrishti tapas together. == It is becoming more clear that the life has been directly taken in control by the Ishwara == Reference. 1.प्र सोमस्य पवमानस्योर्मय इन्द्रस्य यंति जठरं सुपेशसः 2. it is the glow of life, its finest breath == Developments in the jagrad rupa showing that the definite foundation has really begun (akasha, sadhara) == The struggle in the Arogya continues.
July 3d Sudden advance in several directions. == The fixed general tertiary intensity of the Krishnadarshana in the third degree has been suddenly established, free from all sub- jection to forms and circumstances. All fluctuations are in different degrees of purohiti of the Ishwara. == Vijnanamaya satyam of the jnana (complete) as opposed to manomaya satyam and, with less completeness & nearness, of the trikaldrishti in surrounding movements has been suddenly estab- lished There is ritam of the jnana, only partially of the trikaldrishti & force. ==
887 Satyam of the force is preparing. == Ishwarabhava & sraddha have taken a step forward. == Thought, vangmaya, vani have all been entirely possessed by the Ishwara; the other voices & suggestions are being either taken up by him or turned into sukshma vak. This latter movement is assured, but has not yet the final definite completeness. == Personal relation of Ishwara & the jiva (prakriti) is now com- plete though not yet forceful in its central characteristic (rudra- bhava). == The ritam of telepathy-trikaldrishti-tapas has now to be fixed. == Lipi— 1) 12 2) 13 3) great results. == Strong emergence of the shuddhananda involved in the chidghana-ahaituka; also of the subjective prema-kama. They are not entirely fixed in generality in their intense forms. Since yesterday the gandha has again recovered its intensity & variety and is today beginning to become frequent. There is a movement of recovery in the rasa, great intensity in habitual spar- shas & preparation of variety involved in indeterminate sparsha, incipient certainty & considerable intensity in sravana (chiefly in habitual sounds), spasmodic recurrence of darshana. == Trikaldrishti of things distant in space & time is beginning to be generalised (telepathy was already working & occasional trikaldrishti); but as yet there is no certainty, as there is still the siege of possibilities. Ritam is not yet certified to the intelligence. Lipi is beginning to work again on these things and rupasamadhi is preparing to follow. == In the afternoon the siddhi receded from the morning's inten- sity and in the evening there was even some touch of the reaction
888 contradictory of samata usually associated with the Mahakali rajasic activity. == There is a considerable attempt of jagrat rupa to advance in all parts, but the success is not yet manifest. At the same time the tendency to use even imperfect rupas for purposes of vijnana increases and seems to help the attempt. == July 4— Ref. ut sûryo brihad archinshi acret, puru vicwâ janimâ mânushânâm samo divo dadrishe rochamânah, kratwâ kr'itah sukr'itah kartr'ibhir bhût. sa sûryah prati puro na ud gâ, ebhih stomebhih etacebhir evaih pra no mitrâya varun'âya vocho, anâgaso aryamn'e agnaye cha vi nah sahasram curudho radantu, r'itavâno varun'o mitro agnih yachchhantu chandrâ upamam no arkam, â nah kâmam pupurantu stavânâh—
Lipi 1. light to be manifested entirely telepathy trikaldrishti tapas.
The suddhananda as the result of yesterday's movement is fixed, dominating the Chidghana and sajosha with the subjective premakama, but not yet in its invariable intensity— == Yesterday's general attack is being overcome— It failed to create a crisis. == The fivefold plane is being manifested in thought etc (puru vicvâ janima manushânam) with the illumined mind as the centre (samo divo dadrishe rochamâno) & the brihad archis of the vijnana as the source.
889 The five purah are being manifested even to the rupadrishti. The vijnana (surya) has yet to ascend into all. The completion of this movement will establish the eighth Affirmation (of the nine, ebhih stomebhih), see May 20. The three Krishna affirmations are almost perfect. The four Satya-Ananda affirmations await for their perfection the free Tapas & Prakasha. == The dominance of the Vijnana has been restored, but it has to be consciously related to its roots in the Ananda. As foreseen in the jail the Ishwara is seated in the Ananda; the Ishwara + Jiva in the Vijnana. Development of samadhi continues— 1 Jagrat Antardrishta— Any image willed comes after a time, always recognisable, but not always clear in outline or distinct. 2 Jagrat bahirdarshi— Images on the background indepen- dent of the will, a few distinct & stable, others clear, constant but shifting, not very distinct, others changing & fleeting. 3 Swapna. Combinations of vision, speech, action.
July 5th Strong opposition and attack. == Ananda (sharira) continues to be constant in recurrence, some- times continual in recurrence (especially tivra & kama) with an occasional continuity (especially kama). The anandas (vaidyuta, vishaya, raudra) are often pervasive. Pervasive kama & tivra also occur, but with less force & hold. == Samadhi continues slowly to develop. == Vijnana of trikaldrishti, telepathy, tapas is much obstructed
July 6th Again a day of obstruction and struggle. Sharira is especially obstructed and the positive Asiddhi seems to prevail at some points. ==
890 The day devoted chiefly to sahitya (poetry). == Continuities of kamananda.
July 7th The decisive trikaldrishti has during these few days acted only fragmentarily or dimly at a distance. Telepathy & its stresses have governed the field. Tapas has been with difficulty effective, often ineffective— == Kamananda is increasing against obstruction its force of continuity; but there is a tendency in the body to insist only on one continuous ananda at a time. == Last night pain of strained nerve in the knee joint turned to Ananda, but imperfectly owing to jugupsa. ==
July 8th The vijnana siddhi touched bottom-point & then suddenly rose again. It appears that the final elimination of temperamental stress is being now engineered & that this was the principal object of the retrogression. Sama Ananda has stood firm, except for rare touches; the sec- ond chatusthaya & the Mahakali bhava have been strengthened, even the ishwarabhava & the temperamental sraddha (in the heart) although the intellectual mind has been shaken. Krishnadarshana increases in the tertiary Anandamaya sense through all fluctuations. Sharira & Karmasiddhi have been obstructed & retarded; but the vijnana has been the chief sufferer.
July 9th 10th Indefinite progress at various points == Telepathy, trik. tap. [trikaldrishti, tapas] are recovering force in their combination, but telepathy always predominates—
891 July 11th The first part of the month has passed in the usual relapse into a confused and inchoate condition of the siddhi marked by a partial and temporary dissolution of what had just been gained, some amelioration & confirmation of previous gains and the vague beginning of a fresh advance. It is indicated that there will now be a steady movement forward. == The right form of the Krishnadarshana seems now to be fixed the Ananda-Purusha Krishna containing the Ananda Brahman which contains the Ananda Purusha as the Jiva—the Shuddha Ananda containing the Chidghana & Ahaituka and giving rise to the PremaKama. The right harmony in intensity of the three elements is not yet fixed. — Daivabhava of Mahakali is fixed. The Maheshwari Pratistha is submerged, but the Mahalaxmi-Mahasaraswati continent is still too strong for the right intensity of the Mahakali inhabitant to fix itself. == In Samata there is still a tendency to return of depression by non-faith in Siddhi. == The Pranic deficiencies of Ananda have yet to be mended; the indriyas are now fixed in the subjective vishaya & the buddhi in chidghana of vishaya, but the prana is not yet free from the mem- ories of virodha in bhoga, eg in bad food, certain reminiscences of repulsion in sound, smell, sight, mental vishaya. These are however shadows that fall from the external auric shell and are rejected by the Prakriti when not compelled to respond. == Tapas-telepathy-trikaldrishti are now successfully combined and strong; but imperfection of trikaldrishti has to be mended before there can be perfection of tapas. ==
892 Jagrat rupa is once more seeking perfection in the crude. == Sudden development of the antardrishta; many scenes, stable, but marred by a constant "flottement" of the images—eg a sea against a rock, landscapes, in one a small cottage in the night, a fight in process, long continued flashes from & against the window from which first a light shone, figures behind watching a man on horse- back wading through a wide expanse of water, also long-continued etc. == Tapas & trikaldrishti are gaining in general force of fulfilment, but they act mentally not with the light. —
July 12th Lipi.
Perfect T3 as the result of the above combination; it cannot yet be steadily applied because of defect of energy in the physical prana and of faith in the physical mind. It is indicated by the Vani that telepathy must become trikal- drishti and trikaldrishti turn into Tapas = Chit-Tapas. Already the perfect examples of telepathy turned trikaldrishti are being given, long, continuous, many movemented, exact in each detail. == Dream is once more attempting to turn itself into swapna samadhi == Telepathic trikaldrishti is now acting with almost entire per- fection, only slightly marred by tapasic stress. Tapas is increasing in effectuality. All this in the mentality, not in vijnana. The resistance of thing in statu to the exact movement willed is now often overcome. ==
893 Lipi. 4. to the entire liberation of the tapas in the physical siddhi 5. to the authority of the lipi. (Both these are in the future in preparation) == After a long discontinuance of some months secondary uttha- pana has been resumed. Laghima-mahima are very strong, defect of anima persists. == Lipi 6. third chatusthaya perfected 7. finality of the Krishnadarshana. == Exact trikaldrishti of time.
July 13th A day of struggle. The T3 is attacked and underwent some relapse, but in the perfection gained, not in its continued activ- ity, except for some temporary failure in the activity of the tapas. Telepathy is sometimes clouded by will-thought masquerading as telepathy. == Samadhi is obstructed and does not make any advance. It is continually being suspended (ie thrown back to a former imperfec- tion) in swapna and antardrishta == Vijnana is almost suspended, except for an occasional action. The mentality is being exercised in non luminous reception & action according to a concealed vijnana behind. The attempt is to make it mechanically right in all its movements. == Sharira makes no sensible advance. == Ananda Brahman containing Ananta-Jnana = Suddha Ananda containing Chidghana seems to be fixed, but it is still capable of following to the greatest point of depression consistent with non-evanescence. ==
894 In pain even when intolerable there seems always now to be a basis and content of Ananda; it is only the skin, as it were, of the contact that still preserves the memory of mere pain. This is at least true up to a certain & a high degree of intensity. == The pranic nirananda of the vishaya is in course of disap- pearing; it is already immensely extenuated; eg in tasteless food, disagreeable sounds, bad smells, ugly or vulgar forms, uncomfort- able contacts. == Nirananda of event is now entirely physical & imposed by force from outside. Lipi
== The Dasya is constantly increasing in an all-embracing inten- sity. Madhura which has often fluctuated since May 26, but has always been behind the veil when not present or insistent in front, will now be always in front. Bhoga of the slave & instrument is also now complete. The presence of the Ishwara has often been veiled by his manomaya personalities & ganas, but is now to oc- cupy the directing centre in the Ananda tattwa. The triple Krishna affirmation is therefore perfected.
July 14th 15th Again an apparently stationary condition. The Ishwara remains, the forward action seems to be opposed & inhibited. Literary work is now done more rapidly.
13 Ch. Vsa = Chandra Vamsa. The question mark is Sri Aurobindo's.—Ed.
895 July 16th 17th, 18th The lapse into mentality with a disorganisation of the vijnana in T3, preparing a farther discarding of the imperfections in the pre- vious organisation, eg—stress of telepathy, stress of tapas, division of trikaldrishti from tapas. The Samadhi advances dully enlarging itself, but shadowy, not luminous or in possession of itself.
July 19th Development of swapna samadhi. Pages of lipi; but the power to read coherently is still withheld; coherent parts of sentences are frequent but mixed with parts of other sentences. Rupa, Vishaya & event are oftenest shadowy, but all kinds occur and there is occa- sional stability & continuity. Thought in Samadhi is fragmentary or suspended. Telepathy & trikaldrishti of tendencies & "contingent certain- ties" is greatly extended. Tapas is slowly recovering itself. Positive trikaldrishti is discouraged and tapas no longer sure of itself. Lipi 1 perfect inability to digest in the pristine fashion 2 perfect telepathy.
July 20th 21st Slow recovery of the organised vijnana. Mechanical unillumined trikaldrishti of exact time (3 times in one evening).
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July 31st July has been throughout a month of Asiddhi; retardation, suspension of activities gained has been its leading characteristic. All that is unripe in the siddhi has manifested itself, —all the error and false leading. ==
896 Samata is established except in regard to siddhi of result where continued asiddhi brings an occasional positive depression and vague touches not of asanti but of suffering & shadows of the old revolt against the leading. On the other hand complete samananda of siddhi asiddhi is obviously preparing & has become more normal than asamata. == In shakti faith is depressed, in siddhi of physical yoga, in siddhi of karma, in siddhi of rapidity and in God & self-power. It is doubted whether the leading is directly divine, whether the leader of the yoga is the Master of all. Mahakali-shakti is depressed in its Mahakali bhava. == The third chatusthaya is entirely clouded; its action is disorgan- ised & only mental, though constant. The satyam has gained, the ritam only occasionally manifests itself except in fragments. Power is slow & uncertain in its effectivity. Samadhi does not advance, but keeps beating against a wall of aggression. == Sharira is in all points obstructed & in most thrown back. == Karma gets no sure foundation; only sahitya progresses. Asid- dhi prevails in kriti. == In Brahmadarshana jnana is strong, Ananda Brahman vague & often only implicit. Krishnadarshana is no longer intense; although it is laying its foundations more solidly. ≡≡≡ A general physical lassitude & indifference of the will prevails. ===
897 August 1st रदत् पथो वरुणः सूर्याय प्रार्णांसि समु्द्रिया नदीनाम् | सग्रो न सृष्टो अर्वतीर्ॠतायच्ञकार महीरवनीरहभ्यः || 1 Wideness & purity of the Soul. (Varuna) 2 Has to cut out paths for the Vijnana in the mind. 3 Along those paths must be the flow of the higher existence. 4 The Tapasic impulsions and will-thought have to [be] turned into truth of Vijnana. 5. So all the activities or streams of the existence have to be made vast for the dawns of the Vijnana by the rapid movement of the wideness & purity. == Sukshma gandha recurred after a long time with intensity and frequency. == Vijnana is attempting once more to organise itself, better & more soundly than before. There is especially a perception of the relative truth of the physical, mental & vital satyam & ritam, with the absolute truth of the vijnana behind it. Ritam increases slowly but steadily in the trikaldrishti & telepathy. == August 2d Chiefly, a preparation of finality in the Anandamaya Ishwara- darshana. Formerly the Brahmadarshan was of the impersonal Sarvam Anantam Jnanam Anandam, centred either in the Sarvam or Anan- tam or Jnanam or at the highest in the Anandam. Now this is a past state that recurs; it is the Personal in & embracing the Impersonal that is now the more normal, but this is most often in the Jnanam. From yesterday it begins to be more fixedly, more recurrently, for a longer time in the Anandam. == At the same time the second chatusthaya with the Mahakali bhava tends to fix itself. There is sraddha in the struggle & power of battle, not yet firm sraddha in the result.
898 The main point is that the maintenance of Mahakali bhava no longer depends on successful manifestation of power. Formerly with insuccess it fell back to Maheshwari-Mahasaraswati, recently to M.M with quiescent Mahakali. At present it wavers between M3 with predominant Mahakali & insufficient Mahaluxmi colouring and M4 with insufficient Mahakali force. In the latter case Ma- heshwari pratistha tends to be hidden, as is intended, in Mahakali intensity of the prana, but the intensity ceases in the general Tapas. In the latter there is intensity of tapas, but the pratistha appears & emphasises itself so as to support the tapas & prevent a relapse into the rajasic Kali. In the former there is a harmony and the intended harmony, but with insufficient sense of power. This has now to be remedied. == Vijnana & Sharira continue as before; but in Vijnana there is the foreshadowing of victory, Sharira still dwells in the shadow of defeat. In Karma there is nothing decisive.
Aug 3. एवा वंदस्व वरुणः बृहंतं नमस्या धीरमर्मतस्य गोपां | इमां धियं शिक्षमाणस्य देव [ क्रतुं दक्षं]14 वरुणः सं शिशाधि == Yesterday sukshma gandha only in the evening, today active with the taste. Neither free. == A movement of the vijnana by which the central vani, script, thought (vangmaya) separate themselves from the indirect and apocryphal and assure themselves more firmly to the faith == This movement proceeds along with a[n] increasing firmness in the foundation of the Mahakali bhava and a definite assurance of the finality of the Ananda. == It is not yet clearly fixed for the intellect that the Master of the Yoga is the Master of the World, but it is fixed for the faith;
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899 & this is clear that it is the Swarat of the system accepting the conditions he has created for the work of development and not at once manifesting his full power and knowledge. It had already been indicated that this was his method—a progressive unveiling out of the satyam and anritam of the human creature. The same rule would then apply to him as Master of the World, Samrat,—but there the mastery is not yet so wide & absolute, the evolution has not proceeded so far and is therefore not so evident.
Aug 4. Faith today seems to be completely founded & formed except in the detail and in the rapidity, but faith in the detail is preparing. It remains to be seen whether what has been formed can again be shaken. == In the Vijnana a preparation of farther advance towards (1) certainty of trikaldrishti-telepathy, (2) more general effectivity of tapas, (3) firm foundation of samadhi which has again been ob- scured & depressed. In the kriti there is again some effectivity, no longer merely of detail; in the sharira as yet no advance. == Lipi
== There has been as yet no definite success in the directions indicated, only a general strengthening which does not visibly go beyond the actual results already obtained. The fluctuations of the vijnana still continue. == There is a tendency towards renewed activity in the Sharira especially in Ananda which has become sparse and sluggish. It has to be remembered in order to come.
900 Aug 5— A great advance towards certainty of the Ritam in the trikal- drishti. At the same time there has come a rush of the will-thought at- tempting to establish itself as the effective thought with the knowl- edge thought contained in it. This is the same movement which formerly followed any considerable advance of the siddhi, —a rush of Mahakali pravritti, with confidence in the immediate fulfilment of the hope, desire etc in the rajasic being and a subsequent recoil of disillusionment, disappointment and loss of faith. At present, however, the will-thought is much more normally effective than it ever was before; but it is not yet entirely effective and seldom immediately effective. Its enlightenment is imperfect & even when it is right, it is still half obscure of the nature of right- Force but not of Light or luminous right force. It is not kratum sachetasam, but only prajavat, suvitam. The harmony of the will-thought & knowledge-thought must be the next step, leading to their entire oneness. == Some slight advance, but not yet quite firm in the jagrad antardrishta. Perfect forms initially stable. == Constant movement towards settled perfection for several days in the Brahma and Krishnadarshana.
Aug 6. Movement towards harmony of the will-thought & knowl- edge-thought. Greater effectiveness of the will-thought. == Increasing frequency of the pure inspired & revelatory vijnana. == The whole process of the Yoga is now concentrated towards the perfection of the vijnana (samadhi excepted) and the perfection of the Krishnadarshana. In the former the entire perception by sanyama of the mental state of the object is now frequent, but the entire perception of the thought has to be added: the right (rita)
901 perception of the trikaldrishti in that which is near in place & time is gained and frequent, but the perception of that which is far in time & place is inadequate. There is also the lapse into the intel- lectual perception visited by vijnana from the general vijnanamaya perception suffered by the intellectual & sensational mind. These defects have to be remedied. In the Krishnadarshana, the difficulty of the entire perception of all forms as entirely Krishna is still only occasional & the siddhi which has progressed rapidly oscillates back into the lower stages from and through which it has progressed. The Shakti is aiming at the final removal of these defects. == The movement of the Samadhi is again suspended. == Sharira still continues in the same state of obstruction. == Ananda (kama) in sharira tries to move again towards normal continuity, the others towards normal recurrence.
Aug 7— The Krishnadarshana has surmounted several of its difficulties. Formerly the adult vulgar & hirsute masculine face did not at once throw back the idea of Krishna. Now all faces at once reflect him. There was also a division between the Krishna in human form & the formless & universal Krishna. Either the first was intensely sensed & the latter became merely Brahman or the latter was seen & the human form became a mask of Brahman + guna etc. This is now in type surmounted; but the Siddhi goes back to this stage firmly in order to bridge over the division by proceeding from the universal to the individual and no longer from the individual to the universal. In all probability this movement will be complete today. == The tapas is becoming extraordinarily effective both in general movement & in exact movement whether of things in statu or things in motu. But it is only occasionally effective immediately
902 & without resistance. Therefore for things in motu the perfect movement is delay[ed], others contrary or imperfect intervening, or there is a failure of the occasion. In the latter case either the failure is definitive or the object returns to the same place & executes the movement or some other comes & executes it in its place. For things in motu, the movement is often executed, but in another place & time than was first indicated, after one or more contrary or imperfect movements; sometimes it is done immediately, sometimes in the same place but after delay or return. Nevertheless the end of resistance is within sight for things near in time & place == Vani has assumed the entire madhura dasya relation which is beginning to affirm itself definitively; with it comes the full sense of the Lila and the attahasya. The intermediate vani now makes no difference. This siddhi is extending itself to the script & vangmaya. At the same time the perceptive thought is becoming more powerful in trikaldrishti. == Tivra Ananda is becoming much more intense and tends to unite itself with madhura. Raudra is becoming frequently spontaneous (without sma- rana). The perfect spontaneity of all the sharira Anandas must be assured before there can be fixed recurrence and continuity. == The entire Krishnadarshana, individual in universal, universal in individual and both the same, is now accomplished. It has yet to be given such force & consistency as to eliminate all relapse and to be raised to higher intensities. == Farther combination of the instruments of the vijnana; espe- cially script begins to work simultaneously with vangmaya which is getting rid of sthula sabda. == Renewed activity of samadhi in all parts, but with insufficiently
903 firm hold on the akasha. There is sometimes perfect combination, but no stability and lipi in swapna has not recovered its coherence.
Aug 8th 1. Dieu sorti de l'ecole 2. fonder l'enseignement morale.
There is again a point of arrest, farther progress attempting to realise itself, a passive obstruction resisting. In the tapas & knowledge the movement is toward immediate effectiveness of the tapas and automatic accuracy in detail of the knowledge. This is sometimes entirely realised, but immediately afterwards contradicted. In Krishnadarshana it is the intensity. In rupa it is the fixity & perfection of the rupa in all its variety. Finally, the effective control of the body & of all outward result by the Will == The activity of Samadhi continued—stability and firm con- tinuity, but not very prolonged. Occasional coherence of lipi in Swapna. == On the whole, however, the day has been one of arrest. The Tapas etc fell back slightly and the force of the Mahakali bhava; at the same time there was no forcible retrogression. == Kriti continues to be slight & limited, but it works. == It is felt that another advance is being prepared.
Aug 9th The day chiefly occupied with Sahitya. == Spontaneous gandhadrishti shows a tendency to regularise itself.
904 Sukshma vak is also developing in its spontaneity. == The more subtle form of the vangmaya is already established; the script unsupported by vangmaya is also developing. == There is a suspension of organised vijnanamaya perception; but trikaldrishti of exact time is repeating itself. It is telepathic in its suggestion, rather than vijnanamaya; but it is trikaldrishti, not telepathy. == Sukshma vak tends now to develop sentences and is growing rich in implicit voices. All drishti is attempting to break down the veils that have so long confined it. Sparsha is much stronger than before, but does not get beyond the habitual touches. The barriers still prevail in rupa. Since writing, however, three or four dense & developed forms have appeared stable straight under the eyes. == Rupa in swapna samadhi is growing in habitual intensity, but there is still the influence of the chhaya over all, though all is not now chhayamaya. == Aug 10th तममृक्षंत वाजिनमुपस्थे अदितेरधि विप्रासो अण्व्या धिया. That is to say, the suspension of the vijnana action is for the purification of the Pranic Force in the vast of the infinite conscious- ness by the right action of the pure mind. == Great stability in profound swapna-samadhi. Repeated coherence & samadhi character of swapna. == During the day no sensible advance. Occasionally it is shown that the siddhi has not really retrograded. == The movement is towards a more complete possession by
905 the Ananda & Vijnana & the elevation of vijnana thought and perception to the pure drishti & sruti. But the obstruction seeks to draw it back to the intellectuality. This obstruction is being used as a means for the necessary transformation; it allows the habit of the inferior activity of vijnana to be weakened by suspension. == There is also an assertion that the decisive effectivity of the tapas is to be evolved. ==
Aug 11th 12th Dream & samadhi united at the borderline. — There is now definitely a new period of obstruction & of at- tempt at relapse; hostile attack is evident & not merely the pause of transition. Even the Samata has been slightly touched. == In the Krishnadarshan all that has now to be done is to exhaust the force of the habit of relapse which allows the opposition to affect the consciousness attained & throw it back to the simple Brahmadarshan or even the mere Sarvam & Ananta or Jnana or else to the inferior stages of the Krishnadarshana. This reversion seems now to be merely mechanical & to happen only because it has happened in the past and can still be forced on the consciousness in the present. == The loss of faith in the Sharira & Karma is still possible & brings with it brief touches of Asamata with all the old symp- toms & reversions to the mere Mahasaraswati type. All these are forced upon the system by long and persistent violence & with great difficulty and are not natural to it, much less normal. == Yet the suspension of the Vijnana is not real, but only an appearance fastened onto the mind by sheer force. The coverlid is held on by sheer force & whenever contrary force is applied, it is lifted.
906 Aug 13th 14th Progress chiefly in samadhi, confirmation of one or two stable dense & developed rupas, coherence of dream etc; but nothing very strongly decided. == The adverse current prevails in sharira and kriti and is not yet removed in the rest of the siddhi. The most discouraging fact is the return, however slight & transient, of the circumstances of the Asamata, ashanti, asukham which seemed to have been definitely excluded. Although no lodgment was effected, the attack itself con- tradicts this elementary & initial finality. The hope of rapidity in the rest of the siddhi has now to be postponed indefinitely. == Krishnadarshana is also successfully resisted & kept fluctuat- ing between its inferior degrees & those of the Brahmadarshana. == Seven days have been given to almost entire asiddhi & almost the whole of July. None of the instruments of Vijnana can yet be firmly & wholly trusted, since they all seem to give themselves to the intrusion of inferior powers. == Physical Ananda is infrequent and the vishayas again rare & sluggish.
Aug 15th 16th विहि होत्रा अविताः[विपो न रायो]15 अर्यः- == The Siddhi is again dominant in the vijnana, but the element of mental error remains, though subordinated, & the element of tapasic ineffectivity. The higher energies of the vijnana are trying to manifest, Repeatedly indications that seem to be contradicted or in constant course of contradiction & the corresponding tapas fulfil themselves victoriously; but the fulfilment is not always perfect. ==
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907 There is as yet no firm possession of the Vijnana and the realisa- tions acquired sometimes descend and take possession, sometimes stand back & allow the old conditions to play in front of them, sometimes seem to be almost entirely obscured. == At present a process is going on with the mind in which that is at the mercy of mental suggestions and all that is true is carried on from above automatically, the mind being only a channel and not participating except very slightly & wrongly. == Later on (16th morning) entire return of the siddhi (tapas- telepathy-trikaldrishti-lipi). == Ananda sharira is again becoming normally active. The whole poise of the siddhi has been restored and the beginnings of a new organisation manifest.
Aug 26th The last nine or ten days have been a period of uncertainty and confused labour; the main result has been to confirm the satyam entirely in knowledge thought & will thought on both the two planes of nervous & pure mental mind, but not yet in the intuitive mind; for satyam of intuitive mind = ritam. Tapas effectiveness varies between all the different degrees from postponed or deflected effectivity to 80º Telepathy is in the same condition, active, but not well- organised. Samadhi is obstructed. == Krishnadarshana is firm in the Jnanam Brahma, but Anandam Brahma is not yet sufficiently brought forward, —therefore the full intensity is ordinarily absent. == Sharira is still denied. == Kriti is stronger than before, but very partial. ==
908 यदुत्त्मे मरुतो मध्यमे वा यव्दावमे सुभगासो दिवि ष्ठ अतो नो रुद्रा उत वा न्वस्याग्ने वित्ताध्दविषो यद्यजाम || अग्निश्र्च यन्मरुतो विश्र्ववेदसो दिवो वहध्वे उत्तरादधि ष्णुभिः ते मंदसाना धुनयो रिशादसो वामं धत्त यजमानाय सुन्वते ||
This is an indication that the satyam (and ananda) are to be extended to the highest or intuitive mind as well as the two others. It has begun to be fulfilled to a certain extent. == Gandha seems now to be fixed in recurrence, but it is some- times rare, sometimes more frequent. Rasa also comes, but less firm & intense & often as a result of gandha. The others are frequently suspended & do not attain to any new variety or freedom. == Raudrananda has increased, especially in the agneya-sparsha. == |
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