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The Mother's Presence
Why do I sometimes feel myself far from the Mother? I want to be able to feel her constantly with me. The Mother is always there with you. You have only to throw away the forces of Ignorance to feel her with you always. 1 August 1933
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You have said: "Always behave as if the Mother was looking at you; because she is, indeed, always present."1 Does this mean that the Mother knows all our insignificant thoughts at all times, or only when she concentrates? It is said that the Mother is always present and looking at you. That does not mean that in her physical mind she is thinking of you always and seeing your thoughts. There is no need of that, since she is everywhere and acts everywhere out of her universal knowledge. It seems to me that the more we communicate our thoughts to her, the more we open ourselves to her forces and the more effective becomes our surrender to her. Am I right? Yes, quite right. 12 August 1933
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In what sense is the Mother "everywhere"? Is it because she has descended to the universal and has complete knowledge
1 This message of Sri Aurobindo was first hung in the dining hall of the Ashram on 28 March 1928. —Ed.
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of the forces working there? I suppose the universal or "everywhere" includes the physical plane. If so, does the Mother know all the happenings and events on the physical plane? Including what Lloyd George had today for breakfast or what Roosevelt said to his wife about their servants? Why should the Mother "know" in the human way all such happenings on the physical plane? Her business in her embodiment is to know the working of the universal forces and use them for her work; for the rest she knows what she needs to know, sometimes with her inner self, sometimes with her physical mind. All knowledge is available in her universal self to her, but she brings forward only what is meant to be brought forward so that the work may be done. 13 August 1933
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I had a dream in which I was walking alone in the desert. Was the meaning of the dream that this sadhana is very dry and difficult? No. It is perhaps how some part of the vital or physical consciousness figured it. But the path is not a desert nor are you alone, since the Mother is with you. 2 November 1933
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My vital does not seem to have devotion for the Mother. Instead of loving her, it gets mixed with undivine forces. Protect me from these vital obstructions. I wish to feel that I am lying in the Mother's lap. The Mother is always with you. The vital has its desires and therefore does not believe in the Mother's presence. You have to call down the Mother's Force into it to remove its doubts and desires. 11 November 1933
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The Mother is always with you. Put your faith in her, remain quiet within and do with that quietude what has to be done. You will become more and more aware of her constant Presence, will
Page – 170 feel her action behind yours and the burden of your work will no longer be heavy on you. 21 April 1935
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You have written: "Always behave as if the Mother was looking at you; because she is, indeed, always present." On the other hand, you wrote to me recently that it was not physically possible for her to be present everywhere. When I asked the Mother about this, she said that she could be present in many places. How to reconcile these contradictory statements? If by physically you mean corporeally, in her visible tangible material body, it is obvious that it cannot be. When you asked Mother the question she did not understand you to mean that —she said she could be present everywhere, and she meant, of course, in her consciousness. It is the consciousness and not the body that is the being, the person; the body is only a support and instrument for the action of the consciousness. Mother can be personally present in her consciousness. The universal presence of course is always there and the universal and personal are two aspects of the same being. 25 August 1936
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Sometimes the thought comes to me: "Outwardly and inwardly, I am very far from the Mother." Why does it come? It is the feeling of the physical or outward being which is by its ignorance unable to feel the Mother's nearness. How can I convince myself of the falsity of this thought and drive it away? The Mother is always near and within, it is only the obscurity of mind and vital that do not see or feel it. That is a knowledge which the mind ought to hold firmly. 29 April 1937
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Live always as if you were under the very eye of the Supreme and of the Divine Mother. Do nothing, try to think and feel nothing that would be unworthy of the Divine Presence. 16 April 1930
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The constant presence of the Mother comes by practice; the Divine Grace is essential for success in the sadhana, but it is the practice that prepares the descent of the Grace. You have to learn to go inward, ceasing to live in external things only, quiet the mind and aspire to become aware of the Mother's workings in you. 2 July 1930
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How and when can one feel the Mother's concrete presence all the time? It is a matter, first, of the constant activity of the psychic and secondly of the conversion of the physical and its openness to inner supraphysical experience. Apart from the vital and its disturbances the physical is the chief difficulty in establishing a continuity of Yogic consciousness and experience. If the physical is thoroughly transformed —opened and conscious —then stability and continuity become easy. 16 October 1933
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It is quite necessary to realise the Mother in her formless presence and not only in her form. December 1933
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But I do not see why you call the feeling sentimental or think that your sense of the presence of the Mother in the heart —beats etc. was unreal. It was your psychic being that suggested it to you and the response showed that the consciousness was ready. Mother felt that something was happening in you and felt that it was the beginning of a realisation —she was encouraging it and
Page – 172 did not discourage. If it had been a wrong or vital movement she would not have felt like that. 13 August 1934
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We believe that it is the Mother who does the sadhana in us, but we scarcely feel it. I suppose there must be some veil in us. It is a veil which disappears when the Mother's working as well as her presence is consciously felt at all times. 7 January 1935
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Is there any difference between the Mother's Presence and the Divine Consciousness? One can feel the Divine Consciousness impersonally as a new consciousness only. The Mother's Presence is something more —one feels herself there present within or above or enveloping one or all these together. 8 July 1935
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The feeling of the Mother's Presence or nearness does not depend on whether you write or do not write. Many who write often do not feel it, some who write seldom feel her always close. 11 June 1936
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You write: "One can feel the Divine Consciousness impersonally as a new consciousness only"2 but that the Mother's presence is something more. You also wrote in another letter that the Divine Presence in the heart is much more than the consciousness. In what way is the Presence more than the consciousness? I meant that one can feel the divine consciousness as an impersonal spiritual state, a state of peace, light, joy, wideness without feeling in it the Divine Presence. The Divine Presence is felt as
2 See letter of 8 July 1935 above. —Ed.
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that of one who is the living source and essence of that light etc., a Being therefore, not merely a spiritual state. The Mother's Presence is still more concrete, definite, personal —it is not that of Someone unknown, of a Power or Being, but of one who is known, intimate, loved, to whom one can offer all the being in a living concrete way. The image is not indispensable, though it helps —the presence can be inwardly felt without it. 2 July 1936
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There is no such necessary precedence as that first one must feel the Presence and then only can one feel oneself the Mother's; it is more often the increase of the feeling that brings the Presence. For the feeling comes from the psychic consciousness and it is the growth of the psychic consciousness that makes the constant Presence at last possible. The feeling comes from the psychic and is true of the inner being —its not being yet fulfilled in the whole does not make it an imagination; on the contrary, the more it grows the more is the likelihood of the whole being fulfilling this truth; the inner bhava takes more and more possession of the outer consciousness and remoulds it so as to make it a truth there also. This is the constant principle of action in the Yogic transformation —what is true within comes out and takes possession of the mind and heart and will and through them prevails over the ignorance of the outer members and brings the inner truth out there also. 16 September 1936
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What stands in the way is the recurring circle of the old mixture. To break out of that is very necessary to arrive at an inner Yogic calm and peace not disturbed by these things. If that is established, it will be possible to feel in it the Mother's Presence, to open to her guidance, to get, not by occasional glimpses but in a steady opening and flowering, the psychic perception and the descent of the spiritual Light and Ananda. For that help will be with you. 7 March 1937
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Page – 174 It is quite right and part of the right consciousness in sadhana that you should feel drawn in your heart towards the Mother and aspire for the vision and realisation of her presence. But there should not be any kind of restlessness joined to this feeling. The feeling should be quietly intense. It will then be easier for the sense of the presence to come and to grow in you.
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I feel some movement coming down from above and as if it was broadening my head and face. The whole movement is towards the Mother. What can this be? Has it any direct relation with my artistic creations? Yes. It is the result of the pressure put by the Mother to see and do things in the true light. What you feel coming down is the true consciousness with the presence and action of the Mother.
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Mother gave me a quiet mind today. Ever since pranam I have been feeling her atmosphere; some force which I feel to be hers is upon my head and around me. My restlessness is much less, almost gone. It is the Mother's touch that you feel upon you —and that indicates her presence. In the state of the consciousness it is the Force working on the system which brings what is needed or aspired to, peace or light or happiness and the psychic opening. Peace, quiet, followed by a happy state and a psychic opening is what you need —let that grow always.
Spiritual Possibility due to the Mother's Presence
How much freedom is given to every sadhak here! But how many of us know what is meant by a Guru and how to respect him and treat him? Certainly very few seem to realise what a possibility has been given them here —all has been turned into an opportunity for the bubbling of the vital or the tamas of the physical rather than
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used for the intended psychic and spiritual purpose. 7 March 1936
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You write, "Certainly very few seem to realise what a possibility has been given them here." What precisely do you mean by "possibility" —possibility of what? I was not speaking of any particular thing —but the whole spiritual possibility due to the Mother's presence here. Very few realise what that means and even those who have some idea of it take little advantage and allow their lower nature to block the progress. 9 March 1936
The Mother's Presence and the Adverse Forces
X writes: "One thing I do not understand. Though I feel the Mother so near to me, these forces still dare to come and disturb me. How is this possible?" Please tell me what to reply to him. The forces can always be there so long as there is not the transformation of the whole nature. They manifest themselves whenever they can. But if the Presence of the Mother can always be felt vividly and continuously, then one need not be troubled by their endeavours; one can face and repel them in the full consciousness of the Mother's grace and protection. 1936 The Mother's Presence and Human Imperfection
Do doubt and ego continue even after one has the realisation of the Divine Consciousness and the Mother's Presence? No doubt can remain if there is the realisation of the Divine Consciousness and the Mother's Presence. Imperfections may remain in the outer being, but they do not trouble the inner being and can be got rid of quietly.
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Page – 176 In your letters you say always that the Mother has withdrawn from you and you think she does it deliberately because of some fault or defect in your nature. This is an error. The Mother is always present with you; she does not withdraw. But if you believe otherwise, if you always expect her to withdraw, it will cloud your perception and prevent you from realising her presence. On the contrary, have the faith that, whether you feel it or not, her presence and her protection are always there. When old feelings or attachments rise from the subconscient, call her force and light in to clear all that is obscure, for they are there always ready to act. Do not admit any thoughts or ideas that lead to despondency or any kind of tamas. 6 May 1930
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It is quite true that if the consciousness remains always centred in the Mother, then there would be no place for any kind of obscuration or disturbance; but that is not easy for the human mind and vital to get at once. One has to go on perseveringly till one has reached it. The quickness with which the consciousness changes is a feature of the ordinary action of the physical consciousness when it is active and not inert. But many of the things you now feel (of which you speak in your letters), e.g. the idea of the Mother's presence and her regard on you, the reference in what you think and do to her with the idea of her approval or disapproval, are signs that the psychic is acting in your lower vital and physical mind and increasing its rule over their movements. The forms that came before your eyes are sometimes glimpses of the things on other planes, sometimes symbols; e.g., the golden water, golden tree, rising moon. At certain stages of the inner opening such things come in great number before the inner vision. The feet of which you saw the golden footprints must have been the Mother's in one of her divine forms descending from the higher plane. The pricking and the heat are both of them signs of an action of the Force taking place within and so affecting the body. The psychic relations I spoke of are those which men form
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in life which help the power of the psychic to grow and prepare it for the time when it will be ready to come forward and govern the mind, vital and body instead of allowing the mind or the vital to lead the rest. There is a difference between the psychic and the self. The self is the Atman above which is one in all, remains always wide, free, pure, untouched by the action of life in its ignorance. Its nature is peace, freedom, light, wideness, Ananda. The psychic (antaratma) is the individual being which comes down into life and travels from birth to birth and feels the experiences and grows by them till it is able to join itself with the pure Atman above. 9 April 1936
I saw the Mother in an experience. Is it an emanation of hers that I saw or is it her whole body and whole consciousness? An emanation. How can her physical body be seen in a dream experience? 7 July 1933
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The Mother when she works in the supra —physical levels goes out in a different emanation to each sadhak. 11 December 1933
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During the afternoon sleep I often come in contact with the Mother. Is it the Mother who sends her emanation?
Yes. Or rather something of her is always with you. 14 December 1933 The Mother's Knowledge and Her Emanations
In the case of X, I was under the impression that Mother could at once know of such things. Some even say that she knows everything —all that is material or spiritual. Good Lord! you don't expect her mind to be a factual encyclopaedia of all that is happening on all the planes and in all the
Page – 178 universes? Or even on this earth —e.g. what Lloyd George had for dinner yesterday? Others maintain that she knows when the question of consciousness is involved . . . Questions of consciousness of course she always knows even with her outermost physical mind. Material facts she can know but is not bound to do it. The matter however is too complex for answer in a short space. but as for material details, she does not know. What would be true to say, is that she can know if she concentrates or if her attention is called to it and she decides to know. I often know from her what has happened before it is reported by anyone. But she does not care to do that on a general scale. But if she does not know, what is the meaning of your message: "Always behave as if the Mother was looking at you; because she is, indeed, always present"? It is the emanation of the Mother that is with each sadhak all the time. In former days when she was spending the night in a trance actively working in the Asram, she brought back with her the knowledge of all that was happening to everybody. Nowadays she has no time for that. This question of Mother's knowledge became even more interesting for me today. She gave me the flower signifying "Discipline". I began to wonder why this particular flower was given; then I remembered that yesterday I had not observed the right discipline by taking a little hot khichari with Y and Z. In this respect the Mother is guided by her intuitions which tell her which flower is needed at the moment or helpful. Sometimes it is accompanied by a perception of a particular state of consciousness, sometimes by that of a material fact; but only
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the bare fact, usually —e.g. it would not specify that it was hot khichari that was cooked or how Y or Z came in. Not that that is impossible, but it is unnecessary and does not happen unless needed. Anyway, please tell me how far Mother and you know about our physical, material affairs. In this case it was a general hint with no special reference to khichari. 16 July 1935
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What you say about emanations is very interesting. The Mother then has about 150 emanations; adding 150 of yours, we find that we are each protected by one god and one goddess. I am not aware of any emanations of mine. As for the Mother's, they are not there for protection, but to support the personal relation or contact with the sadhaka and to act so far as he will allow them to act. 16 July 1935
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Kindly tell us a little more about emanations. How do they support the personal relation or contact the Mother has with us? I thought that all personal relations were with the Mother direct, not through a deputy! It is terribly difficult to write of these things, for you are all as ignorant as blazes about these things and misunderstand at every step. The Emanation is not a deputy, but the Mother herself. She is not bound to her body, but can put herself out (emanate) in any way she likes. What emanates, suits itself to the nature of the personal relation she has with the sadhak which is different with each, but that does not prevent it from being herself. Its presence with the sadhak is not dependent on his consciousness of it. If everything were dependent on the surface consciousness of the sadhak, there would be no possibility of the divine action anywhere; the human worm would remain the human worm
Page – 180 and the human ass the human ass for ever and ever. For if the Divine could not be there behind the veil, how could either ever become conscious of anything but their wormhood and asshood even throughout the ages? When X says that he feels the Mother's physical touch or approach, with whom does he have the contact —the Mother or the emanation? With the Mother, the emanation helping —which is its business. 19 July 1935 The Mother's Awareness of Thoughts and Actions
The Mother can know our thoughts, but can she also know the exact words in the thoughts? If the mind of the person is very clear, yes: otherwise it may be only the substance that comes or a part of the thought or some general idea. 19 May 1933
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In the case of X, the Mother fined the servant boy on such apparently insufficient grounds that it looks illogical. I cannot help thinking that she acted on a strong intuition which she felt and knew to be correct. Mother acted on her inner perception about the whole affair; she does not act only on the outer facts but on what she feels or sees lying behind them. 29 August 1935
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What you write about X is true. She does not realise that Mother knows all these things by other means and any information given to her only adds certain physical precisions to what she knows already. How can she be open when she has such ideas against the Mother? They must necessarily shut her up to the Mother's influence.
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Mother has written to her that Y had said nothing and that she knew things about X, independently of any information, from X's inner being itself which comes to her constantly and tells her or shows her what is in the nature. The Mother besides sees things in vision and receives the thoughts of the sadhaks at Pranam and other times. Only the Mother never acts on these supraphysical intimations, unless there is a physical confirmation like the letter itself in this case. For nobody would understand her action —the sadhaks living in the physical mind would state her action unfounded and those affected would deny loudly —as many have done in the past —their secret thoughts, feelings and actions. I tell you all this in confidence so that you may understand what is the real cause of Mother's letters to X. 10 September 1936
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Are our physical movements reflected in the Mother's mind and seen by her as images, or do they occur in her consciousness at the same time as we do them? But that would be very puzzling. The movements of two hundred people would appear before her eyes every minute or occur in her consciousness. Besides, it would be a very material kind of telepathy. It would not be worthwhile. Mother can see what people are doing by images received by her in the subtle state which corresponds to sleep or concentration or by images or intimations received in the ordinary state; but much even of what comes to her automatically like that is unnecessary and to be always receiving everything would be intolerably troublesome as it would keep the consciousness occupied with a million trivialities; so that does not happen. What is more important is to know their inner condition and it is this chiefly which comes to her. 29 June 1937 Feeling the Mother's Presence and Seeing Visions
Is it true that when the Presence (image) is seen in the heart all the habits and movements of the lower nature will disappear
Page – 182 and there will be no more disturbances from it? The image and the Presence are not the same. One can feel the Presence without seeing the image. But to produce the results you speak of, the Presence in the heart is not sufficient, there must be Presence in the whole consciousness and the Force of the Mother governing all the action of the nature.
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You wrote yesterday in regard to X's visions: "Openness is not reckoned merely by visions." Quite so. But to have a fusion of the rays of the sun and moon on each side of the body, and to feel the descent and the Mother's presence in, behind and above oneself, is this not an exceptional vision and experience? Can it occur without sufficient opening to the Mother? Why should it be exceptional to see the Sun and Moon on each side or to feel the Mother's presence everywhere around? There are plenty of sadhaks who have had these or equivalent experiences. What would be exceptional is to feel the Mother's presence like that always. But occasional experiences like these many have had. 15 September 1936 Feeling the Mother's Presence through a Photograph
When I sit in meditation before the Mother's photographs or the painting of her feet, I get more Force than when I sit at a distance —on my easy chair, for example. I have noticed that this happens invariably and I suppose it is not subjective merely. But I want to know the real truth from you. No, it is not subjective merely. By your meditating near them, you have been able to enter through them into communion with the Mother and something of her presence and power is there. 14 July 1934
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Your experience about the photograph was a very fine and true experience. The Mother's presence can be felt through the photograph by one who regards it with devotion towards her. It was her true presence that was there, her subtle physical presence and all you felt was true. It shows that your physical mind is opening to the true consciousness. It is quite sure that this will grow and the remnants of the old movements are bound to disappear. 2 May 1936 Remembering the Mother and Feeling Her Presence
Today I felt that the only thing important is the Divine, nothing else. I tried to keep this experience all day long, but just before I sat down to write, I felt depression and confusion coming. But still I remembered my experience. That is what should always be done. If, instead of yielding to the depression and confusion when they come, you immediately remembered and turned to the Mother, calling the Light and Force, remembering the Divine, rejecting everything else, then these lapses would diminish and light would come into the whole nature. 1 July 1930
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It is the outer nature that is obscure and when it is at ease, feels no necessity of remembering the Mother —when the difficulty comes, then it feels the necessity and remembers. But the inner being is not like that. 11 May 1933
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There must be something soiled in human love —otherwise why should I feel like this? After some problem with X in which he told me some unpleasant things, my vital got disturbed and my mind got confused. I kept remembering the incident over and over instead of remembering the Mother. I have come here for her —why then do my mind and vital want to make contact with human beings and acquire their narrow love and affection? Tell me now what I should do.
Page – 184 These are the usual weaknesses of the human nature when it makes relations with human beings —there are always these clashes and difficulties and turmoil in the vital. If you want to be free from them, do what we have already told you —look on all with a kindly feeling, as children of the Mother, but without any special relation and without any expectation from anybody. Yoga demands an equanimity of mind towards all things and persons. 17 November 1933
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What you have seen as the thing to do is quite correct. To remember the Mother always and to offer up to her all that comes is just the thing to do. There must come a condition in which you live within in the psychic consciousness with the feeling of the Mother's constant presence, while all the outer activities go on only on the surface and the Mother's Force acts on them to change them into more and more true psychic and spiritual action. The way you speak of is the best for bringing about that condition. Offer all to the Mother in complete confidence and do not be troubled or anxious about the difficulties that rise, but go on calmly and patiently till they pass. 28 March 1936
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I will be seeing the Mother tomorrow, but I would also like some message from you. Please tell me something which I can always turn to for help and contact during my stay in Bombay. I pray that I may feel the presence of the Mother and yourself throughout my days far away and come back safely to my home here at your feet. Remember the Mother and, though physically far from her, try to feel her with you and act according to what your inner being tells you would be her will. Then you will be best able to feel her presence and mine and carry our atmosphere around you as a protection and a zone of quietude and light accompanying you everywhere. 12 December 1936
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It is quite possible for you to do sadhana at home and in the midst of your work —many do so. What is necessary at the beginning is to remember the Mother as much as possible, to concentrate on her in the heart for a time every day, if possible thinking of her as the Divine Mother, to aspire to feel her there within you, offer her your works and pray that from within she may guide and sustain you. This is a preliminary stage which often takes long, but if one goes through it with sincerity and steadfastness, the mentality begins little by little to change and a new consciousness opens in the sadhak which begins to be aware more and more of the Mother's presence within, of her working in the nature and in the life or of some other spiritual experience which opens the gate towards realisation. 22 February 1937 The Psychic and the Mother's Presence
The Mother's presence is always there; but if you decide to act on your own —your own idea, your own notion of things, your own will and demand upon things, then it is quite likely that her presence will get veiled; it is not she who withdraws from you, but you who draw back from her. But your mind and vital don't want to admit that, because it is always their preoccupation to justify their own movements. If the psychic were allowed its full predominance, this would not happen; it would have felt the veiling, but it would at once have said, "There must have been some mistake in me, a mist has arisen in me," and it would have looked and found the cause. 25 March 1932
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When I am alone I feel a sweet flow of love for the Mother and surrender to her welling out from my heart. But when I am in her physical presence I do not feel this love. Why does this happen? It is when you live in the psychic that there is this feeling —but the psychic commands at present only a part of the mind and vital —it does not yet control the most external parts, that is
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If you feel the Mother's presence for the greater part of the day, it means that it is your psychic being that is active and feels like that —for without the activity of the psychic it would not be possible. Therefore your psychic being is there and not at all far off. 14 March 1935
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What you feel is not imagination. You have been going more and more into the psychic consciousness deep within you. When one is in the psychic, one begins to feel the presence of the Mother always with one and this becomes more and more frequent, constant, vivid and real as the psychic develops its power. This presence is felt in different ways by different sadhaks, but it is a true experience of the sadhana. It is what we mean when we say that the sadhak must come to feel always the presence of the Mother in his heart or within him. For in fact she is there always, only her presence is veiled by the ordinary movements of the mind, vital and physical, but when these become quiet and the psychic unveils itself, then one feels the presence of the Divine within. 29 February 1936
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He must go into himself and find the presence of the Divine Mother within and the psychic behind the heart and from there the knowledge will come and also the power to dissolve the inner obstacles. 21 December 1936
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It is good that you have come out of the bad condition. It is true that before the darshan or at that time attacks are apt to be violent —for the forces that oppose are very conscious and use their whole strength to spoil the darshan if they can. What has to be gained is the constant prominence of that part which is
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always aware of the Mother —it is of course the psychic —for that though it can be covered over for the time being cannot be misled by the contrary suggestions. Once it is awake, it always reemerges from obscuration —that is the guarantee of the final arrival at the goal, but if it can be maintained in front or even consciously felt behind in all conditions, then the stages of the way also become comparatively safe and can be passed with greater ease and security. 6 February 1937
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In the evening meditation, there was an intense movement of surrender from the heart. I had the feeling of Mother's presence immediately in front of me and aspiration rose up from below. There was a willing and loving surrender from the heart, from the entire being, as if for fulfilment. I suppose the psychic being came to the front. You had the psychic condition there and that means a coming of the influence of the psychic being to the front. But why did I feel the Mother's presence in front of me and not within me? It is when there is a complete psychic opening within that there is the presence within. The Presence in front means that it was with you, but had still to enter within. 13 July 1937 Feeling the Mother's Presence in Sleep Is what X writes in his poem possible? He says: "Even in sleep —depths I am wide awake To thy sweet Presence that is always there." That does happen, but usually only when the psychic is in full activity. 27 September 1934
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It [feeling the Mother's presence during sleep] follows naturally
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It is for most people not easy to feel the Mother's presence with the work —they feel as if they are doing the work, the mind getting busy and not having the right passivity or quietude.
You write যতদিন না আমার psychic being জাগে.3 But your psychic being is already awakened, if it were not, you would not have these experiences. The inner being which you feel in union with the Mother is the psychic being. As you probably have not quite understood what I wrote to you, it might be better if you show Nolini my letter and ask him to explain to you the difference between the three layers (স্তর) of the being about which I have spoken in the letter — (1) The inmost psychic being which is now awakened in you. (2) The external being which you feel doing work while the inner (psychic) is in union with the Mother. (3) The inner mental, vital and physical consciousness which connects the two, but of which you are not as yet conscious. 9 April 1931
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Is it true that one should feel that it is the Divine Presence which moves one and does everything for one? Would it be possible to feel it without a union with the Divine Mother? No —that is itself a union with her —to feel the Divine Presence above or in you and moving you. 14 July 1933
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Nowadays I feel that even my blood flow is united with the Mother. When I breathe in, it is the Mother breathing in me and when I breathe out it is she who breathes out of me. Please tell me how my sadhana is proceeding. It is going on all right. The more the union with the Mother increases, the better for the sadhana. 2 October 1933
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I do not understand what some sadhaks mean by union with the Mother. Sometimes one feels a nearness, but that does not give one the same perception that the Mother has or her knowledge, purity, wideness. In what way can it be called a union? I suppose they are trying to feel the Mother's presence, so if they get some sort of feeling of nearness, they call it union. But of course that is only a step towards union. Union is much more than that. 5 March 1934
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While sitting in the meditation hall, I felt a sort of oneness with the Mother's consciousness. But these days it is not possible to go deep in meditation at all. Perhaps it is not even necessary if there is receptivity in the waking state. What is most important is the change of consciousness of which this feeling of oneness is a part. The going deep in meditation is only a means and it is not always necessary if the great experiences come easily without it. 8 April 1934
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Yes, that is the true basis. In the perfect equality wholly united with the Mother —so the higher consciousness can be lived and brought even into the outermost parts of the nature. 22 May 1934
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I wrote a prayer to the Mother. Her answer to it was: "Open
Page – 190 your heart and you will find me already there." What exactly did she mean by "already there"? What Mother meant was this that when there is a certain opening of the heart, you find that there was always the eternal union there (the same that you experience always in the Self above). 2 July 1935
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I saw in a vision a basket full of the flower "Gratitude". What does it symbolise? It is the gratitude to the Divine that it indicates —which will come as the soul opens to the Light and Truth and gets the experience and the joy of union with the Mother.
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